The OOBS - CC Raz (free reads txt) 📗

I love you.
Still praying, still staying strong
Love,
CC Raz OOB#3 hours

7/2

Three hours until we see you. Actually, more like 2 1/2. I. Am. So. Excited. I already have my hair and make-up done. It was one of those "Maybe if I hurry and get ready HOURS before, time will go faster" but it really just makes it so that your curls are flat and your makeup isn't as vibrant (?) by the time you get there. *sigh* I just wanted to make sure that since this is the first time you'll be seeing me in a long time, I'm nice and pretty so that and... I dunno. Memorable, I guess. This is a special occasion! I have to look nice. It's like... I dunno. A big deal. This is NOT NBD. Or DWS. This is SCS. Stone cold serious.
     GROOVEY MOSES I'M S EXCITED!!

I know what clothes I'm going to wear, what shoes, and I'm even going to wear a necklace and earrings tonight. That's how you know it's a big deal. If I wear any jewelry other than my ring, it's a special occasion. !!!!! :D I am seriously just so... HAPPY. MUCH better than I was feeling last night.

I'm just... SMILING. A lot. :) And that's good. It's a good change. Becuse the last few days... with everything going on, it's just been hard to... actually FEEL happy. I can act happy, but it's been hard to FEEL happy. And I feel happy now.

Today, Jake and I went down to the community center with 9 trash bags full of clothes and toys and other stuff to donate to the people from Yarnell. That made me happy too. And it's not like we have a ton of stuff. But we were able to gather up 9 bags full of stuff. My drawers are pretty much empty now, but that's okay. I never realized how many clothes I have that I never wear. And it's all in good condition. I just don't wear it. So... yeah. It made me glad that now someone will actually get to wear those clothes. You know?

I now have my necklace on. It's only 5:07. And I even did my nails for his, Gwen. It's just a really light pink that sparkles. But I NEVER do my nails. EVER. This is big.

I don't really know what else to talk about right now. I'm gonna go read or something for a while, until it' time to go to meeting. :D Gosh, I am SO excited. So. Excited.

See you soon. Like... in 2 hours. YAY!
Still praying, and still stayin' strong (because what doesn't kill you makes you stronger! Stand a little taller! And all that jaz :))
Love,
CC Raz

OOB#Keep it secret. Keep it safe

7/2

Like my Lord of the Rings quote? But you probably haven't seen any of those movies so you wouldn't know it's a quote. But... it really should say, "Nothing is secret. Nothing is safe." You're not a criminal. You should have some privacy.

Meeting. I saw you. I talked to you. There are just... SO many things that I need to talk to you about about meeting. It was awesome. I just... whether it's my church or another, I love just going to a place where everyone is united in their common beliefs and just the whole sense of community. It makes me miss St. Jude's. The parish up in Garden Valley was just super small and everyone was so supportive of everyone else and it was just such a... wonderful experience. And it's the same here in Wickenburg, I guess. But St. Jude's will always be my home. Going to any other Catholic churches, it's like that. The sense of community is always there. And even though I'm not able to fel the same sense of community with the JW, because we believe different things, it's just so... It's nice to be surrounded by that community.

But.. I really need to stop beating around the bush. Your mom found the books. Which means that she'll be checking up on them regularly, I'm guessing. Keeping up on what's going on and all that lovely stuff.

Oh, and your mother was wrong. And I was right. I didn't say that I was praying the rosary for you. Must I repeat the list? Well... I don't think I need to because all you have to do is click a couple buttons to see the list, but it won't be you reading this anyway.

I don't know what I'll do. No idea at all. I'll keep writing to you, of course. But as to how you'll read it? I can't say. Maybe I'll just get all my letters to you published, and you can read them there. :) I already have a novel's worth, just right here in front of me.

I probably won't be updating this book anymore, but I'll continue writing to you. I promise. :) Every day, I'll write something. And eventually... EVENTUALLY, you'll get them. It might be next month, or in February. It could be the day you move out, and I shove a huge stack of papers at you. I dunno. But you'll get them, eventually.

I love you, Gwen. :) So, so, so happy that I got to see you tonight. But I'll have to write that somewhere else, not here.
Still praying, still staying strong. And I will. Always.
Love,
CC Raz

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Publication Date: 06-06-2013

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Dedication:
To Pengwen. :) I hope you'll know that I love you and I WILL NEVER GIVE UP. You're my best friend. And I'm always here for ya. :)