Somewhere In Between - Kenzie McGeehan (black female authors TXT) 📗

Prologue
If people would just think before they speak, so many innocent lives could be saved. But no one cares. No one cared about mine. I always wondered what it would be like when I died. I guess I will know now. I thought suicide was the only way out. I was wrong, though. If I had only talked to someone that could’ve helped me, maybe… I don’t know where I am right now. I think I’m somewhere in between. I’m between life and death.

Chapter 1
“Get your ass out of that room right now or I’ll lock you inside of it!”
My mother is a wonderful person, isn’t she? My name is Julia Cindle. Some basic facts about me are that I am 14 years old and pretty average. We’re starting the story a couple of days before it all ended.
“I’m coming.”
“Why is the bathroom not cleaned up yet?”
“I didn’t get to it yet.”
“You’re just a lazy waste of space.”
“Thanks, mom. You really help with my self-esteem issues.”
“Don’t try to be sarcastic with me. I am a fantastic mother. You, on the other hand, are a pathetic loser. I don’t even know why I had you.”
That was the point at which I broke. I went into my room and cried myself to sleep. As I was crying, I wondered why God hates me. I figured he must hate me because there was no other explanation for my horrible life. Other people had called me names before. Names too horrible to repeat. I never thought that my own mother would ever be that cruel to me. That was when I started forming my plan. I tried to figure out which way would be the best to go.

Chapter 2
“Hey, freak show! How’s it going?”
That is Tasha, my arch-nemesis. She hates my guts for some unknown reason. She calls me freak show 24/7. I would be surprised to find out that she was smart enough to remember my name.
“Hello Tasha,” I mumble.
She was part of the reason I decided to off myself. I would finally be rid of her and her brain dead followers.
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I must be brain damaged. I told my best friend, Emma, what I was planning on doing. This was her response:
“NO! You’re not allowed!”
“How are you going to stop me?”
“I don’t know. I mean, what would I do without you?”
“You’ll find something, I’m sure.”
“You’re just being selfish.”
“SELFISH?! How?”
“Give me a minute and I’ll give you an answer.”
“I’d love to stay and finish this oh-so-fabulous conversation, but I have to go.”

Chapter 3
I had felt unreasonably calm all day. The time had come.
I took some money that I had stashed in my room and paid someone to go buy a gun for me. He was back in about two hours. Neither of us asked any questions.
I was crying before I did it. I don’t know whether it was because I was happy that it would finally be over or because I was sad to leave my life behind.
I wondered what would happen when it was over. What would the afterlife be like? Is there a heaven and a hell? Where would I go? Would anyone even care that I was dead? Would they stop and think about me?
I put the gun to my head and pulled the trigger.

Chapter 4
Do you know what I thought about before I lost consciousness? Tasha. I thought about how pathetic she would be with no one to pick on. I almost felt sorry for her.
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“Julia. Julia, wake up.”
“Who are you?”
“My name’s not important.”
The boy was beautiful. He literally glowed. He had wings the size of cars.
“You have to go back, Julia”
“Why? I don’t want to go back. Please don’t make me.”
“It’s not my decision. The doctors will save you. Goodbye.”
“Wait!”
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Now I’m somewhere in between. Not quite dead, but not completely alive.
“We’re losing her!”
I see a very bright light and feel like I’m moving very fast. Almost like I’m flying.
“She’s lost a lot of blood! Hurry up!”
There is way too much pain for me to possibly be dead.
I guess I survived. I’m too stupid to kill myself properly.
Who was that boy? Did I imagine him or did I really see an angel? I will find out.
I have a second chance. What will happen?

Publication Date: 10-09-2011

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