My Life Poems - kylah geisler (moboreader .txt) 📗

poem 1

Death is a bitch i know

I'll teach you how to take it slow

Just tell them end of discussion

Causing death and destruction

Cause this album pack enough evil

Don't we have enough death , people

Driving a hearse, re birthed, through death,

Listen here, i ain't lookin for no tears

Like nas illmatic i never sleep cause sleep is the cousin death

She glammed up behind that eyeliner i know there's tears

I say what my mind speak

I'll make you bleed, death guaranteed.

The freshness of my breath bring your death

I'm godbless, i'm success so fuck stress

I shall love thee better after death.

But i can't keep you baby girl ,

i'mma confess,

the less death of thee.

 

 

 

poem 2

What's it like to have a life like mine, 

Well i'll tell you, 

Im 17 i can't seem to do anything right 

I always seem to fuck up everything that is great in my life 

I apologize way to much 

My step father took advantage of me mentally and emotionally 

And almost physically.

I have a hard time in crowded places 

I have autism 

And pots 

I suck at literally everything and I just want to die ! 

I'm too needy 

I'm too clingy 

Im to hurt 

Im to broken 

To be loved or to be perfect 

I can't seem to understand why i had to be born the way that i am 

Can someone tell me honestly why i am the way i am 

I don't want to be me anymore 

I hate it 

I hate myself 

I can't take it anymore 

I seem to just disappoint ppl 

Or piss them off 

Why why why why me 

I ask why me ! i don't want to live anymore just take the pain away please i beg you 

 I want to cut myself till i bleed out 

Hang myself 

Take a bunch of pills and overdose 

Die from alcoholism

I just want to ball my eyes out 

I'm just done 

Numb to the bone 

I don't want to do this anymore  

Im life is shit 

I need something to get me high 

Something anything please 

Just make it stop 

Shoot me 

Kill me please I beg you 

I cant talk to anyone because they're either too busy or just don't want to talk to me 

 

poem 3

 

Can’t breathe

 

I can’t breathe, 

help me please, 

Can’t do this anymore, 

Depression got me on high alert,

Sucking the life out of me,

My every breath goes away,

I’m I going to die?

No I will not die today ,

Fight ,

Fight ,

Fight ….

poem 4

 

“This is how I feel”

 

This feeling won't go away,

This feeling of not being strong enough, 

This pain,

 it hurts,

Will it ever go away?

I don’t know anymore,

I feel lifeless,

Unworthy,

Trash,

Destroyed, 

Broken, 

Life less, 

Dead, 

Empty inside and out, 

Will I ever get past this feeling of numbness of pain? 

He won't remember me, will he?

 I don't know.

I hurt him, didn't I?

No, I had no choice, 

I told him that, 

I told him I didn't want to break the best thing that's happened to me in a very long time,

He won't forgive me, will he?

He was hurt,

He fell in love,

I broke him,

Even after I promised I would never,

This Horrible pain inside me,

It's so powerful,

I can’t push it away, 

It won't go away,

Will I ever heal the same,

Will I ever be the same,

Will I ever be happy again? 

I feel like I deserve to feel like this,

I don't know anymore 

Every time I try to move passed it,

“It always comes back as if it’s attached to my soul”

 Am I not worth the fight? 

Maybe,

Maybe not,

It’s as if i'm in a prison full of all my demons and mistakes I made in the past

I feel trapped like a zoo animal inside a stainless steel cage,

I feel hopeless,

I feel like i'm stuck, 

I try to get better,

Be more happier,

But then my demons give me a reason not to be happy anymore,

I become this empty,

Numb,

Lifeless,

Fake,

Dead person inside and out,

“I feel like I will never escape this hideous painful world we call life” 

I hide things from people,

Important people who mean everything to me,

Certain things that I'm scared to tell ppl about,

I'm scared to tell them how I feel inside,

How I feel,

I feel scared,

I’m afraid that I will never be happy again,

Never be careless again, 

Never escape this pain we call

The depression cycle of life, 

   That’s how I truly think 24/7!

poem 5

 

 

