Just A Kiss - zzmbrashear (best reads of all time .TXT) 📗

not you. I can’t keep doing this. Its not me.” I told him. I knew it sounded weird and I knew it didn’t make sense but that’s how it was. He sat back down in his seat and turned on the car. He drove me to work. “Thank you.” I told him once we arrived. I walked into the store and he drove off faster than smoke could rise. I saw Emily waiting for me.
“You’re late!” She said with a mad voice but I could tell she was trying to hide it.
“I’m sorry. It won’t happen again.” I told her as I went to my locker and put on my apron. I started ringing things up. Jesse came through the door. He looked like he was on a rampage.
“Jesse, If you’re not buying anything then please leave.” I told him in a whisper.
“No! I will not leave!” He started to raise his voice. “What about that night under the stars? The kiss?” He touched his lips then threw them down. “How can we share something like that and then you tell me that we can’t again! I love you Miley. Don’t you understand that?” He asked. I looked into his eyes. He didn’t have that sparkle anymore. The sparkle that invited me in, that made me see a light around him. It was gone and instead was darkness that I couldn’t see past. He looked crazy.
“Jesse, don’t do anything that you are going to regret.” I told him. I was getting scared. I backed a few steps back but he kept walking towards me.
“If I can’t have you then nobody can.” He said and took a pistol from his side coat pocket.
“Oh Dear God!” I screamed when I saw the gun. “Jesse put that away!” I screamed. Emily heard my screams and ran out of the office. I looked around. There were at least ten people in by my register. They were all flat on the ground. Jesse didn’t see her run out. She crouched down. She crawled over to her desk. She came back and I saw she had a gun. I took a deep breath. “Jesse, put the gun down.” I said in a calm voice. I slowly started to walk towards him.
“Stop moving! I don’t want to have to do this!” He screamed. I looked at his hand. It was shaking vigorously.
“Put the gun down and no one has to get hurt.” I told him.
“No! This has to be done.” He said and I saw his finger starting to move to the trigger. I closed my eyes. I shot went off and I bit my lip. I felt tear after tear roll off my cheeks. I heard everyone scream with the sound of the shot. I opened one eye to find that I was okay. I looked down at my feet. Jesse laid with both eyes open and one bullet through the chest. I kelt down and started to cry. He had a drip of blood coming from his mouth. I started to sob over him. I looked into his eyes and the darkness was gone. His lips started to move but it was hard to hear. I put my ear to his lips and heard.
“Sorry.” He said and then exhaled. His chest stopped moving. No words came out of his mouth. I cried more and more. Emily came out from crouching and walked over to me. She pulled me off him and comforted me.
“Why.” I cried.
“If I didn’t that would be you lying there.” She said. I kept crying and crying. I fell to my knees. Emily drove me home. She walked me to my room. “I will see you tomorrow?” She asked.
“Yes.” I told her. “Can I ask you something?” She nodded her head. “How did you find the courage to shoot him?” I asked her.
“Miley, when I was younger I ran away too. I ran away with my older sister. You remind me a lot of her. Miley, when you work for me you’re going to be like family. Don’t worry. I have your back.” She told me. Some how that made me less worried.
“Do you want a cup of coffee?” I asked her.
“Sounds good.” She said. I unlocked my door and went inside. She sat at the table. I put a pot on. I sat across from her. I was still jumpy. The coffee pot dinged when it was done and I jumped.
“Oh jeeze.” I said once I realized what it was. Emily reached across the table and touched my hand.
“Miley, talk to me.” She said. I sighed.
“I know you had to but he was my first. He was nice to me when I came here. My world was crashing and he seemed to make me feel better.” I paused. “When I heard that shot,” I paused again. “I thought it was me. My heart sinked to my toes. When I opened my eyes I thought I would have seen pearly gates but instead I saw a man. Lying on the ground with a pistol in one hand. He laid gasping for a breath. Do you know what his last words were?” I looked up and asked her. I saw a tear falling from her eye. “He said sorry. I felt something for him. It wasn’t fair he had to die.” I said. I felt tears coming so I rubbed my eyes.
“I know.” She said. I cut her off before she could say more.
“No. Emily, you don’t know. You may have shot him and I know that must have been hard but you really don’t know. My world is crumbling before my eyes and its like I’m frozen and can’t put it back together.” I told her.
“I’m so sorry.” She said.
“Oh Emily, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to blow up at you. Its not your fault.” I told her.
“Its perfectly fine.” She said.
“I will get the coffee.” I told her and got up. I took two cups out of the cabinet and pour us two cups. My hands were still shaky. I handed her her cup and then took a seat. “You have no idea how much you have done for me. For us. Without that money we wouldn’t have this apartment or a bed to sleep in or food. You have been a guardian angel to us.” I told her.
“Its my pleasure.” She said. Caleb walked out of his room. He was rubbing his eyes.
“Miley.” He cried. I got up and picked him up and sat on the couch.
“What’s wrong honey?” I asked him.
“I had a bad dream. You were gone and I was left all alone and I never got to see mommy and daddy again.” He said with a whimper.
“That would never ever happen!” I told him and held him tight. I heard Emily say aw. After about ten minutes he fell asleep and I put him back in his bed.
“I don’t want to get in your business but he is going to have to see his parents sooner or later. You can’t keep him from them.” She said.
“I know. Its just not the right time.” I told her.
“Its never the right time.” She was right. If I keep using that excuse it will never be the right time. She left later that night.


