Amorous - Ameera Butt (dark academia books to read .txt) 📗

As they both went ahead fighting going further away from me and Lupe I walked towards Lupe asking what had happened.

“Lupe!” I ran towards him spinning him so he could face me as he fell hard on the floor in a quick moment. “LUPE!” I shouted out falling down with him as I put his head on my lap. He reached his fingers out towards me trying to wipe my tear drops of my cheeks.
“Ameesha? You’re here.” he whispered deadly.
“Lupe, how? What happened?”
“Well that filth stabbed me and Rupert hasn’t realised.”
“Lupe.” I cried out his name and I held his head in my hands.
“Ameesha promise me something.”
“Anything Lupe.” Tear drops started running out like a strong heavy waterfall. The fact that Lupe was coming towards the end of his lively life, dying painfully on my laps was the most painful thing to see.
“Keep my little brother happy. He loves you a lot and he can’t live without you. He’s had so many girls after him yet his eye caught you. You have beauty no doubt, but you have something no one else has. You have that special heart Ameesha…”
“Oh Lupe.” I cried out to him as every tear drop dripped on his face.
“Ameesha, promise me and make sure you don’t break that promise.”

“I-I-I pr-promise Lupe.” I was able to take out of me.
“Well, now its time to die.” he joked whilst bringing out his pain.
“Lupe…” I couldn’t get many words out of my mouth except his name. “Lupe, that’s not even funny.” yet I still gave him a little emotional chuckle.
“Its hilarious, otherwise you would give an emotional chuckle silly.”
“You’re so stupid.”

“Ameesha, I love you. You were a sister like, an awesome sister and in this moment I want to give you something.” He tried to get out of some pain as he took out a really small black and blue shaded diary and pulled my hand out so he could place it in my hands.
“W-what is this? You kept diaries with you?” I asked confused and sounding like i was teasing.
“Don’t push it Ameesha. I want to give this to you; it’s got my poems in it. You can have look, I would have given it to you on your future wedding day. Even though It would never actually might happen but I would give it to you.”
“Lupe, this is making me even more emotion. Can’t you see my tears?”
“Yes and I can see the eye liner getting all smudged as well.” he joked.
“I bent myself even more down and hugged him tighter; I’m just having my last moments with a brother.”
“Do me a favour, open the book and read out the first poem to me please.”

I opened the book out wide as I wiped my tears so I could see the words clearly. “Several Gen-Gen? What that word?”
“Generation.” Lupe called out.
“Seriously Lupe grammar!” I complained trying to wipe my tears out at the same time.
“Just read it will you!”
“Several generation’s love just for you. All the worlds happiness just for you. Heaven and wishes just for you. I will always be there just for you!” as i finished reading the most beauty lines ever my eyes tightly shut as a i rubbed my eyes and opened them again continue speaking. “Wow Lupe. I-I don’t know what to say to that.”

I looked down at him as his eyes started shutting gently; I covered my hand on top of his eyes as he released himself away. I gave a soft kiss on his forehead as I put him for Rupert to come back and find his brother dead. I didn’t want to leave Lupe there all alone but I didn’t want to see what happened between Hadwin and Rupert really, so I went ahead to that one place where I could feel myself again. A place to try to calm down, a place where I could sense Rupert. Mine and Rupert's amorous place. I think I needed to be in a place where I could perhaps calm myself down. I pulled open the small whole and entered into the place, I was already starting to feel so calm. As I got a buzz on my phone I looked at the time, it was four thirty! I wasn’t worried about people at home, I was worried about Rupert. I went across to the swing and sat there waiting patiently for Rupert to come and find me here, I was positive on the fact that he would know that I would be here. Sitting there I heard the aeroplane go over from amorous place. It had started getting dark now; I sat there silently in patient swinging myself.

As I swung on the swing a flashback returned to me which brought and flicked a tear drop down my cheek. A thought that only thinking about Rupert I could think of again. I was so in deep with my thought, with my flashback that I wanted to burst in tears but I controlled myself. I knew I was eventually going to break!

As I sat on the same spot exact three weeks ago I sat here and thought to myself if I was actually worth anything in life or if my life was worth anything. As I lower my head to his shoulder I thought of many things about my life and myself. As Rupert brushed his smooth fingers through my silky hair I started a conversation with him.

