abused - kiki14.2 (miss read books txt) 📗

Truth

Shut your mouth and listen to what I have to say,
I'm going to take you back to that one specific day.
I was laying in bed alone while listening to you and him talk on the phone.
You said, "Well if they have the money I don't see why not,
She'll be ready by 9 o'clock"
You came in and said it's time to get up,
Shower well and I'll make you pretty with make up.
In a pretty white dress and hair done to match,
You told me I'm a breath taking catch.
I sat on the couch waiting with you,
But what was in store for me I had no clue.
They came in, three men.
I will never forget the sight of them.
They tossed you a wad of money,
while grabbing my hand and saying come with me honey.
I didn't want to go but you made me,
You let them rape me for money!!
I cried and tried to run away,
But you helped them push me on the bed and screamed STAY!
You said to be a good little girl or I'll make you sad,
So I shut my mouth and let them do the things that were bad.
I was only 7 years old and already my innocents was lost,
You needed the money but at what cost?
Every day those men came over and brought more,
Each time you just watched at the door.
I ran away at the age of eight,
Why was I put into this fate?
I was ashamed of what was done,
So of course I could tell no one.
The day you found me you said things changed,
That I won't have to do those things.
Well mom it was that way for a month then you started again,
through the door each day came the men and their friends.
Well I'm ten now and things got to come to an end,
You see I became a "woman" at the age of 9 with my monthly "friend".
Tonight while you're asleep I'm packing my bag to quietly leave,
But I want you to know that while the men were doing their "deed",
One of them impregnated me with their seed.


Lost Innocence

This young girl kept from sight
crying into the middle of the night
she fears that others will sense the shame
but was this girl really too blame?
this little girl who was full of belief
could not from him seem to find relief
she feels so dirty with her clothes which are tore
when she is being flung on the bedroom floor
this broken child lost her innocence at a very young age
through a trusted mans deliberate drunken rage
her little broken heart was full of pain
through the rest of her life it would stain
people would see the bruises that lay upon her face
she wanted and longed for her special place
while he was looking around
this little girl couldn't make a sound
she couldn't have her own bed
he would be there touching her instead
taking her clothes off he would touch
this haunted her little heart so much
she just wanted him to understand
but instead she got the back of his hand
night after night she endured this pain
never to be happy ever again
this little angel from above
could not find the slightest inch of love
this mountain of unnoticed fear
went on year after year
while she was crying silent tears
he was tucking into some beers
why would no one come to her aid
day after day her happiness would fade
this went on for so, so long
and no one thought that this was wrong
this little girl that no one could save
she longed for her peaceful grave


Trapped In My Head

Trapped in my head,
trying to escape memories of a life I once had.
Fear of confronting my worst pain,
fear of face to face that day I’m sure to go insane.
Hatred built up for so long,
guilty of life lived so wrong.
A day without remembrance will never pass,
a day for death will always last.
Emotion filled with the words I write,
cold chills down my spine with a blurry sight.
Once a young mind twisted with sinful lust,
Now an adult my mind is totally f*cked

My feelings…=[[[[

I watch from the door
I see my brother hit the floor

my dad takes a strike
just cause of a bike

I'm writing this letter
because I didn't know better

my brothers taking it
while my dads giving it

I watched him crying
while I was dying

I can't even see
how could this be
if I said one word this would happen to me

my dad starts crying and says he's sorry
my brother says its ok but I know he's still afraid of that day

Publication Date: 11-03-2010

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