Ana's Songs - Unknown Shadow (novels in english txt) 📗

Do you see the girl sitting in the back of the class hiding behind the curtain she calls hair do you see the longing in her eyes when she looks at other girls do you see the notes she takes comparing herself to them do you hear the words that she says  about herself do you see how deep the self hatred goes it's so saddening to see such a beautiful girl hate herself it's saddening hearing the words she says about herself why can't she just look around and realize she's beautiful everything about her is beautiful her flaws that she thinks are weaknesses are really her strengths her attitude she hides behind is trying to hide what she really feels she pretends to be okay but look in her eyes do you see how they're screaming out for help

She use to be the brightest light I've ever seen she was the brightest flame I've ever known until you came along and dimmed her light and flame the flame that use to burn so bright the light that shone so brightly it showed who she really was her passionate spirit the light showed her kindness and selflessness but then you came along and changed her to the ice cold queen that we know today you changed her whole personality she's not her warm loving self anymore and there's no one else to blame but yourself you slowly killed her until there was no light or flame to kill you destroyed who she truly was you killed her the truth that everyone knows now is that your a monster and the lies you tell can never deny the truth of you being the monster killing people from the inside out 

I've lost myself trying to make you happy but everything i do is never good enpugh for you what's the point of being with you if nothing i ever do makes you happy and all you ever do is use me for your own intentions all you ever do is put me down and use my flaws and fears against me what did i ever do to deserve this what did i do for you to hurt me this way I tried being  who you wanted me to be the quiet girl who always listened to you but i soon realized i couldn't be that girl that just wasn't who i was i was or i use to be the quiet girl in the back of the class trying to be invisible i guess you didn't like how i never let you order me around that was until you lost my trust the first time you hit me you knew my past and you promised you would never turn out like he did but i guess promises mean nothing to you you changed me from the quiet,shy,kind,trusting girl who everyone use to know me as to the girl who has trust issues and has a heart as cold as ice i put walls up to protect myself you made me lose any hope that love existed i see now that love is only a fairy tale and if it does exist it doesn't for me because i can't trust the words i love you because of you remember when you use to say it right before you hit me or insulted me you're the reason why i have low self-esteem because you turned all my confidence into hatred for me 

Publication Date: 02-07-2017

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Dedication:
Ana she was an amazing writer and i wish i had the same skill she did with words