life ?? - chelsea johnson (bookreader .txt) 📗

to her please” I said he sighed but nodded
“Fine but im driving” he said I smiled
“Fine” we waited for another hour before we could leave and then we rushed to his car and he drove me home.
We pulled up and we got out and all but ran to the door
“James im home” I shouted
“What’s wrong with... and who’s this?” he said looking at Loz
“Mate where’s sash” I asked more concerned about her than anything to be honest
“Upstairs” I went to go but he stopped me
“I wouldn’t” he said looking at me warily
“Why” I asked him
“Because she slammed every door she could get her hand on and she has been up their for two hours strait with out even coming out for a toilet” he said concerned
“Crap” I said remembering what she did when mum and dad walked out on us thinking it was her fault she punished her self
“Run!!” James shouted Loz pushed past me as if reading my thoughts and we stopped just out side her door.
I took a deep breath and i knocked on the door timidly “sash” I said
No answer i took a deep breath and just as I was about to break the door down I herd her mumble something
“What” she whispered
“I need to talk to ya” I said relived
“Go away” she screamed and through something at the door we all flinched
“Go down stairs” loz said
“Are you crazy” James whispered I looked at Loz and I knew he had a plan
“You have 2 hours or we are coming back up” I said grabbing James arm and we walked down stairs
Lorenzo’s point of view
I took a deep breath and knocked on the door
“Hello didn’t you hear me” she screamed
“Can you open the door please?” I asked timidly
“Lorenzo?” she whispered in shock
“Yer” I chuckled
“Can you open up I wanna talk” I said slowly
I herd her sigh and she unlooked the door and opened the door. She was still in her clothes she was wearing her make up smeared from where she had been crying but she never looked better as far as I was concerned she smiled timidly and it took my breath away ‘what the hell you are not aloud to think this of your best mates sister’ I scolded my self I smiled at her and she moved away from her door so I took that as my entry
I looked around her room she had a blue walls like the night sky (all the walls were this colour except one wall it had a forest at night with a full moon it looked magnificent) with stars on her roof, she also had a small single bed that she could fit in easily with her small frame, there wasn’t any posters on her walls or pitchers of her family, she had a desk in the corner looking out into the forest and the fields I could see she had been drawing the forest at different times as her art work was scattered around the desk, then I saw what i was looking for make up wipes I grabbed the packet and sat down next to her and started to clean her face she didn’t protest she just watched me with curiosity
“So why are you hiding in hear” I asked her
“Life...” she said grimacing I continued to clean her face with a wipe she smiled as I did this
“Well I got to say life can be amazing sometimes” I said smiling at her
She sighed “have you every got so many good things happen at once then when you finally find something you like and maybe even love you life turns upside down” she said looking down
“Yer I have actually” I said pulling her chin up with my finger she looked into my eyes and I looked into hers I smiled and she bit her lip
“Don’t bite your lip” i scolded her, she blushed and let her lip go ‘thank god’ i thought she looked well sexy doing that
“Wait what are you doing hear” she asked confused
“It don’t matter at the moment” I said smiling at her I had finally finished cleaning her face she was gorgeous why the hell does she ware make up
“Why do you ware all that crap” I said she froze and stood up
“Crap” she said looking at me with fear and biting her lip again
“Did you wipe it all off” she said looking at me with fear
“Yes of course, you don’t need it” I said standing up
“YES I DO” she shouted at me
“Why” I growled back
“Because I have flaws, im ugly” she shot back
“Why do you think that, who told you that” I whispered in shock I stepped forward
“It’s my fault my mum and dad walked out, dad was always telling me I look nothing like my mum, she beautiful and im not” she shouted looking down I could hear how much pain that coursed her to say
“What, it’s not your fault your parents didn’t care enough to look after you. You are gorgeous in every way possible” I said she looked up at me as tears spilled over her eyes I pulled into my chest and she hugged me back instantly
“Why do you think you’re so ugly that your mum left you? Must know that it wasn’t your fault and why do you think you have flaws?” I asked her
