Malak's poems - Warren Hayford (the best novels to read txt) 📗

~A Minute~
I doubt you even know I write these
I bet you will never read them,
Yet, I will still do them.
Just to make you see.

If you stop by once,
You’ll never forget.
What I have wrote.
All I ask is for a minute

A minute to ask above your cuts,
Cats don’t have five claws.
And they don’t cut in straight lines,
Checkered across your wrists.

A minute to ask why you chose him over me,
When I was there first.
Oh, wait I don’t need that.
You chose him cause you don’t want to involve me in the shit you do.

A minute to tell you I would never touch that stuff,
Too many people would kill me.
But you still say no,
I will count the minutes till you say yes.

A minute to say how much I love you,
but that is not enough time for words.
So I will show you,
By letting you go.

A minute isn’t enough time to say this,
But I treasure everyone one I get with you.
Whether it be walking alongside you or snuggled in your arms.
I will enjoy every minute,
Till I walk away.


~Forever~
Snuggled in you neck,
Arms wrapped around you.
I would trade the world,
If this could be us forever.

Your hair in my face,
Tickling my nose.
Rocking back and forth,
Wishing it could last forever.

Pulling you back,
Lying intertwined on the bed.
Falling deeper in love,
Wishing I could stay forever.

Drawing close.
Lying nose to nose,
While kissing you,
Making time stretch into forever.

Sleeping here in your arms,
With you resting on my shoulder.
All I have to say is,
I will love you forever.


~I'll Wait~
I lie here with you,
But I would run to the end of the world,
Just to see you smile.
I’ll wait ‘til you want me to.

I say let’s go,
But you don’t want to be with me,
So I’ll wait here with you.
I’ll wait ‘til you want me to.

When I’m alone, I’m missing you,
When I’m with you, time has no meaning.
When I leave, I wait to the last minute.
I’ll wait ‘til next time I’m with you.

I want to make you mine,
But you’re getting over someone else.
So I’ll lie here in your arms,
I’ll wait ‘til you want me to

Your mood is like the wind,
Fickle and beautiful,
Blowing storms to and fro.
I’ll wait ‘til they pass and still love you.

Now I’m waiting for you to see,
How much you really mean to me.
I could come out and say it.
But I’ll wait ‘til you see it too.

I’ll take the shit thrown at me,
For being with you.
If you’ll stay by my side.
I’ll wait ‘til they grow tired and stand strong.

I’ll take on the world,
If you will have my back.
Hey, if I lose I know you’ll help me.
I’ll wait ‘til you say go.

When you’re gloomy,
I’ll try and cheer you up.
I’ll stand in the rain, wind and snow,
I’ll wait for you ‘til the world ends just to say I love you.


~My Fear~
My fear isn’t spiders, snakes, or death.
My fear is losing you,
And not to be in your life.

Loving you like I do.
It’s hard to be alone,
And live without you.

It’s harder still,
To have you kiss me
And them tell me you love someone else.

Then run your fingers through my hair,
Like you want something more.
I may be new at this,
But this is shit.

My fear of losing you,
Shadows my thoughts of doubt,
That you just want a toy,
To wrap around your finger.

That I am second,
There when your man can’t be.
That I am used to fix your heart,
So you can find someone else.

You being you,
I fear of losing you.
But I may need to,
It’s time to face my fears.
And ask if I am just here,
To fix what others do wrong?


~Shadows~
Waiting...
It seems like all I do.
Waiting, For you to be ready.
Standing their, your pillar of support.
Wading through crowds jeering at me.
Just for standing with you.
Waiting for them to stop.
Now I feel brushed aside,
For a simple thing I can’t change.
The fact that I am young.

You necklace around my neck,
I lay staring at the ceiling wondering,
How long will it take,
To heal for this blow.
I knew it might happen,
But I ignored it,
Cause in your arms,
I felt at home.

I stand alone and homeless.
You changed me,
To something I can’t change.
I was ready to go for it,
Taking on the world.
Just to be with you,
Screw what they say, we could do it.
Now I walk alone.
Shoved into the shadows,
For some guy,
That is only older.
Maybe, they were right?

Whenever you wonder,
What happen to the good guy.
The guy who cared, and loved you as you are.
Who didn’t just want to have sex, and get high.
The one who tried to help whenever they could.
And tried to keep you out of trouble,
Who made it up when he couldn’t be there with you,
Well he lies in the shadows, brushed aside for a guy,
Who has a few more years.

