In Me - Tiffany Anyel (shoe dog free ebook txt) 📗

you too—I’ll holler when the food is ready which should be here shortly.” “Okay thanks,” I get up slowly walking down to the beach.

As I approach I see Paul, Sam, and another girl splashing each other in the water. Paul turns his head and notices me sitting down at the shore. He stops slowly walking out of the water--and I watch him as he does.

His body was of course soaking wet and his piercing blue eyes never left mine as he watched me--watching him. Droplets of water slowly slid down his naked chest finally hitting the sand at his feet.

He shook his dirty blond hair lightly splashing me with water as he came to stand in front of me. Smiling I pretend to be annoyed wiping it off, “Hey stop it.”

Laughing he shakes his head again, his hair falling in his eyes. “There is no point in being at the beach—if you don’t want to get wet.” He finally said smiling down at me. “I never said that I didn’t want to.” I say laughing as he sits down beside me.

I pretend not notice as his eyes slowly travel up my legs resting in-between my thighs. He gently tugs on my skirt that lay open at my hips pretending to finally peek at my bathing suit, “So…you do want to get wet I see.”

I look away from the water and smile glancing at him. He finally brings his face up meeting my eyes, “So do you wanna get in?” he asked gesturing at the water.

I pretend to think about it—but my mind was already made up. I didn’t want to--I wasn’t ready to take off what little clothing I had on. Especially since the mood between us—was definitely going someplace I didn’t think I was quite ready for--at least yet.

“Maybe later.” “Maybe?” “Okay. Okay, definitely later—after we eat. I’m kind of hungry.” I say using food as a buffer—I was beyond nervous.

“Okay cool. Well let’s go see what’s cooking,” Paul says laughing as he got up and reached out his hand. I take it getting up--silently letting out a breath that I still had time to work up some courage.


After finishing what little I did eat--I sip on my drink. Despite not wanting to—I couldn’t help but wonder where Lee was. Had he left?

Remembering our last words to each other earlier today—I silently hoped he hadn’t. If I wanted to fix this--which I did. Well I needed him present to do it. Even if I was still upset with him--it was Lee and I needed to find my best-friend right now.

I hadn't seen Jenn either--not that I wanted to. But Jenn and Lee obvious came together—and I was a little worried that maybe they both decided to leave since I hadn’t seen either of them since I woke up.

“Where is Jenn? I thought the whole ‘grill and bonfire’ thing was her idea.” I say turning to Paul as he took another bite of his hot dog. Realizing I had asked in the middle of him eating I reply, “Oops sorry.”

He lets out a muffled chuckle swallowing, “I don’t know. They were down here earlier—I have no idea where she went. Hold on I’ll ask Sam.” He gets up in search of Sam.

I walk over putting my plate in the trash. “Can I talk to you?” Knowing who it was I slowly turn around meeting his eyes.

For some reason I couldn’t bring myself to speak--all the words went flying out of my head the moment I turned to face him. And realizing I was holding my breath I finally let it out, “Yea.” He grabs my arm pulling me away from the crowd.

We finally stopped at the edge of the shore. I look up at him silently waiting for him to speak.

He doesn’t—instead he looks away at the water. “Lee?” He slowly turns his head to look at me.

“There you are!” Jenn says a little loudly--getting our attention. Lee turns looking at her.

“I was wondering where you were.” Jenn finally said sounding not too pleased--that she found him here with me I was sure.

She stalks over to us glaring at me--I didn’t turn to look at her. She pulls on his arm, “Come on lets go—we haven’t ate yet and I could use some food.”

Shocked that Lee didn’t budge she yanks on his shirt, “Lee let’s go!” “Don’t talk to him like that!” I spat without even realizing it.

Shocked they both turn looking at me. Jenn narrows her eyes, “What did you say?”

Clearing my throat--trying to give myself time to stop shaking with anger I look at her, “You heard me.” Rolling her eyes ignoring me she turns back to Lee, “Babe—lets go. Please?”

Lee still staring at me--finally breaks his stare walking away with Jenn. I watch as they both leave me standing at the shore.

Shaking with anger--I turn around facing the water. Trying to calm my nerves--and furious beyond words--I feel tears welling up in my eyes—No! I take a deep breath staring blankly out.

