Perish - Xhixhir Xolo (reading diary .txt) 📗

Once upon there was a man. His name was Patrick. Patrick was feeling worthless because he had failed in everything he had tried. He tried to become actor, he failed. He tried to become writer, he failed. He tried to become programmer, he failed. He tried become designer, he failed. He wasn't not fool who did same mistake every time. He taught many of his friends and they succeed in everything he taught. He even taught his friend who got job as programmer in Indian Army. He taught another friend who opened a web designing company. Patrick himself never succeed to do anything that bring him money. Money was something he don't have. He can't arrange anything necessary for him to succeed. He can't afford for studying his graduation. He didn't get job. His family was unable to send him in metro city where he can get any job. Patrick was hopeless.

Sooner Patrick become so depressed and unhappy. He grows bad habits such as smoking. After some years he become seriously ill. His parents money was now flowing in his illness. Patrick can't see her family going through such a great struggle to save himself. The reason of his dying was anxiety. He started working more and more but it didn't help as his small town has no opportunity for paying. He started studying day and night. He developed insomnia which further adds more to his disease. Patrick was now feeling his body leaving him. He felt he's going to die very sooner.  

Patrick friends disappeared from his life. He didn't have anyone to share his true problems. He tried praying but it didn't exactly works out. He felt lost. He had even lost courage to attempt suicide. Life get harder and harder as time passed.

One day he runaway leaving everything behind. His family, his problems, his memories and his body. Patrick died.

The trouble was his parent. The little Adam was grown up watching his mother and father loving him. He have never seen them fighting over anything. When he was in highschool, his father, the head of family whose decision everybody respect, decided to send his family to the village where they belong. Adam was still studying in school where his father was working. His elder brother and sister had to study in college. That was the one reason his father send them to village. The university was near from the village. Adam was studying for his examination. His father had to work at home and office. He was very busy. Adam made friends with many. But all of his friends live far from his government colony where he lived. One day he went to his friend who lives three miles away from him. His friend walks with him and Adam felt good spending time with him. From that they onwards he started visiting his friend often.

His friend was a smoker. He was smoking and insisted Adam for smoking. Adam said no to him. Next day, when they were sitting on bridge and watching fishes. His friend lit a cigarette and insisted again for Adam to smoke. Adam just for not disappointing and losing his best friend takes a puff of smoke. It didn't tasted good. He returned it back to his friend.

When he was going to sleep, he saw his father yelling at his mother over phone. He didn't ask him why he's yelling to his mother. The dispute over after sometime. He woke up  late in the morning. His father was gone. He goes to kitchen and found stale chapatis. He ate it. He watched TV for sometime and then started studying. He tries to concentrate but thought of last night made him feel bad. He called home. His mother told him about the neighbours who were forcing them to leave the house. Adam was worried. He went to his friend so he could spent sometime without worries and relax. Due to his friend request he smoked a cigarette with him while watching Transformer movie. He liked the movie so much and borrowed the all parts from his friend. When he returned his father was already at home waiting for him. He was having a cup of tea. Adam opened the door and entered in the hall where his father was sitting.

"Where were you", He asked, "I was waiting." He told him.

"I was at my friend's home." Adam answered him.

"Adam, I have got transferred to Patna. That mean now you are going to live alone while you complete your highschool. I could still afford this house till you complete your 12th if you want, but you have to decide in a week. Do you want to study here for two and half years or just for a half year."

Adam said he will tell him later. He called his mother. She told him about troubles they're facing there and how it is affecting studies and health. She advices him to stay there till he completes his school.

Adam studies and cook his own food. He passed his examination and returned home. His father transferred home. They have to shift home because of neighbours. After a year his father transferred to another city which was not so far from their new home. He came to visit home every Friday and returned on Sunday.

Adam's mother and father started arguing over small things. Adam was now becomes a chain smoker. Many times he had to jump between their fight and stop them from fighting. But the fight didn't stopped ever. His father and mother developed serious illness. His sister studied hard and moved to other city for higher education but his elder brother failed in many competition exam. Sooner the main object of fight was his elder brother. They all started fighting over his elder brother not getting successful. Adam decided to move out to other city where he struggles to find a job. He didn't get any suitable job which can pay him good money so he can stand on his own foot. Sooner he was force to leave the city and come back and help his parent in their illness. Adam dreams shattered one by one. He lose all hopes. The cigarette started blocking his neck and he started worrying.

His parents now was talking about divorce. Adam have never expected it from them. He loves his father and mother equally. He believes himself as the part of both characters. He tried to find who is wrong when they complained about each other behaviour. After some time Adam got seriously ill. The doctor informed his parents that he will hardly survive for a year or less. He have developed a disease known as MS. After many diagnosis and hopeless medicines. He got tired. He secretly stopped taking his medicines. He loss his clear vision and felt the strange sensation all over his body while he tries to sleep.

One night Adam had called his mother and father while they are sleeping in different rooms. Her mother came running first. He asked her to call his father. She called him. Adam can't see them clearly. They came and sits near him. His brother was standing at the door. Adam asked his parents to forgive each and other. Her mother was crying. He wanted to see the tears in his father eyes too. Her mother once told him that when he was born. He was too ill and once while his father was massaging him, father cried and pray for him. This was the first and last time she had seen his tears. Adam had never seen his tears. He takes a promise to his parents to love each other forever and never leave. Before Adam hands become lose he felt drop of tear on his face and he died.
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Danny was a student. He joined a classes for learning programming in a institute. He was intelligent and had already studied whatever the institute was teaching but for revision he joined the classes. Sooner he started helping others to grasp the concept. Danny became friend with a couple. The girl was Tina and the boy was Roy. Tina and Roy loved each other. They sit together at last bench of class. Danny made Tina his best friend and Roy also liked him caring his girlfriend whenever he is not present. There friendship grew stronger with the time. Susan was the Danny class teacher. She was beautiful lady. She was very caring and she began to care of Danny too. Danny was unknown to the metro city and also very innocent. Tina and Roy started teasing him that he loves Susan. To avoid teasing he accepted that he loves Susan. The other reason he accepted the Susan as his crush was Tina constantly pushing to patch up with somebody. Susan was honest and hardworking teacher. But she had lots of troubles already going into her life. Danny slowly started loving her. Susan was heart broken by somebody. Their friendship grew with time. One day Susan complained about Danny’s smoking. She said whenever he enters in class she hates the smell of cigarette. She recommended him to drink juices or anything that is not harmful. Susan likes playing games on computer. Danny helped her in teaching and other works. Tina and Roy complained their growing love. They told him he is going to end heart broken because she is too old for him. Danny knows that but he was in unknown relationship with her. One day Susan informed him about his father who arranged her to marry a man from Kolkata. She also told him that the man is engineer and working in Microsoft. Danny was very sad. Susan had to leave the job and go back to her city where she belongs. Danny on the last day didn’t propose her. He gave her lots of chocolates and a gift. She departed. She sent him her pictures till she finally got married and settled in Kolkata. Danny left the metro came back to his city leaving Tina and Roy alone.