“Rupert, am I actually worth anything in life, does my life actually mean something?” I asked wondering.
“Ameesha, why ask? I can’t give you a worth, you are officially priceless. Well at least you’re priceless to me and of course your life is important, if you didn’t exist how would I survive in life?”
“Explain me to myself.” I told him. He looked at me and gave an awkward look and gave a little giggle.
“Explain you?”
“Yeah, tell me something…”
“Ameesha, you are so silly. Did you know that?” He didn’t stop himself to even think, he just took a quick exhale and went on answering me. “What can I say, you’re the only person that makes me speechless Ameesha Grint!” he laughed to himself as he continued talking. “You touch my heart every time you speak; your voice is like a gentle blossom calmly hitting the floor without being harmed. Your skin is pure as a white dove, your eyes show deep innocents and your attitude to people demonstrate your kind heart. Ameesha every bit of you is worth so much. Don’t sell yourself out to others, pull them into your heart and love them. You deserve the best; in fact you deserve more than just the best! You’re beautiful and you’re amazing just the way you are so don’t even think about changing yourself, if you’re getting any ideas!”

I didn’t say anything to him; I walked out of amorous place in silence towards my next lesson that day...
Life

Suddenly I came back to reality out of that flashback and realised how much he actually love me. To get rid of that innocent love would be a big crime. I would never survive not knowing how life would have been with Rupert. I couldn’t do anything I was frozen into one place. I had realised that now I even had stopped swinging on the big purple swing… One tear drop fell, following second not long after a third one. I couldn’t tolerate it no longer. I wanted to scream out shouting for Rupert, he was the only one I wanted to be around now; I wanted to build my life around him. If he didn’t come out alive from his fight I would never forgive myself. I should have let Hadwin kill me instead.

What life sometimes brings us too? Life plays daft pranks on you at time, you just need to try hard and decide if it’s right or if it’s wrong what you’re deciding. Is not loving someone back who loves you dearly is a bad sin or is it a joke that life plays on you. It hurt painfully to think about that, I could see myself dying away in the thought as I felt very strong electricity. At that moment I stood myself up and shut my eyes tightly understanding what was there for me. I didn’t smile nor dare to move.

He came in from behind and held me in his arms wrapping himself around me like a blanket. He kissed my forehead and let me rest my head on his shoulder as he wiped my tear drops.
“You can use my shoulders for your tears; I will let you rest on them until your eyes dry out.” I had noticed that everything was in real and it was very calm now. I rested myself smoothly into him and he held me tighter and tighter.
“He’s gone?” I asked.
“Forever!” he assured me.
“Rupert?”
“Yes. Ameesha?”
“Both of them have gone.”
“Yes.” I felt a tear drop out of his eye and land on my face yet I didn’t say anything to him, I didn’t want to make it worse for him.

“Rupert?” i asked softly.
“Yes?” he replied calmly.
“Lupe was an awesome person and I loved him a lot.”
“So did I Ameesha. So did I…” he sounded pretty sure about my statement.
“He’ll rest in peace. Can I say something to you, as poem?”
“Right now?”
“Yes please.”
“Okay.”
“Several generation’s love just for you. All the worlds happiness just for you. Heaven and wishes just for you. I will always be there just for you!”
“Lupe’s poem. He always wanted to give that diary to you Ameesha.”

“Rupert, never let go of me, never leave me. I’m too afraid to leave you now. Since you had come into my life I had a positive side to me, I even like the sun as well, obviously not as much as the moon but I like it. I didn’t like the heat as much as the cold but it was okay now.” he didn’t say anything he stood there against me stroking my hair as I continued speaking. He was afraid that I might slip out of arms so he started pushing me against him tighter and harder so he doesn’t lose me in the atmosphere. “Don’t worry Rupert, I will never leave you. I’ll hold you tighter than you will hold me.”

“I love today but tomorrow and onwards I will love you even more and more Ameesha!”
“I can’t argue with that.”
“I know right! I am so awesome!” he joked about with me.
“Rupert tell me you’re feeling right now…”
“I can’t tell you, I don’t know exactly what to say.”
“You can say so much Rupert, just say it please.”
“My feeling about you can’t be defined Ameesha!”
“Rupert?” I spoke, thinking how annoying i must start sounding noww.
“Yes?”
“Can I ask you something?”