“Because I do, and because mum and dad never sent me to school but they sent rick. And I am not perfect like other girls, im ugly, and im fat, and I aint good at maths unlike everyone else, I. Am. Ugly. I. Have. Scars. I am not pretty I have been told that a million times” she whispered back I pulled her at arms lengths away so she could see my eyes and know that I mean every word I am about to say
“Right listen to me you, you DO NOT have to be perfect nobody is perfect. YOU ARE NOT fat, YOU ARE NOT ugly, it doesn’t matter what’s on the skin it matter’s about what’s under the skin that counts, and you ARE gorgeous IN EVERYWAY POSSIBLE ask anyone and for the people that say those horrible things the are just jealous” I said I saw how much that meant in her eyes and I wiped a stray tear from her eyes
“Loz do you want to stay for dinner James said it was ok” Rick shouted up
“Yes he does” Sasha answered for me
Rick shot up the stairs followed by James, Rick pulled Sasha into a hug and James stood their in shock
“You’re not wearing any make up” James said in shock
“I know” she smiled towards me
“Mate listen, I don’t know how you done it but thank you” James said sounding sincere
“She needed to hear the truth, not a lie, not an insult, the truth and that’s what i told her” I said smiling at her she blushed and looked down
“Thanks man” Rick said to me i smiled
“So what’s for dinner im starving” Sasha said we all laughed and went down stairs
“Wanna watch a movie” Sasha asked me and Rick
“Yer lets watch a scary one” Rick said
“NO, ill be scared” she said looking down
“I am sure that Loz with hug ya when you get scared” Rick said in a teasing tone
“Yer, of course I will, I don’t mind” I said she smiled and we all went in to Rick’s bedroom
“How about ... fright night on night’s street” Rick said I saw the fear in Sasha’s eyes and nodded
“Go for it” I said as my subconscious is saying ‘what the hell, do you want to lose a friend over a girl’. Yes i answered it ‘don’t be a loser, you don’t want to lose Rick now do ya’ no i replied ‘good boy’ my subconscious praises me for doing what’s right
“Hey, erm what’s the time?” I asked Rick
“About 5 ish why?” he said looking at his watch
“I can’t stay to watch the whole film sorry” i said
“Ok well we will eat dinner while watching T.V. then I will walk you to you’re car” Sasha said smiling at me
“Naa don’t worry about it I think I can walk to the end of the drive with out being killed trust me” I said smirking I saw her frown and that killed me
“Ok guys if you’re finished I would like to watch the film” Rick said I laughed and we sat in silence. I could not concentrate on the film all I could think about was Sasha, I kept looking at her and my subconscious kept telling me to look away she court my glance twice and she smiled and inched closer to me
“I have to go” I said standing up when Sasha was almost on my lap
“Why?” she asked me
“My dad will be home soon” I said walking down the stairs and out the door before she could protest
Sasha’s point of view
Lorenzo just stood up and said he had to go and walked out before I protest.
“What’s up with him?” Rick said
“Dunno” I said I suddenly felt alone and my heart was hurting like mad i walked over to Rick’s bed and lay down I clutched my chest but soon fell asleep.
I woke up in a cold sweat “arrrr” I screamed and Rick shot up stairs and into the bedroom quicker than i thought it was possible
“What’s up” he said panting
“JOSH!” I said frozen with fear
“What do you mean josh” he asked me looking so confused
“I mean like he was in the bed, were I was sleeping” I stated
“WHAT!!” Rick yelled
“JOSH!!!!!!! JAMES!!!!!!!” Rick shouted josh came out of Rick’s bathroom and Rick pinned him up against the wall and James ran up the stairs towards Rick’s room
“RICK STOP” I shouted he new I hated violence
“NO” he growled I have never seen him so angry in my life
“Please i just had a nightmare and now this...” i whimpered and slid down the wall with tears coming out of my eyes, Rick slowly let Josh down and came by my side
“How long have you been having these nightmares” James asked me
“Two nights so far” I whispered
“What, why didn’t you tell me” Rick said looking at me with hurt eyes I always told him every thing
“Because I didn’t want you to over react” I whispered
“SASHA ISSABELLA JOHNSON” he shouted
“Why on earth didn’t you tell me and don’t lie this time” he said sitting next to me
“Because, well... in the dream someone saved me and i don’t think that it was you” I whispered looking at him
“Well who was it?” he asked i could see the curiosity burning in is eyes
“RIGHT HOUSE MEETING” James shouted ‘perfect timing’ I thought
Ricks point of view
We all walked into the dining room and everyone took a seat (everyone except Sasha) I huffed and we sat in silence
“Right I have called you lot hear for two reasons” James started to say before Maddi butted in
“Where is Sasha?” she asked
“She doesn’t need to be hear because it does not concern her” I spat at