It is time Kate—right here, right now. Let me out and I will show you what you can do. I will make you feel better.

Surprised at what I had just thought--but to angry to think any further I feel myself let go.

Feeling a rush--a new sense of purpose I calmly turn around walking back to the crowd. I hear music and see people dancing.

I spot Paul in the crowd sitting down around the camp with Lee, Jenn, and a couple of others bopping to the music.

And without a moment of hesitation I walk over to him. “Hey!” He said finally seeing me. And without speaking I stand in front of him—looking down at him.

Realizing something different about me--he only stared up at me not saying a word. And closing my eyes I bring my hands up slowly running them through my hair as my body begins to sway to the music.

I open my eyes and watch his shocked--yet smiling face as he watched me slowly move my hands down my body--as my hips moved instinctively to the sound.

Running my hands over my breasts I slowly pull my scrunchie top over my head--throwing it at his feet. Paralyzed with utter shock he doesn’t pick it up--staring at me as I unwrapped my skirt letting it drop to the ground.

I walk up to him bending down lightly licking his closed lips with my tongue. I turn around sitting in his lap--moving my ass feeling him rise underneath me.

Turning around I see Lee--not taking my eyes off him I continue moving my body leaning back against Paul. And staring at me with complete shock and utter fury--he gets up walking away.

Smiling I turn back around finally leaning in Paul’s ear, “Thanks for sharing another first with me.” And I turn around walking away.

The Fire in me

Sitting down at the shore with my body trembling, and my thoughts scattered—I lay down gazing at the stars.

I hear footsteps--feeling the vibration underneath me as they got closer. Knowing who it was I closed my eyes waiting.

“What the hell was that?!” Lee shouts as he finally stood over me. I could feel his anger and hear his heavy breathing as he waited for me to answer.

I slowly opened my eyes looking up at him, “What was what?” I say sounding calm--completely at ease closing my eyes.

Hearing him take a deep breath trying to calm himself--I feel his eyes bore into mine. “Kate!” “What?” I say not opening my eyes.

“Kate look at me!” I open my eyes--staring at him. Feeling my anger rise I spat, “What?!” “WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!” Instead of answering--I let out a breath, “Leave me alone Lee.”

“No!” “No?” “No!” “Fine—then I guess we both won’t get what we want. Because I don’t have to explain myself to you. I can do whatever the hell I please--and feeling Paul underneath me pleased me just fine.”

Knowing I had pissed him off even more--I closed my eyes expecting him to leave. But he didn’t--surprised I opened them.

And looking down at me he lets out a laugh, “What--you were expecting me to walk away? I’m not that easy Kate--right now I am beyond easy.”

“What the hell do you want from me? You haven’t spoken to me in weeks--weeks! Lee and now what you expect me to bow down to you? Sorry but no--I’ve moved on.” “You’ve moved on?” I close my eyes not responding. “Kate?!”

Tell him Kate. Tell him what you really think.

I calmly open my eyes getting up. Standing in front of him I meet his eyes.

Without a word I take my hand slowly running it up his body, “I know you want me Lee.”

Feeling him catch his breath I continue pulling his shirt up touching the rim of his shorts moving up his chest, “I know it killed you watching me play with Paul.”

Bringing my face to his ear I whisper, “I know you wanted it to be you.” I lightly play with his ear with my tongue, “Why are you pretending that you don’t want me? That the reason you haven’t been around me since that night is because you liked what you saw—and you wanted me for yourself?.”

Hearing his silent breaths I slowly trail my hand down rubbing over-top his shorts--feeling him stiff under my palm. I smile up at him, “See? You like me touching you.”

Looking in his dark eyes I bring my face to his licking my lips, “You have never wanted anything more--than for me to touch you like this.”

Moving closer I pull his body against mine, “I know you’ve been silently waiting for this moment.”

I bring my lips to his almost touching, “So why are you being such a chicken shit?”

Looking at his lips--slowly gliding my tongue across mine I whisper, “Huh Lee?” Finally walking away.


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“Kate?” I turn over in bed opening my eyes. “Kate are you up?”

I hear Paul at the door--I don’t get up waiting for him to leave. I had locked my door last night--I needed time to think. I had so much swirling around in my head that needed my attention--I didn’t need any distractions. But I had fallen asleep as soon as my head hit the