MANIAC'S MIRROR - antim abhay (best large ereader TXT) 📗

theory that the foreknowledge of the way will eliminate any hope of escape is being tested as I write this or is already tested and implemented somewhere as a law. Just remember in the game in which you are trapped you are one of a kind nobody knows what you can do, so no one can tell you what to do. Other are also trapped in the same game in the same time but you won’t know, in a way no one except you is trapped in this snare built by Kilkanuks for Shanurians. All about whom you care their souls are trapped somewhere else, not around you what you see is a strange illusion. You will always be wondering who is friend and who is enemy because of the signs you’ll receive. These signs about which others have no idea maybe significant maybe not, I haven’t learned what I have learned. I have no enemy no friend once you come out of this maze you’ll know who was your friend; the enemy is same for all of us, you’ll know about him. I had a dream when I came out; I was welcomed by my friends who I thought were trapped but there were few who were still enslaved. Kilkanuks are controlling the free will of you and all the sentient beings around you so stop blaming anyone for their actions, as you will make your way to the exit your free will would become stronger. You’ll think they are hiding things from you because they think you are hiding things from them. I know it’s not your doing, you are innocent keep in mind that you can’t do anything about it they’ll take you to the top one time they will ditch you another time don’t waste your time thinking why, just don’t bother you have to keep going on with one thing in mind that you must to escape. Every sentient thing in your world has knowledge about you, false or true does not matter, you have to trust that there is something you know that only you and nobody in your world knows, this something will give you your key to liberty. Although I have been through all that I have, I do not regret the many hardships I met, because it was they who brought me to the place I wished to reach. I was the one who chose to walk this path. Now I live because I am a warrior and because I wish one day to be in the company of him (your master Alyonushka) for whom I have fought so hard. I do not know I did it knowingly or not, what I know is I’m destroying the bars that enslave you. True courage is not the brutal force of vulgar heroes, but the firm resolves of virtue and reason. Now those whom I send to the Toolshed they are nostalgic. They are forced by the creator to help me. Division is judas inside my Toolshed, in your place its survival and somewhere its glory. I bring my prisoners their dead. I have strict masters. Wherever I may go, in heaven or in hell I have to pay them for the thing that should not be. Master, I have tried getting this uniform off but failed. Master you can come in any guise. When I catch the masters of the unknown powers in their trick I gain or lose something that I haven’t yet fully understood. No one can imagine what powers I have for example I can have any history I want. My wishes have been terminated as now it was easy for the Kilkanuks to track all the information about me. Either you are losing points or you are gaining points nothing else is happening. All you receive may be a trap or a key password. Alyonushka’s secret tells us that when you have a wish or a dream to fulfill first you have to choose yourself a small god (who is bodily present in your world). When you chase your dream you will face countless obstructions, you have to keep on fighting without giving up, but soon a point will come when you will start breaking and in the end you will give up, do not think all your efforts have gone in vain, you will be rewarded for your efforts and will be sent to some other world with a new life and sometimes new history but you may or may not remember your previous life. Now you may want to know what kind of reward you will get, it may be the same thing for which you fought or something better but you will have to share the prize with others who have fought for the same reasons as yours because the prize is only one for one lot and the one who has struggled hardest gets the biggest share of the prize. Your life is one big test which was made only for you to give, everybody plays the same game but they don’t know. When you clear one level of this game you will get the reward and there will be addition of qualities which were not present inside you as you move on to next level. Today I was given a chance to escape and I jumped to a place as beautiful as paradise but I don’t know why I came back that’s when I heard a voice say ‘KAYLE’. Maybe I came back to save you.

 

 I disappeared from where I was to back in time when everything started, the day I felt the essence of Alyonushka the first time, but before it I went to a place where whatever I wished happened and nobody knew me there. I was sent back where I belonged on the same day but different time. I think someone killed me in the past but succeeded only for a short time. The day I first teleported without my own effort, whatever I wished would started appearing by itself. I can take form of any sentient being that I know. At each level I had to find my God and then please him or destroy him or whatever I needed to do to save myself as well as the universe, as I reached the end of a stage my master came and taught me survival in the land of Kilkanuks and in the end I had to please the master of Kilkanuks. This master seemed weird or mad but it was a disguise. In the pre final stage all the Kilkanuks assembled together and asked for only one thing the times I failed they annihilated one of my worlds. Somehow I managed to kill them all then I became 'time'. My powers were gone and I stayed in original self my mind only did the work and I wasn’t aware of my body. Before the final stage all the other stages came again and again randomly I first identified it and then acted accordingly. When I found my old and lost things back I realized I was switching between stages. Then one day I found that the master I chose as I told you earlier and the Kilkanuks I faced all were dummies as soon as I realized this I became one like the masters of the unknown powers.

