I'm Okay! - Nghi Montero-Duong (read ebook pdf txt) 📗

A crimson liquid came out of his body pouring out onto the pavement. I had to process what had happened. The images flashed through my brain. I let out a blood-curdling scream that filled the street. I kept screaming until my voice went hoarse. It all went black. All that I could see was his face and the redness of the liquid. I was alone in the streets crowded with swarms of people.

It has been five months since my dear step-brother died. What made it worse was the fact that we had been on our first date. Sick, right? A girl going out with her own brother. But what made it worse was that I didn't really love him. As I child I always loved the idea that out there in the world there was some one waiting to see me, hear my voice and be there to protect me. Every night I had a dream and there in the middle of the darkness there was a boy a bit older than me. We played and talked to each other. I loved him. His name was Wolf. His features were just like those of my step-brother, William. After my step-brother came that boy no longer was in my dreams.

The moment I saw William my mind went blank. His eyes and hair were a different color than the ones in my dreams. I knew that William wasn't the boy in my dreams but I just really wanted him to be the boy. His hair and eyes were grey. His hair was long but not too long. his eyes seemed to say Don't come near me!, but they also shouted, Help. I wanted to be near him and I was. I stayed near him most of the time. He was at that time 9 years old, just like me, but he did not seem like it since he was tall for his age. That or I was just short, I couldn't tell.

My little brother, Andy, was 6. He didn't like William. When Andy was introduced to William, Andy said, "The big bad wolf steals and eats little girls! Keep him away from big sister." Andy was a sweet little boy who had an angelic smile. HIs eyes were an aqua blue and his hair was a golden yellow as though it was made of real gold. For him to say something bad about another person was a miracle. I knew that this meant that something bad might happen but I still wanted to be near him.

 "Hey, big sis! Are you okay? It's time for your dinner." Andy said after he knocked on the door for what was apparently two minutes. Andy is now 12 years old which makes me 15. He now looks alot more handsome than he was when he was little. He has a bigger build but he still has those beautiful blue eyes that seem to glow. Another thing he still has from when he was little are his beautiful golden locks. I had to take my dinner inside in the hospital since I was going through rehabilatation. I had a mental breakdown when William died. I never thought that he would die. I thought we would be together forever.

There were pictures of Wiliam in my room. He was smiling, his grey eyes brighter than ever. His hair was longer in this picture than when he died. There was me, Charlotte Lunacanta, standing next to him laughing, My hair was long and brown down to my waist. My blue eyes were bright, as though they were laughing with me. We were together and it was his birthday. He never liked people taking his picture. I told him that pictures were like a way to look back at fun and sad memories and just think about how much we have grown. He said he wanted to look back one day and remember all the wonderful times we had together.

I sat up and grabbed the tray of food. I looked at it blankly like I always did. I rarely touched my food. Andy sat down too and just sat there like he always did every afternoon. It was very awkward for him and for me whenever this happened. He sat there and watched as I stared at my dinner. This was the daily routine for us. "Please eat your dinner Sis. William wouldn't want you to do this. He would want you to be happy." Andy always pleaded for me to eat my dinner. I was getting to be pretty thin. I was starving but I couldn't eat. My will just wasn't strong enough to pick up the spoon and start eating. I was getting a bit tired of this conversation.

"Shut up," I couldn't handle it anymore. "Shut up! We both know that William isn't here so why are you pretending? He isn't here!" My voice was strained with every word. Andy sat there staring at me. I had never yelled at anyone before. I was quiet even as a kid. I never talked to anyone until I had met William. I changed him and he changed me. Apparently William had never spoken to anyone in his class just like me. His eyes wide with surprise, Andy looked like he wanted to say something but never did. He got up and just walked out of the room.

I sat there wondering if I had gone too far when I realized it had been a long time since I had gone exploring. I thought that the guilt would wash away if I went out for a stroll. I had to sneak out as quietly as I could since I was not allowed outside of my room, for fear that I would lose it outside. I walked alongside the path. The sound of the fallen leaves echoed in the clear night sky. My breath hung on the air. The chill of the air slipped itself in my clothes through the blanket I wrapped around myself, sending chills down my spine. The stars were bright. It was Autumn. I had not looked out the window since I was put in the hospital. The color of the trees, even in the night, were beautiful.

