Crazy (finished) - Danielle Palmer (digital ebook reader txt) 📗

a boy' balloons or Dallas (what we decided to name him. It's Delilah and Seth kinda combined.) All we had was ultrasound pictures which I held in my hand the whole time and a teddy bear that Seth got me from the gift shop. Everyone that we lived with came and saw me but I barley talked. Sage and Gage knew but they weren't able to leave their classes. I told them it was ok but I knew they still felt bad.
Nothing could cheer me up these days. Seth stayed with me the whole time but I barley said anything to him. Maybe I was being selfish but I had nothing to say. A part of me died with Dallas and I felt like I was useless. I felt really bad for taking this out on Seth. I know he lost Dallas to but he didn't carry him for 4 months and not even know. I feel like it's my fault he died.
“Baby we're home.” Seth said. He went to get out but I stopped him. “Um... I just want to apologize. I've been really selfish and-” He tried to stop me but I put my hand up. “- I had no right to be. I'm not the only one that lost Dallas. So I'm really sorry.” I smiled for real this time and leaned over to hug him. He hugged me back and kissed my forehead. “There is no reason for you to be sorry. It's understandable.” He replied as I pulled away. I nodded my head and climbed out the car.
The rest of the day everyone just hung out and watched movies. No one brought up the current events and I was thankful. Around 11 Seth told me he wanted to take me somewhere tomorrow so we said our good night’s and went to sleep. That night was actually the best I had slept in awhile. The pills made sure my stomach wasn't sore. I could actually cuddle with Seth. I laid my head on his chest and he put his arm around me and rubbed my back. “Love you.” He whispered softly. “Love you to.” I whispered back and feel asleep instantly.
Seth wasn't what woke me up the next day. The smoke alarm was going off like crazy. I sat up and looked for smoke but there wasn't any. He wasn't even in bed. I got up and ran down the stairs and into the kitchen. All the guys were in there holding pillows and fanning all the smoke. Felix and Jonathon were fanning out the windows while Deangelo and Zion were fanning the two smoke alarms on the ceiling. Seth was over the stove flipping some burnt pancakes. The second I walked in they all stopped what they were doing and looked straight at me. All there mouths an 'O's. I instantly started laughing.
“What are you guys doing?” They exchanged looks before Zion spoke up. “We were trying to make you and Karen breakfast but epically failed.” I smiled and shook my head. “You guys are sweet but should stay out of the kitchen.” They started laughing and cleaning up their mess. We all ended up eating cereal for breakfast after Karen woke up. After eating Seth told me to get ready. I didn't know where we were going so I wore black skinny's a plain white V neck shirt with white vans.
I waited outside on the porch for Seth. He walked out a couple minutes in the same thing as me. I looked at him to the side and smiled. “You plan this?” He pulled me up and pulled me towards his car. “No I didn't.” He laughed as we climbed into the car. I was about to ask where we were going but he shook his head like he knew it was coming. “Not telling. It's like 10 minutes from here so you can wait.” I sighed really loud which made him laugh. I turned on the radio but nothing was on so we settled for silence.
“That was way longer than 10 minutes.” I said as I unbuckled. He just laughed and shook his head before climbing out the car. He grabbed my hand and started walking towards a shop. It said 'Bound By Design'. There was cool design's and art work down the side of the building. “Figured it out yet?” Seth asked as we walked through the door. There was the sound of buzzing and I instantly knew where we were. “Are we getting tattoo's?” I couldn't hide the excitement out of my voice. He smiled and nodded. I thought for a second and came up with a good idea. “Can I get two?” I gave him my best puppy eyes. “Yeah I am to.”
We decided to keep it a secret and show each other when there down. The guy that was creating mine finished first. I followed him back to his station and sat in the chair. “Is right here good?” He asked as he positioned the name 'Seth' on my right wrist. “Yeah. Can we do the other one the same place?” He nodded his head and started pulling out his supplies. I wanted both them in black so he only had to pull out that color.
It only hurt at certain points but other than that it wasn't bad. I was never the one to be afraid of needles. It only took him 20 minutes to finish it. I loved how it turned out. After I looked at it for a second he started on the next one. He positioned the word 'Dallas' on my left wrist on the same exact spot as the other one. “So why are you getting Dallas?” I hadn't expected him to ask so it kinda shocked me at first. “Miscarriage. We were able to find out it was a boy and decided to name him anyways. It's Delilah and Seth put together.”
“Oh um I'm sorry.” He said as he looked up at me. I wiped my eyes before I the tears fell. “No. Don't worry about it. It's fine.” I smiled and he continued to do my tattoo. After 10 more minutes he was finished. They both were in cursive and looked amazing. “Do you wanna show him before I wrapped them up?” I nodded and followed him to were Seth was. As we walked in the guy was saying that he was finished with his. He had got my name over his heart and Dallas name on the same place just on the other side.
“We had the same idea.” I smiled and showed him mine. He smiled and kissed me. We let them wrap them up and then paid. When we walked outside the sun was already setting. I didn't realize how late it was. “Thank you for this.” I said as we pulled out of the parking lot. “Your welcome.” He smiled and I melted. He always knew how to cheer me up. We may have our differences but I still love him and I know he loves me. My life may be crazy but it's also amazing and I wouldn't change it for anything. I was happy to be called Delilah Reed. Imprint

Publication Date: 03-25-2012

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