if you only knew - shelby sears (snow like ashes series txt) 📗

ok so never in my life have i been the kind of girl to cheat on my boyfriend, but it was not my fault. i was drunk and pissed at David. you see we go to the same college well I go he teaches, you see he had to go out of town for a confrenss for a week and i had classes to keep me bussie but then he calls me up saying he was staying longer cause one of his old gf was there and he wanted to see her. but what really got me was it was my 23 birthday and i really wanted him to be there. i love him more than anything in this world. we met when i was 18 and he was 27.he was teaching my older sis Carmen in her algebra class and it was love at first site. so for my birthday i went out sad and depressed, I went out to a bar and got totally waisted and met a guy and i kept the drinks on coming. you see I hate my birthday my mom died on my birthday picking my cake up. when I was 9. so he knew how badly i wanted to come out of my shell and be loved. but he wanted to see his old flame .well I left the bar with this guy and well you can figure the rest now he is suppose to be on his way home. and he says he will be over to my place and stay with me tonight.

I had just walked out of my shower and there he sat on my tub. hay he whispered. hay i said back i walked right pasted him to my bed room. and started to go through my pj drawer slamming my stuff around. he knew I was pissed off and I could care less ,I put on one of my old night gowns that he hated and got into bed. He turned off the light ,took his clothing off and climbed into bed with me. this is what usually happened when I was pissed at him. I rolled over and put my back to him he came up behind me and wrapped his arms around me. he started to trail kisses’ down my neck and ear .I grabbed his hand in mine and kissed it. no matter how mad I am at him it won’t last long .I’m so so sorry he finally says. and why is that? I ask .I wasn’t home for your birthday. no you weren’t were you ? no you were with an ex. I was trying not to cry. look babe let me make it up to you. yea and how you going to do that? he gets out of the bed and goes over to his pants. I figured he was grabbing a condom but he knows there in my side table drawer. he climbs back into bed and wraps me back in his arms. I was going to give you this at the end of your birthday night but um I think right now is perfect. he takes my hand and slips a wonderful ring on my finger, David I looked at him. I love you and i want to be with you for the rest of my life. Diana will you marry me? oh hear came the water works i rolled over and put my arms around him and kissed him. yea i will I love you so much. and I want to be with you forever .We made love that night and I let the problem roll to a crack in my brain.
When i woke the next morning he wasn’t in bed, I heard the shower in my bathroom Running .i went down stairs and made a pot of coffee when i had just poured my cup hear came my dad.hay daddy I kissed his cheek. My dad works the night shift. so he’s home all day and work all night. i set are cups on the table. he came and sat with me. so um dad he looked up at me and i showed him my hand .and a smile broke across his face he pulled me over and wrapped his arms around me .I knew teach wasn’t stupid .My dad loves David and now that were engaged he is estaic. I love yah baby girl. I love yah to. David came down stairs and dad gave him a huge hug. David gave me a kiss told me he see me later at school took his coffee and left.
When my sister Carmen was in college she got pregnant but would never tell us by who and that he didn’t matter. she has a wonderful 8 year old matty. my sis made it threw college and has her own bussiness all done for her and matty. I went to her house before i had to hit school. I heard matty yell aunty diana. he threw open the door and jumped into my arms hay baby i kissed him. Wheres mom at her office he said. ok i put matty in the play room right next door and went to her office. hay car hay she smilled. what cha doing hear? um David asked me to marry him. and i said yes. she looked up at me all happiness from her face. look car i know you don’t like him and i don’t know why but i love him cant you be happy for me. I am Im really happy for you. you deserve this. thanks um were having a big dinner his fam and ours tomorrow and i really want you to be there. can you mend fences for a night for me and please come? yea i will for you she smilled. ok I got to go but I love ya car i really do see yah later.
DAMN DIANA WHY WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS? “IF YOU ONLY NEW”
CHAPTER 2
The dinner started off well my dad and some of my other family came but my sister was late we had just started desert when she came threw the door. i got up and walked over to her hay.hay Im so sorry im late. its ok Im just, Im just glad your hear. come on she sat on dads other side and durring coffie she talked to everyone but david. I had no idea what was between those to but there both my family and i love them all.
as everyone was leaving i said my good byes carmen and david where no where to be seen i went off to find them i heard voices carmen was crying and she was pissed. i rounded the corner and there they were. I stood still not knowing weather to cut in or
to listen.
damn you david all i have to say is u better take care of my sister. and not treat her the way you did me do you hear me you hurt her and i sware to god david i will kill you. she started to stalk off so i went in to the bathroom and came out as david came round after her hi my sweet he leaned down to kiss me. i love you i said. me 2 he said and walked off to pay the bill.

over the next couple of days i started to move my things to David’s house a lot of my stuff was there but i wanted the rest of it. David had to go to
cali to visit his gram who was sick and dying. I asked him if he wanted me to go but he told me know if he needed me he would call and i should stay sense school was almost over to stay home He lives in a uptown appt and it has 3 bedrooms two are actual rooms and the other is a office he uses to keep all his stuff togethor my computer broke so I was using his when a IM popped up from Carmen what in the world i whispered. david it said I swear if you don't leave me and my son alone than there will be some big problms in the road ahead. i called car and asked her to go out to the club sence im done all my papers and things and David isn’t home yet not untill later tonight.
CHAPTER 3
When i walked into the club I felt so good. hot pink tank black miny and the best fuck me shoes you could imagine carmen was sitting at the table when i got there talking to jim the bartender. no hope there he's GAY hay car haaay she yelled and kissed my cheek. she was all ready tipsy.hay jim i kissed him ill talke a strawberry dakery and keep hers comming.
whats up diana what cha need to see me for? What I can't spend time with my wounderful sister i asked with a sad look on my face. naaaaa not you. she said ok than i said getting to the point whats going on with you and david? she chocked on her drink what???????? you heard me? what makes you think there is well lets see the night of the dinner party you two were fighting in the hall over me and a lot i probly missed second you keep calling and when he anwsers you hang up and than today while i was on the computer a im from you popped up saying to stay away from you and your son what did he ever do to you? he broke up with me for my sister .Carmen got her stuff and stalked off. Hugh I whispered.
When David came home that night i was out on the couch asleep I woke up to a pair of warm lips on mine i deepened the kiss and heard him moan he picked me up and put me on his lap i wrapped my arms around his neck and didn’t open my eyes until