Currently And Drastically - Marc Jablonski (short story to read .TXT) 📗

Table Of Contents

1. Tundra...........................................................page 6
2. Another Soul..................................................page 7
3. By Your Command.........................................page 9
4. Hypocrisy......................................................page 10
5. Angel............................................................page 12
6. Broken Wings................................................page 13
7. Disappearing................................................page 14
8. Shattering....................................................page 16
9. It’s War........................................................page 18
10. Engraving My Center In Hell.............................page 19
11. The Truth Inside The Lines...............................page 20
12. Everyday I Wait...........................................page 21
13. Morality .....................................................page 23
14. Drastically ..................................................page 25


Tundra

As I wake up, the beautiful blanket suffocates me
It tries to erase me, and break me, and take me under
With its’ cold thunder and bold tundra
The wonder, a hundred or more degrees on the floor

What if it’s war? What if it was nothing before it became unsure.
Unlawfully mine, with the time in mind. The ice is blinded by the same kind
The same type to suffocate in line, bound by the climb into reality
So call it a coat on top of your integrity

For its merely a shield of what we want to be
Of what we want to see, we can’t believe in
Anything, but the apathy of one option
Staying or leaving, decaying and breathing

Through the dead leaves, who live to freeze
And leave nothing achieving cold
Here we are, this is so, this is snow.
This is all some know, in winter when nothing grows
In winter where nowhere goes.


Another Soul

Distant multitudes of where we hold ourselves
We take up a reason to know ourselves
But a life long journey will come to an end
When we figure out our world is pretend

So you wonder why the good die young
They're good because they've figured out the game
Once you know where you can run
Everyone will lose their name

Its a maze we live in
Through the days we live on
If we raise the question
It will be the last one
We can't find a reason
We can't stop the bleeding
Every page we're turning
Another soul's retreating

We are stuck in our own problems we cause
Because we're close minded in our ways
Somehow this faithful beating doesn't pause
Somehow every single person falls

Don't anyone save our souls
The answer remains in our skulls
When we open it we find a hole
The nonexistent question unfolds

Its a maze we live in
Through the days we live on
If we raise the question
It will be the last one
We can't find a reason
Nothing to believe in
Every page we're turning
Another soul's deceiving
Another soul is grieving

Its a maze we live in
Through the days we live on
If we raise the question
It will be the last one


By Your Command

It’s not obsession, it’s over protection
With no direction and more affection
You don’t understand to correct me
You can’t have it collectively
And when you claim you can, I’m wrong
When you say you began to belong
Offering my life in your hands
Suffering by your command
By your command

I am hiding in my book of pain
How considerate to entertain
How affectionate down the drain
Across the selection of disdain

Rain on me I’m debris
Stained by crying gained by lying
Rain on me I agree
I think you know that I am dying
Painfully shamefully
Aimed to be underlying and defying
Come to me, when you see
I’m complying, I’ve been trying

Rain on me I’m debris
Stained by crying gained by lying
Rain on me I agree
I think you know that I am dying
Painfully shamefully
Aimed to be underlying and defying
Come to me, when you see
I’m complying, I’ve been trying
By your command


Hypocrisy

Mentally ill, institutionalized
Getting my thrill from the look in your eyes
Torture and kill, revolutionize
For the sake of my will, shall I let you rise

Protected and worth just another life
Controlling the filth with the streaming of lies
Run to the war, just to scrutinize
Screaming, don't let it die, don't let it die

Hypocrisy is the new lie
Inevitable by the size of the cries
Listen to the wind go by
You'll miss the quiet tears of night

Hypocrisy's an inevitability
That's hard to see but sacred and free
And only when I share the key
To recognition shall my soul lift from me

And stare at the world, glare at the sea
Keep to the oath, and tear at the seams
And where are our dreams to guide us back home
Follow the screams where the fears seem to roam

Hypocrisy is the new lie
Inevitable by the size of the cries
Listen to the wind go by
You'll miss the quiet tears of night


Angel

I found my angel on the ground
I stabbed his heart I killed his time
The devil’s war told me to fight
A battleground inside my mind

They like my blood, they’re parasites
Inside my conscience, there they hide
Never coming out to the light
Cowards, show your face tonight

Feeding quietly on my thoughts
Contributing itself to my wrath
A disease I cannot come back
Its a massacre, a blood bath

One by one I murder them
As one by one it murders me
Demons committing blasphemy
Dissipate all that I believe

