Just A Kiss - zzmbrashear (best reads of all time .TXT) 📗

to be.
“Have you done this before?” I asked him.
“No but I know what to do.” He said and took out a condom.
"So, you just have codoms in your pocket all the time?" I chuckled. She smirked as she opened it.

It was kind of awkward after. He laid staring at me as I sat up. I grabbed my shirt and put it back on. I looked into his eyes as he kissed me. There was something different about him. I wasnt sure what it was. It was almost as if he had this new burst of confidence. Something Ive never seen in him.
“Miley?” He asked and looked at me.
“Yes.” I replied.
“Are we okay?” He asked.
“Of course.” I said but I really didn’t know.
About a week later I saw him leaning against a locker after third block. I walked up behind him. I was about to wrap my arms around him but then I noticed he was talking to a girl.
“So listen. Your pretty. I’m cute. Together we’d be pretty cute. Will you go out with me?” He asked. He was wearing his football jersey. He was now the star quarter back.
“Okay.” She said in a nervous but happy voice.
“I’ll pick you up at five. Stay sexy.” He said and then pointed to her and winked. She closed her locker and looked at me. He walked away. Jake didn’t know I was watching. I walked up to him. I was as angry as a ball of fire in a forest.
“What the hell was that?” I asked while pushing him.
“Woah Babe, calm down.” He said and looked at his group of friends.
“No! I will not calm down! Now tell me what the fuck was that!” I demanded. He was getting embarrassed. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into an empty room and closed the door.
“Miley, just calm down.” He told me. He no longer talked like a jerk and he didn’t use any slang.
“What the fuck is wrong with you? Do you just act like someone else to be cool?” I asked me.
“You don’t know what its like. To be made fun of and never asked to be in anything. I was invisible, Miley. I just wanted to be part of something. Something that made my life worth living.” He said. I felt horrible that he felt this way but there was absolutely nothing I could do about it and treating me like shit to be cool is not worth it either.
“So you want to treat me like a road kill just so you can be cool? Thats not right!” I said. I was yelling but I didn’t care.
“You are still not getting it! I was nothing. Now I’m someone. I’m not giving this up!” He said. I stormed out of there. He chased after me. I made it half way down the hall before he grabbed me.
“Did the kiss mean nothing to you? It mean’t the world to me. I love you but you don’t see that.” I said. He dried the tears that were rolling down my cheek. He lifted my head up and looked me in the eyes.
“It was just a kiss.” He said with a soft voice. I bitch slapped him across his face. He dropped his jaw. I dropped my books ran at least five miles to get to my house. I couldn’t stop running because then I would start to think. I stopped running and went straight up to my room. How could I get in that deep? How could I fall for someone so horrible? How could I have created that? I didn’t know the answers to any of this. The next day everybody was looking at me and whispering. Its not like I didn’t know what they were talking about. I put everything into him and he just used me.
“Miley?” Michelle asked. I was putting my books into my locker and she was standing behind me. I turned around with tears in my eyes. I jumped into her arms. “It’s okay.” She whispered over and over again. She stroked my hair. It was relaxing, like I believed what she was saying. Michelle is always there for me. Through thick and thin. I looked up. She wiped my tears. “I know, honey.” She said. I didn’t even have to use words. She picked up my books out of my locker. “Lets go.” She said and headed out the door. She knew I couldn’t be in this school right now. We got about halfway down the street and started to talk.
“I know that you most likely don’t want to talk but where you in love with him?” She asked me.
“Yes.” I said and tried to stop my sobbing.
“I know its hard to find love but-,” She began to say but I interrupted her. I knew where she was getting at. Michelle knows its too. There are always more fish in the sea but your first love is alway more special.
“Its not that! Michelle,” I screamed. My voice got more quiet.” I think I’m pregnant.” For a while Michelle didn’t say anything. She just stood there. Looking at me.
“What?” She asked quietly. I didn’t say anything. I fell to the wet ground. I was sobbing even more than before. She got on her knees too. “Miley, what did you do?” She asked. I saw she was crying too.
“Michelle.” I cried. She hugged me.
“I can’t save you from this one, honey.” She said. I knew she couldn’t save me. After about an hour of us sitting in the deserted sidewalk crying, I stood up. I wiped my tears and stood tall.
“Thank you.” I said to her.