 

Somebody somewhere has killed me in the past you can’t even imagine the resplendent universes I have been into (the inhabitants of the planets were same, those I’ve known), this universe in which I’m trapped is nothing compared to them I only hope to meet those times again. The master gives one world to all. It doesn’t matter how one comes by the truth so long as one grasps it and lives by it.

 

It's time to wield the blade 

For now you have got some company 

The beast is drawing nearer 

On the metal wheels he ride

He has come to take your lives

On through the dead of night 

With Ivanushka ride 

Or choose your fate and die 

You have been dying since the day 

You were born 

You know it has all been planned 

The quartet of deliverance rides

A sinner once a sinner twice 

No need for confession now 

Cause now you have got the fight of your life 

Time 

Has taken its toll on you

The lines that crack your face 

Famine 

Your body it has torn through 

Withered in every place 

Pestilence 

For what you have had to endure 

And what you have put others through 

Death 

Deliverance for you for sure 

There is nothing you can do 

So gather round young warriors now 

And saddle up your steeds 

Killing scores with demon swords 

Now is the death of doers of wrong 

Swing the judgment hammer down 

Safely inside armor blood guts and sweat 

 

Last message of Ivanushka:

 

Half of them think I’m biggest, half think I’m smallest. The machine is being made and then destroyed, got to break this cycle I have to reach a conclusion. I am sending the cheaters to the Toolshed. I am cutting the chord now like Alyonushka. I could not possibly know where it would lead, but I knew it had to be done.

 

Arizel wanted sacrifice the bond is tainted now but sometimes I kill the lion and moreso this darkness is shrouding madness. I wake up, but I can’t sleep. The frequency of the attack is getting more than the blink of an eye when the demolition of the oblivion starts, and when I’m in the temple of the machine23.0, I am trying to catch the shadow of the deity of the oblivious treasure, each time I manage to see it, I get more time to live. I am in this temple by Arizel’s wish to build the contraption that will take the controls of the machines from Rakhtavar, the temple gives knowledge and gifts but I am waiting.

 

When a man lies

He murders some part of the world

These are the pale deaths

Which men miscall their lives

All this I cannot bear to witness any longer

Cannot the kingdom of Salvation take me home?

 

āakāśhvāni:

 

An archangel in bondage

Bedimmed and sold

Abandoned by heaven to the dead, dark and past

Cast her dispersions on life's brittle glass

And though her eyes still held fire

As stonewalls caged the beast

'Gainst the lassitudes of death

She fought but fell to greet

And midst lies in collusion

She was martyred to teach

Divinity and Lust are forever forbidden to meet

But he swore that they would

Before the veil could part their embrace

Her cold silent lips he kissed

And promised his religion in flames

Gravid with madness

Like a feculent dirge

That obsesses the heart

He is convened by words

To avenge her

And surrender

His soul to the dead to achieve

Prophecies of libidinous scourge

Horripilation braying o'er carious herds

Vexing nightmares

And their weak prayers

To a no one there

To hinder her decree

To clear the world of their disease

A gallant queen

In sunshine and in shadow

Had journeyed long

Singing a song

In search of freedom

But she grew old

This queen so bold

An o’er her heart a shadow fell,

As she found

No spot of ground

That was not enchained

And as her strength failed her at length

She met a pilgrim shadow

‘Shadow’ said she ‘where can it be, the land which is free?’

‘Over the mountains of the moon

Down the valley of shadow,

Ride boldly ride’

The shade replied ‘if you seek for El Dorado’

 

Alyonushkas:

 

Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow?

And did you know

Your stairway lies on the whispering wind

And as we wind on down the road

Your shadow is taller than our souls

There walks a lady we all know

Who shines white light and wants to show

How everything still turns to gold.

 

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