The breeze of the wind blew my hair -that I had cut recently to my shoulders- softly. I figured that by now it was getting very late. As I walked toward the hospital I saw something in the corner of my eye. Two eyes stared at me from the bushes giving me a fright. It had a human-like look to it. The shape of the shadow seemed human but it let out a growl that could have put a roaring lion to shame. It was growling loud enough to make some of the windows in the hospital light up.

I was a bit scared but I knew that if I let my fear rule me then I wouldn't be able to see William without feeling ashamed. I tried to coax the animal out of it's hiding place. It didn't trust me but it appeared to be limping. As the creature came out I found that it wasn't a creature at all. It was a young boy about the same age as me, maybe a bit older. I was surprised but what made me even more surprised was the fact that he was naked!

I wrapped the blanket that I had used to keep myself warm around the young man. He looked at me warily. I ushered him into the warm hospital to keep him from freezing to death. Inside the hospital I could get a better look at him. He looked like William. No, William looked like him. This was the boy I had seen in my dreams as a child. He had grown a considerable amount. His hair was a dark brown, almost black. His eyes were the same.

I knew this was Wolf, the one from my childhood. I called out his name to see if he would recognize me. "Wolf, is that you?" He flinched a little. He stared at me his eyes growing softer with each second as he realized who I was. His expression was joy. His smile was getting wider and wider. Wolf started laughing as though this was nothing but a joke.

"I can't believe it's you! It's really you!" He was really excited. He picked me up by my waist, spinning me around until I felt sick. It was too late when I realized that he was being too loud. All the nurses came towards us. They seemed very mad. They interrogated me about Wolf. When they saw that he was naked their faces went bright red -it was a hilarious sight- sending me into a fit of giggles. The nurses were surprised when I even showed a smile so this knocked them of their feet.

After I calmed down they got Wolf some clothes and sent me back into my room. I sat there conversing with Wolf until Andy showed up. He was shocked to see I was up this early. He didn't notice Wolf until he came out screaming and scared him. Andy was pretty scared. Enough to go and try to beat up Wolf. Wolf was a little taken aback but he regained himself enough to trap Andy in a sleeper's hold. I on the other hand was sitting on the bed laughing until I couldn't breathe. I told Wolf to stop between breaths.

"Who is this guy and why does he look exactly like William! Answer me Sis." Andy was disoriented but he was still fine. I was still laughing a little trying to control my fit of giggles. I looked up at Andy and said, "This is my friend, Wolf. Andy, I hope that you can try to convince Mom and Dad to let him stay at our house. Atleast until I get out of the hospital, then I can come home and I'll find a way to work things out." I told Andy this with a pleading look in my eyes. I wanted him to tell Mom and Dad because I knew what would happen if I told them. They would immediately say no.

He looked at me the way I look at needles. He was obviously a little freaked out. This was okay though because I had most of this planned out already. "I don't know about this Sis. I mean, come on. Mom and Dad are obviously gonna say something. Where am I going to even put him?" I smirked at him. I already knew where he could stay. "He is going to stay in my room at night. No one goes in there anymore. Besides, there's plenty of space and he can come here in the morning just in case Mom and Dad do go in there." I turned to Wolf to see what his opinion was because we were discussing it without asking to see if it was okay.

This is when Wolf surprised me and Andy. "That's fine with me, but I'd rather sleep here. With you, Lotte." While he said this Wolf wrapped his arms around me. He was still the same old Wolf I knew since we were little. This was a very sad thought. Andy looked at Wolf with a shocked look on his face. "No! No way are you staying in here with her. I'll definetely get Mom and Dad to let him stay there. If they say no then I can sneak you in." Andy was yelling the first part anxiously and then calmed down near the end of the sentence.

"Thank you, Andy." I couldn't help but giggle. Now that I was able to find a place for Wolfy the playboy, I was all set. I knew there would be some setbacks but I