“For what?” She asked me.
“For being a real friend. You were true from the beginning. You never left me. You cry when I cry. I love you, Michelle.” I said.
“I love you too, Miley.” She said and hugged me.
“I wish it could stay like this forever. Just you and me but your going to have a handsome husband and adorable children and I will be the lonely one keeping you back.” I said and hung my head.
“Even if I do have all those things, you could never hold me back because you’ll be at my side.” She said. We walked a local store on my street.
“I can’t go in there.” I said. She saw the fear on my face and went in for me. I watched through the window. She went to the section where the pregnancy section was and got two pregnancy test. She walked to the counter and paid for them. I saw the look the cashier gave her. I feel terrible.
“I’m so sorry I made you go in for me!” I said when she got to me outside.
“Don’t worry its fine. I got you two because the first may not be accurate.” She said and handed them to me. We headed for my house. The minutes leading up to me peeing on that stick was torture. When I got to the bathroom I had never been so terrified to pee in my life. I waited for two minutes and then looked at the stick. Before I even saw the answer I closed my eyes. I couldn’t do it. Michelle came in.
“Are you okay in here.” She asked. I was sitting on the sink. She came up to me. “Whats the results?” She asked.
“I don’t know. I can’t look. What if I am pregnant? What will I do?” I started to panic. She put her hand over my mouth to shut me up. Her red hair covered her face.
“I will look.” She said and then took the stick out of my hand. She looked at it and then threw it away. She didn’t say anything. She opened the second box and took out the other stick. “ Pee on it!” She demanded. So I did. After three minutes this time she looked. She didn’t say anything. She came up and hugged me. That made me think I was okay. That was until she said,
“It will be okay.” I started to cry.
“No! No, no, no, no, no, no, no.” I repeated over and over. She put her hand on my mouth again.
“Sh.” She said and pushed my blonde hair aside. “I will be here every step through.”
“Oh god, I’m going to be sick.” I said and then bent over the toilet. I vomited everything. I heard Michelle crying. She held my hair back. I was crying and vomiting. A horrible combination. Once I was finished I sat up.
“Are you going to tell him?” She asked me.
“How can I? He doesn’t love me. I don’t want him to obligated to love me either. No one can know!” I said to her.
“I know.” She replied. I stood up and went to my room and sat on the bed.
“This is it.” I said.
“What do you mean?” She asked following me and sitting next to me.
“They are going to kill me. You know that right?” I said. “I’m too young. I don’t want to think about it anymore. Can we go to the park?” I asked her and she nodded and headed out the door. I followed behind her.
As we walked silently I admired the hues or orange, red and even a little yellow, that was surrounding me. I kicked leaves as we passed them. Michelle decided to break the silence.
“We can run away.” She said in one quick breath. I was stunned. Little miss perfect Michelle. Never doing anything wrong, wants to run away and with me of all people!
“What?” I said in astonished.
“I mean do out parents even know that we exist? They never pay any attention. They wouldn’t even miss us!” She said but it was some what true. With her Mother drinking her worries away and my parents working twenty for seven, they never see us.
“Your crazy.” I said. I was totally serious. I looked at her and her red hair blew in the wind. I looked up and saw a flock of birds in a v shaped heading over me. I kept staring. “If I were a bird I would fly and fly and never look back.” I said in a very quiet voice. I didn’t even mean to say that aloud.
“Will you run away with me?” She asked me.
“How will we get money, clothes, and what happens when they baby comes?” I asked her. I started to panic even though we haven’t even decided if we actually will run away.
“We can bring our own clothes and we will figure the rest out when it comes up.” She said. I put my hands on her shoulders.
“Whats wrong?” I asked her. Michelle always does the right thing and never disappoints anyone. She looked straight into my eyes. Then looked away.
“My Mom moved out.” She paused for a second and sat down in the grass. “I was almost asleep last night when I heard them arguing. Uh, my Dad admitted that he wasn't happy and my Mom admitted it too then they said that they knew each other were cheating. My Mom started to cry then my Dad said that something had to be done. My Mom cried even harder and then when I woke up she wasn’t there. Miley, I miss her. Its been about two weeks and she hasn’t come back. I can’t look at him and keep missing her.” She said. I leaned over and hugged her.
“It will be okay.” I told her. I wiped the smudges of makeup off