Lonely walk inside this mind 

She walks down this empty haunted abandoned town,

She thinks to herself, 

This place used to be so beautiful, 

 The hurricane that hit in the past long ago,

Had made it to what it is today, 

All alone in this place called her mind,

Its fridged in here, 

This icy windy air piercing the skin of the girl who walks alone, 

She walks alone feeling scared and paranoid, 

 

 She yells for help, 

Waiting for a response,

She waits anxiously,

Nothing,

 but the piercing frigid icy cold air that swirls past her ear with a

 “swoosh” “oooooo”

Says the wind 

She continues to walk down the road of the abandoned town,

Looking side to side paranoid as if someone is watching her,

She’s scared,

She’s cold,

She looks behind her going in a circle,

still looking everywhere,

For something alive,

She gets lonely,

She yells for her mom 

MOM! 

Please help,

Anyone,

Please,

I'm scared,

She pouts

She starts to breathe heavy 

Heaving in and out,

She’s terrified,

She walks all alone, 

Down this path that used to be a road,

She starts to run

Door to door 

Knocking 

yelling for anyone   

She stops in the middle of the road,

Panting

Scared,tired,

She yells again 

MOM! 

ANYONE! 

PLEASE, 

HELP, 

She cries

Terrified 

She might never be able to see her mom again 

She drops down to her knees and screams,

Shes panicking she trys to calm down,

Nothing seems to work,

Its as if the air is being sucked out of her,

She thinks to herself,

Oh god where am I,

How did I get here,

I want to go home,

I want my mom, 

She sobs till there's nothing left in her to cry about,

  I'm lost,

I don't know where I am and I don't know how to escape from this lonely road I call my mind    

Will No-one save her? 

From herself

All alone…

 Can’t you see, I'm haunted by my shadow.

Drowning 

My limbs are tight, 

I can’t move,

an icy frigid water,

light glares through the icy frigid water,

The sun,

Looking through the icy glass water, 

 Slowly drowning,

I try to fight the tiredness in my eyes and limbs,

I try to swim up to the top,

The water pushes me back down,

I can’t breathe,

Freaking out,

Underwater I sink, 

Down down down down 

I go, 

In the deep blue sea,

Drowning slowly,

I fight the pain inside,

I think,

No one will miss me,

So I close my eyes,

And I slowly let go, 

Let it in the last breath in my body,

The water takes me in, 

Drowning me, 

It hurts,

But it’s okay,

I deserve this pain,

I let go even more,

The Deeper I go, 

Into the depths of the deep blue sea 

It calls to me, 

Drowning my every move,

Drowning more and more, 

Deeper and deeper,

 The sea pulls me down,

 I Drown painfully,

slowly, 

I drowned!

 

 

 

poem 6

 

The true love never gives up the fight,

 but... 

Why did you?

I’m broken without you,

I can barely move,

I get worse and worse without you,

I’m dying without you, 

This person I am now,

Is…

I don’t even know her/him,

Why did you leave me,

Why did you lie,

You broke your promise,

But why…

but I still want you,

Why do I still love you,

Why…

I can’t be without you,

But…

Somehow I can,

Why,

You broke my trust,

You hurt me,

But somehow,

The many things you’ve done doesn't matter at all to me,

I hate this feeling,

I want you, but I feel like I shouldn't 

I love you but I shouldn't,

You were my everything, 

Yet… 

You did everything I didn't expect you to do,

And you went for the kill,

You have officially killed the girl/boy I used to be, 

I want to hate you,

But…

Instead,

I love you,

I want to hurt you,

But…

Instead,

I want your body, 

You destroyed me,

This is what you made 

A distant hesitant paranoid crazy girl/boy I am now,

Thanks to you I might not ever be the same,

Ever,

again!

 

 

This energy is killing my vibes now! 

 

Yea I’m fucked up but I don’t want a be 

Yeah i'm empty inside,

I just don't feel alive,

And I don't want to live

 but 

I’m too scared to die-I-high.

 

Would anyone ever save us from this pain we feel all alone at night,

Every night,

Every hour,

Every minute 

Every goddamn day and night 24/7 

Everytime we close these eyes were back to the starting line