God's Good Man - Marie Corelli (i want to read a book .txt) 📗

It’s not one of Gigue’s sayings, though I know I often echo Gigue!”

She went to the window. “How lovely the garden is! Come out on the lawn, Maryllia, and let us talk!” And as they sauntered across the grass together with arms round each other’s waists, she chattered on—“People who write books and music are generally lonely,—and they write best about love because they need it. They fancy it must be much better than it is. But, after all, the grandest things go unloved. Look at the sky, how clear it is and pure. Is it loved by any other sky that we know of? And the sun up there, all alone in its splendour,—I wonder if any other sun loves it? There are so many lonely things in the universe! And it seems to me that the loneliest are always the loveliest and grandest. It is only stupid ephemera that are gregarious. Worms crawl along in masses,—mites swarm in a cheese—flies stick in crowds on jam—and brainless people shut themselves up all together within the walls of a city. I’d rather be an eagle than a sparrow,—a star than one of a thousand bonfire sparks,—and as a mere woman, I would rather ten thousand times live a solitary life by myself till I die, than be married to a rascal or a fool!”

“Exactly my sentiments,”—said Maryllia—“Only you put them more poetically than I can. Do you know, Cicely, you talk very oddly sometimes?—very much in advance of your age, I mean?”

“Do I?” And Cicely’s tone expressed a mingling of surprise and penitence—“I didn’t know it. But I suppose I really can’t help it, Maryllia! I was a very miserable child—and miserable children age rapidly. Perhaps I shall get younger as I grow older! You must remember that at eleven years old I was scrubbing floors like any charwoman in the Convent for two centimes an hour. I gained a lot of worldly wisdom that way by listening to the talk of the nuns, which is quite as spiteful and scandalous as anything one hears in outside ‘wicked’ society. Then I got into the Quartier Latin set with Gigue, who picked me up because he heard me singing in the street,—and altogether my experiences of life haven’t been toys and bonbons. I know I THINK ‘old’—and I’m sure I feel old!”

“Not when you play or sing,” suggested Maryllia.

“No—not then—never then! Then, all the youth of the world seems to rush into me,—it tingles in my fingers, and throbs in my throat! I feel as if I could reach heaven with sound I feel that I could sing to God Himself, if He would only listen!”

Her eyes glowed with passion,—the plainness of her features was transformed into momentary beauty. Maryllia was silent. She knew that the aspirations of genius pent up in this elf-like girl were almost too strong for her, and that the very excitability and sensitiveness of her nature were such as to need the greatest care and tenderness in training and controlling. Tactfully she changed the conversation to ordinary subjects, and in a little while Cicely had learned all that Maryllia herself knew about the village of St. Rest and its inhabitants. She was considerably interested in the story of the rescue of the ‘Five Sister’ beeches, and asked with a touch of anxiety, what had become of the dismissed agent, Oliver Leach?

“Oh, he is still in the neighbourhood,”—said Maryllia, indifferently—“He works for Sir Morton Pippitt, and I believe has found a home at Badsworth. His accounts are not yet all handed in to my solicitors. But I have a new agent now,—a Mr. Stanways—he is just married to quite a nice young woman,—and he has already begun work. Mr. Stanways has splendid recommendations—so that will be all right.”

“No doubt—so far as Mr. Stanways himself is concerned it will be all right,”—rejoined Cicely, musingly—“But if, as you say, the man Oliver Leach cursed you, it isn’t pleasant to think he is hanging around here.”

“He isn’t hanging round anywhere,”—declared Maryllia, easily—“He is out of this beat altogether. He cursed me certainly,—but he was in a temper,—and I should say that curses come naturally to him. But, as the clergyman was present at the time, the curse couldn’t take any effect.” She laughed. “You know Satan always runs away from the Church.”

“Who is the clergyman, and what is he like?” asked Cicely.

“He’s not at all disagreeable”—answered Maryllia, carelessly— “Rather stiff perhaps and old-fashioned,—but he seems to be a great favourite with all his parishioners. His name is John Walden. He has restored the church here, quite at his own expense, and according to the early original design. It is really quite wonderful. When I was a child here, I only remember it as a ruin, but now people come from far and near to see it. It will please you immensely.”

“But you don’t go to it,” observed Cicely, suggestively.

“No. I haven’t attended a service there as yet. But I don’t say I never will attend one. That will depend on circumstances.”

“I remember you always hated parsons,” said Cicely, thoughtfully.

Maryllia laughed.

“Yes, I always did!”

“And you always will, I suppose?”

“Well, I expect I shall have to tolerate Mr. Walden,”—Maryllia answered lightly,—“Because he’s really my nearest neighbour. But he’s not so bad as most of his class.”

“I daresay he’s a better type of man than Lord Roxmouth,” said Cicely. “By the way, Maryllia, that highly distinguished nobleman has spread about a report that you are ‘peculiar,’ simply because you won’t marry him? The very nuns at the Convent have heard this, and it does make me so angry! For when people get hold of the word ‘peculiar,’ it is made to mean several things.”

