It Hates To Be Me - danea (hardest books to read txt) 📗

Everyone saw the Joyous in me, But no one saw the tears and sadness I left behind. There are so many tears in the heart that just wont reach my eyes. I wish I could show everyone why I'm sad and don't feel good. All my life I have been abused for no reason and I'm just tired of it. I'm really tired of just being me. I have taken my anger out on the wrong people and it needs to stop. I wish people could feel what I'm going through. Everytime I go to my counselor she says I'm hurt because no one really cares for me. But thats not the true. She told me the truth hurts, and yeah shes right but she don't know what goes on in that house. My mom and dad told me what goes on in the house stays in the house, and I've let it stay in there to long. I hate it when people tell me that there life is ruff. Well they should try living mines. I got up out of my bed and walked down the steps. Then my mom came up to me.
MOM: Hey honey me and your dad will be late were going to a meeting
Me: Ok have fun
I was happy when they left. I felt free from pain and free from the world. I didn't know why but thats how I felt and to be honest the way I felt, felt good.
MOM: Why are you so happy
Me: I'm not happy
Dad: Look babe we got to go now get in the car!!
They walked out. I wanted to make sure I cleaned the house before they came back beacuse one day I forgot and they beat me until I couldn't feel anything or my legs. That day I had spent hours wiping and cleaning the blood that dripped down from my body. Just thinking about what had happened made me shiver and I went to the kicthen to get to work.

I was in my room eating a bag of chips. Then my

Publication Date: 05-29-2012

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Dedication:
I dedicate this book to my friends.