!!!!!!!!THREE MONTHS LATER!!!!!!!


Caleb has been having more nightmares. I went to go talk to Michelle. I learned my lesson from last time, I knocked first. She answered the door.
“We need to talk.” I told her. We both sat down on her bed. “Caleb needs to see our parents. He’s having bad dreams.” I told her.
“How do you want to do this?” She asked.
“Well, I was thinking that first we would call them and talk and then set up a visit.” I told her. I was waiting for her to tell me what she thought.
“Thats perfect.” She said.
“Okay. We will call in the morning. Night.” I told her and then left the room. Its been almost three months since we have seen my parents. It will be nice to talk to them and see how they’re doing. I’m scared what they will do. Will they try to take him away from me? What will they say about the baby? I’m almost five months pregnant. There’s not much they can do. I was just scared all together. I dialed my house phone. I breathed deep and slow. Michelle was sitting across from me on the couch.
“Hello?” I soft voice said on the other line.
“Hi Mom.” I said.
“Miley! Dear God! Honey where have you been?” She cried. The water works started to come.
“Mom, were somewhere far away. I miss you.” I told her. I wiped my face.
“Baby I miss you too. Come home darling. Come home to Mommy.” She said. I knew she was crying too.
“I can’t. Caleb and I.” I started to say. “I just can’t.” I finished.
“How is he?” She asked.
“He great. He has taken up the hobby of skateboarding. He goes three times a week. He quiet talented.” I told her. She cried even harder. “Do you want to see him?” I asked her.
“Yes! Oh sweet Mary Yes!” She screamed. “Miley, I’ve changed. I’ve been sober for two and a half months. Your father stopped too. We are ready honey.” She said.
“Mom, its going to take more than that.” I told her. Michelle grabbed my hand. She knew I needed someone right now. “I will bring him tomorrow.” I told her and then hung up. I gasped for air when I pressed the end button. I squeezed my chest.
“Its okay. Let it out.” Michelle said as she held my hair out of my face. My heart felt like it was going to explode. I took a deep breath. I did so much to get away from it all but I can’t do that to Caleb. I have to. I packed some of our clothes into the truck. I wasn’t planning on staying with my parents. I just had to see them. Chris helped me put my bags back into the truck.
“When can I see you again?” He asked.
“Chris,” I paused. He put his hands on my waist.
“Don’t.” He said.
“Don’t what?” I asked him. I wanted to move his hands but I didn’t want him to feel awkward.
“Don’t say goodbye.” He said. I touched his cheek and stared into his crystal clear eyes. I saw a sparkle. I sighed unable to say the words I wanted.
“I want to stay. I want to stay in your arms forever. But I’m scared of getting hurt!” My conscious screamed to me. Thats what I wanted to say. What was trying to burst out of me. But thats not what I can say. I cant show that I’m weak.
“Chris, your amazing. Your kind and smart and sweet. Any girl would be blessed to have you.” I said. I was about to say more but he interrupted me.
“But not you! I’ve heard this many times before! I treat girls like gold and they throw my into the trash!” He said. He threw his hands to his sides. I out both my hands on his cheeks. His skin was so silky.
“I can’t be in a relationship. Not with everything going on.” I told him. He looked into my eyes.
“I can tell this hurts you.” He said.
“You have no idea.” I told him. I wasn’t in love with Chris but he was one of the most kind guys I’ve ever met and I don’t want to lose him.
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