And so now it means nothing more
To kill the blind steal from the poor
Nothing changes, another soul gone
The war of hate continues on

I found my angel on the ground
I stabbed his heart I killed his time
The devil’s war told me to fight
A battleground inside my mind


Broken Wings

Broken wings broken things that make you hurt that make you think
Lonely words and times that make you wonder why you are here
Shaken breaths to anything that would’ve made an offering
Only surely we will survive as we appear

Watching types of personalities that cannot see back to me
Like a wall that only reveals the lonely soul
Pending rights to eloquence, raking up the dissidence
A pilgrimage of what we cannot know

But you can push through everything
You can work out the small things
And soon to be a miracle
You will fix the world with -

Broken wings broken things that make you hurt that make you think
Lonely words and times that make you wonder why you are here
Shaken breaths to anything that would’ve made an offering
Only surely we will survive as we appear

But you can push through everything
You can work out the small/simple things
And soon to be a miracle (fight the cynical)
You will fix the world with broken wings


Disappearing

When you speak, I can hardly hear you
I tend to listen for the things that fear you
And then I crush everything that's dear to you
When I claimed that I would be here for you

I can lie so easily it pains me
And so quickly can the thinking drain me
Till I'm left with the sound of raining
Falling down, while I'm staring blankly
Only then can I understand you
Only when can I finally think this through
Then I'm gone and no ones here for me
I made this life myself, I made this misery

When you speak, I can hardly hear you
I tend to listen for the things that fear you
And then I crush everything that's dear to you
When I claimed that I would be here for you

Hear me now when I'm cold and lonely
Here I lay wondering what killed me
When I drew this up myself, let it be
Forgotten let me see the omen of hell
I'm a non believer for the things that are real
I stand waiting just to feel, let it soak in
Let these wounds heal, let me rise let me feel
Reality, for its just for me to see
My hope is set free, please be eternity
My life every soul to see

When you speak, I can hardly hear you
I tend to listen for the things that fear you
And then I crush everything that's dear to you
When I claimed that I would be here for you


Shattering

Shattering, I can't see the world through your eyes
When I walk I can try
But your shoes do not fit mine
By a mile I'll be gone
From that moment on
You'll be alone, I'll be alone
And our ground with touch the sky

Shattering, I can't wait 'till I pass you by
I thought it would feel different
I thought that it was time
Inside the mind is ticking
Waiting for the sign to go
Disappearing Slowly, Lonely
As my ground will touch the sky

Shattering, you will soon depart from me
I don't know what you're thinking
I can hardly wait to see
Is it something I'd want to hear
Or is it something else
Lonely fear, You want me here
As youre ground will touch the sky

Shattering, I can't see the world through your eyes
When I walk I can try
But your shoes do not fit mine
By a mile I'll be gone
From that moment on
You'll be alone, I'll be alone
And our ground with touch the sky


It's War

Luckily there is no ending to keep the worlds pretending
Who is left descending to the shadows of my mind
So while the thoughts are pending, open sending broken headings
Treading water, upsetting slaughter, I caught her letting go a sign
Fine, she scares me, down she wears me, I can't trust her, let me go
Why, she says, she's happy now, how? She's selfish well, I'm left behind
Back into a world of attitude and gratitude of going home
No, I can't betray myself, let me know when it is time

She falls through the cracks I drew the paintings true in black
And white a fact tonight to light the fire I can try
So upsetting, all forgetting letting go with all my tactics,
That's it regretting, light is shedding, tears of sorrow years go by
She gets older life gets colder, I'm a soldier with no fight
War is only seconds further, is it worth it just to die
Killed in battle, will I shatter? Scatter me across the light
For when the sun goes down you'll see the sound of the distant cries

Please ignore the explosions blowing throwing me across the line
You must go to save yourself and know that it is time to go
Screaming moving on and dreaming nightmares we must leave behind
All in time to show the answer shifted by the undertow
Pull me in I'm losing conscience all I have is gravity
Following a trace of ancient listening to all I know
Nothing's left to show the best of anything I have to be


Engraving My Center In Hell (A Sonnet)

I’m afraid of you, And how you’ll treat me
Not sure how I’ll act, When you defeat me
I can’t move freely, From under your hand
What we’re dealing with, I can’t understand

And then you kill me, and you out thrill me
You set me aside, you can live your life
I am losing time, my mind is leaving
Please give me a sign, to keep on breathing

Is this what you want, this is all I have
Killing off my soul,