I’ll stand and force a smile,
While you two have your moment,
But on the inside the shadows grow darker.
But looking towards the light, At least you told me now.
Before you two really went at it.

I gave it all,
For you, I stayed up late, and woke up early.
Poured heart and soul into things,
Lied to people so I could stay and talk longer.
Now I’m shoved aside.
Lying in the shadows,
Trying to stop the bleeding.
From hitting the ground hard.

Waiting.
Till the pain heals,
And bearing no bad feelings.
I hope it ends soon,
So I can be with you.


(Malak means angel)
~Malak~
Missing you,
Yet I still wander around.

Mine, That’s all I want you to be.
All I want to do is be with you.
Lost, I have lost you.
And now I wander around.
Killing time, till you can be mine.

Left me for another guy
Empty, I am empty without you.
Feeling the pain of being young.
Trying to win back your heart


~Russian Eggs~
You are like an Russian nesting doll.
The dolls that hold secret and protect it from the light.
Like an egg your shell is hard but soft underneath.
Every day we are together,
A layer cracks.

Outside it is black, and menacing.
Cold stares and heartless smiles.
Sitting with you I felt a chill.
A layer shatters.

Rose pink, The color of our friendship.
Cool and inviting,
Warm hugs and words of what to come.
Class became too short and the time in between to long.
This layer dissolving into nothing.

Deep red, The color of love.
Laying in your arms I found this layer under the rest.
Covered and protected I tried to see it.
But I got a glimpse for a layer snapped close over it.

Deep blue, The color of my tears.
Left behind for an older guy.
Peeking through the layers I see why.

Its not cause how I am,
It is how you are.
Now I see and I want to help.
I can’t rise from the dead,
But I can try.

And to repair the cracked layers and see the inside of you,
Just look inside your layers a bit.
And you would see,
That I try to help no matter what.


~Blood~
Red swirls down the drain.
Looking up as the blood runs down,
Sunken eyes stare back at me.
A car honks as the world goes black.

Red, Dark red, Blood runs down.
Her face rises up. White and black,
The day rolls by. We walk down the block.
Crossing the street, a car runs a red light.
Red. Blood red.

Curled up, rocking on the floor.
Stained with blood and guilt.
Sirens wail, shrieking like locked brakes.
The cries bring me back.

The ride. Her face screwed up in pain.
Clenching her hand and petting her hair.
Telling her it’s gonna be alright,
And I love her no matter what.
The sirens trying to drown out my voice.

Waking with a start, soaked and shivering.
Chemicals and beeps fill the air.
An empty chair and roses sit next to me.
I sweep the roses off the table their red petals fluttering around me.
Blood falls covering the sheets.
Coughing down the hall, pulls me away.

Never leaving her side as she lied their.
Coughing up blood and shivering.
Petting her hair and wiping up the mess.
She pulled me close and kissed me, with blood on her lips.
We laid there as her breath ran out.
The salt and rust burned into my mind.


Now the taste returns.
Her face still fresh in my mind.
The world fades as I visit her for the last time.
She floats down to me, Pulling me close we kiss for the last time.
Blood still on her lips.


~Please, I Ask You~
The moons is out,
The stars are twinkling,
And the snow is shining.
It reminds me of you.

If I walked a million mile to say I love you,
You would send me back.
If I caught fireflies to light up your world,
You would turn them free.
If I walked to the ocean to fill your jar with sand,
You would empty it at my feet.

We joke around and laugh together,
The same as before.
But now my heart aches when you leave.
And I wish I could be with you.

Your friends are so lucky,
They can be with you.
But I am glad we meet,
Cause I wouldn’t of lived.

Life without love is like
A question without an answer.
Please all I ask,
Is answer my question just one last time.


~All I Have~
The heaviness on my heart.
The silence in my brain.
The butterflies in my stomach.
The daydreams.
The need to speak to you.
The need for a distraction.
The need to release emotion.
The need to hold.
And be held.
The need for affection.
The lost sleep.
The need to love.
And be loved.
The need to live.
The want to run toward you.
The carelessness of what I do.
The not caring what people say
Or what people do about it.
I don’t care anymore.
I just love you.
That is all I have right now.
And that is all I need.