For You - Juniper Lee (best e book reader android txt) 📗

You don't see the blood,
No,
Only the scar,
The one that was left,
When all other evidence was gone.

You can't seem to help,
No,
There's nothing you can do,
You've never been through it,
There's no words you can say.

You want to help her,
Oh,
How badly you want to,
But all you can give is love,
Which is not always the answer.

You need her to live,
Yes,
She's your friend in need,
And she has to go on,
'Cause without her you're lost.


Looking,
Seeking,
Searching,
But finding nothing,
You reach your hand out,
Into the darkness,
To find something,
Something to grab hold of,
Something to keep you steady,
You reach and strain,
And nothing is there,
Desperately you run,
With no path to follow,
And no light to guide you,
You run for what seems to be miles,
And yet you keep going,
You stumble, trip, bleed,
But you persist,
Until finally you see,
A flitting spec of light,
You come near it,
And,
Someone is there to catch and embrace you,
Your search is over.


What is it?
This evil,
That haunts you,
Night and day,
You get no rest,
And no relief,
As it threatens to pull you,
Into an empty oblivion,
A shadow,
Your nightmare,
Never leaves your side,
Always there reminding you,
Swallowing you whole,
Sinking very slowly,
Into the depths of your past,
Everyone around you,
Just waiting for the crash.


Just one more,
Just one more,
A whisper as it leaves your lips,
Not a cry or a plea,
But a bargain,
Each time it takes away the pain,
Only momentarily,
And soon it washes back over you,
Plunging you into darkness,
So it's always just one more,
Just one more.

Just one more hit,
You tell yourself,
You know it's a lie,
But say it anyway,
Your fingers shake,
As you take it,
Using it to fall into fantasy.

Just one more cut,
You think silently,
You betray yourself,
As you plunge the knife deep,
Killing nobody but yourself,
You relish the awakening pain,
As it distracts you from reality.

Just one more,
You wish it was true,
Just one more,
The next could be 'the one',
You convince yourself,
Even after all the betrayal,
Because the kisses, the embraces,
Take away the hurt,
But soon another is added,
To your long list of deception,
Still you wait for the next one.

Something is there,
Pulling you forward,
Always whispering in your ear,
Willing you to do it again,
Because it's just one more,
Just one more.


The words,
Empty,
You,
Devoid of emotion,
The phrase 'I Love You',
A lie,
You,
Still feel nothing,
The warmth of embrace,
Pointless,
You,
Stoic,
The gentle advice of a friend,
Unwelcome,
You,
Drained of vital force,
True love,
A chance at life,
You,
Passing it by,
The despair of loneliness,
Your reality,
You,
Don't even realize.


Your tears,
Like acid,
Burning,
As they roll down,
Taking a piece of you with them,
They fall.
Your pain is too much,
No human shoud have to face it,
Especially someone so young,
Someone who should be innocent and free.
You should feel loved,
But life's not that kind.
Your face,
Full of agony,
As you sit,
In the salty pool you cried,
Just trying to make it all disappear,
Waiting for relief,
That never seems to come.

I watch,
As you slowly sink,
Deeper and deeper,
Into your sadness.
I feel lost.
I want to help you,
To pull you free,
To Save you,
But I don't know what to do.
I try,
And though I fail,
I will always love you.


Open your eyes,
Can't you see,
Or don't you want to realize,
How it tears at my insides?

You've shredded my heart,
With your careless actions,
You're not just hurting yourself,
You know.

I've worked so hard,
Not once did I hold back love,
Still you push me away,
And run back to your old ways.

Open your eyes,
Don't you see?
I can't do this forever,
No matter how much I love you.

You've waited, thought, decided,
And removed me from your life,
So who is left now?
No one loving, I'm sure.

What is left for me to say?
Is this how it ends?
I love you deeply,
But open your eyes,
And see what I see.

Text: Juniper Lee
Publication Date: 02-17-2012

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Dedication:
To Delainey (Of Course)... Who's arms held you, Through all the death, pain, and tears? Who's words broke through, Giving comfort throughout the years? My love holds true, And will quiet all your fears.