“I know!” and for a moment Maryllia’s fair brows clouded with a shadow of perplexity and annoyance—“It is a word that may pass for madness, badness, or any form of social undesirability. But I don’t mind! I’m quite aware that Roxmouth, if he cannot marry me, will slander me. It’s a way some modern men have of covering their own rejection and defeat. The woman in question is branded through the ‘smart set’ as ‘peculiar,’ ‘difficult,’ ‘impossible to deal with’— oh yes!—I know it all! But I’m prepared for it—and just to forestall Roxmouth a little, I’m going to have a few people down here by way of witnesses to my ‘-peculiar’ mode of life. Then they can go back to London and talk.”

“They can, and they will,—you may be sure of that!” said Cicely, satirically—“Is this a ‘dressed’ county, Maryllia?”

Maryllia gave vent to a peal of laughter.

“I should say not,—but I really don’t know!” she replied,—“People have called on me, but I have not, as yet, returned their calls. We’ll do that in this coming week. The only person I have seen, who poses as a ‘county’ lady, is an elderly spinster named Tabitha Pippitt, only daughter of Sir Morton Pippitt, who is a colonial manufacturer, and, therefore, not actually in the ‘county’ at all. Miss Tabitha was certainly not ‘dressed,’ she was merely covered.”

“That’s the very height of propriety!” declared Cicely—“For, after all, covering alone is necessary. ‘Dress,’ in the full sense of the word, implies vanity and all its attendant sins. Gigue says you can always pick out a very dull, respectable woman by the hidecmsness of her clothes. I expect Miss Tabitha is dull.”

“She is—most unquestionably! But I’m afraid she is only a reflex of country life generally, Cicely. Country life IS dull,—especially in England.”

“Then why do you go in for it?” queried Cicely, arching her black brows perplexedly.

“Simply to escape something even duller,”—laughed Maryllia—“London society and its ‘Souls’!”

Cicely laughed too, and shrugged her shoulders expressively. She understood all that was implied. And with her whole heart she rejoiced that her friend whom she loved with an almost passionate adoration and gratitude, had voluntarily turned her back on the ‘Smart Set,’ and so, of her own accord, instead of through her godfathers and godmothers, had ‘renounced the devil and all his works, the pomps and vanity of this wicked world and all the sinful lusts of the flesh.’

Within a very few days St. Rest became aware of Cicely’s quaint personality, for she soon succeeded in making herself familiar with everybody in the place. She had a knack of winning friends. She visited old Josey Letherbarrow, and made him laugh till he nearly choked, so that Maryllia had to pat him vigorously on the back to enable him to recover his breath—she cut jokes with Mrs. Tapple,— chatted with the sexton, Adam Frost, and scattered ‘sweeties’ galore among all his children,—and she furthermore startled the village choir at practice by suddenly flitting into the church and asking Miss Eden, the schoolmistress, to allow her to play the organ accompaniment, and on Miss Eden’s consenting to this proposition, she played in such a fashion that the church seemed filled with musical thunder and the songs of angels,—and the village choristers, both girls and boys, became awestruck and nervous, and huddled themselves together in a silent group, afraid to open their mouths lest a false note should escape, and spoil the splendour of the wonderful harmony that so mysteriously charmed their souls. And then, calming the passion of the music down, she turned with gentlest courtesy to Miss Eden, and asked: ‘What were the children going to sing?’—whereupon, being told that it waft a hymn called ‘The Lord is my Shepherd,’ she so very sweetly entreated them to sing it with her, that none of them could refuse. And she led them all with wondrous care and patience, giving to the very simple tune, a tender and noble pathos such as they had never heard before, yet which they unconsciously absorbed into their own singing, as they lifted up their youthful voices in tremulous unison.

“The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want, He maketh me down to lie, In pleasant fields where the lilies grow. And the river runneth by. “The Lord is my Shepherd; He feedeth me In the depth of a desert land, And lest I should in the darkness slip, He holdeth me by the hand. “The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want, My mind on Him is stayed, And though through the Valley of Death I walk, I shall not be afraid. “The Lord is my Shepherd; O Shepherd sweet, Leave me not here to stray; But guide me safe to Thy heavenly fold, And keep me there, I pray!”

John Walden, passing through the churchyard just at this time, heard the rhythmic rise and fall of the quaint old melody with a strange thrill at his heart. He had listened to the self-same hymn over and over again,—every year the school-children re-studied and re-sang it,—but there was something altogether new in its harmony this time,—something appealing and pathetic which struck to the inmost core of his sensitive nature. Noiselessly, he entered the church, and for a moment or two stood unobserved, watching the little scene before him. Cicely was at the organ, and her hands still rested on the keys, but she was speaking to the members of the choir.

“That is very nicely done,”—she said, encouragingly—“But you must try and keep more steadily together