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First Love

I get a text from this guy i had never knew.. well i knew he went to my school but i didnt really talk to him. he texted me out of nowhere. i ask him multiple questions but he seemed to want to keep his identity a secret. that was up until he gave me a hint. he seemed like my prince charming. up all night texting each other, i was really starting to like this guy, and he surprised me. he asked me out. now what do i do? do i say yes? i barely knew him but i did know that i was interested in him. and it seemed as if he was interesed in me. so hell with it, i said yea and what do you know, the whole grade knows about us being together. i didnt have a problem, so we were the cutest couple, he told me he was really into me, that he would die if we ever broke up, and i believed him. i believed everything he said to me. why? because i thought he was my prince charming but little did i know that my prince charming would be the guy that changed my life and broke my heart.

Secrets

so here i am thinking that hes the one for me, and im talking about him everyday to my friend.. only to find out that the same girl i was talking to was sneaking with him. i was heart broken, shattered, confused, hurt.. i didnt want to live. but i only found out because he told me, so i should forgive and trust him right? well i did and boy big mistake. i regret giving him that second chance. and that third chance, and that fourth chance, and that fifth chance.. yea i was in love with him.. call me crazy but its true. i know, i know.. i was only 14 at the time but my feelings for him was strong. and i believed we could make things work. so a year goes by and im giving him my all and i thought he was in love with me. he told me he was i trusted him, but not as much as i used to. 

Promises are made, sometimes broken

so on my birthday my step father gave me promise ring. it was a promise to not have sex until i was married, or at least 18. and i was cool with that i was scared to lose my virginity in the first place. so 3 months go by and im proud of my rings, my friends sat im stupid but to hell with them theyre gonna end up with a disease. anywho so me and ex are hanging out at his house just watching tv in his room. his mom doesnt know i was in, i snuck through the window. so im laying on his bed and here he comes touching on me im telling him to stop because we werent together but then he slips his hands in my pants and starts fingering me and one thing leads to another..

What went down

so im moaning but at the same time i want him to stop. so im trying to move his hand away but it felt so good, i knew what he was doing and i liked it. so he gets on top of me and takes my pants off and he slipped his penis in, omg it hurt like hell i started crying. he was worried which prolly meant he cared about the way i was feeling. so hes going in and out and me being the fragile girl i am i told him to stop.. and so he did i tried to stand up and he helped with a worried look on his face, i was happy to see he cared. after i was healed he layed on the bed and i did what he asked. i have him a BJ and he enjoyed it.. he didnt believe me when i told him that was my first time, but hey some people just got it like that.

He told

before i left back out the window i told him not to tell anyone, but the next day at school everyone was looking at me funny calling me names and they knew because of the way i was walking.. i was pissed and later that day i found out he was in a relationship, so that made things worse people was saying i was a bad friend, smiling in her face but fucking her bf behind her back. and it wasnt true if i knew he was with someone i wouldnt have done anyhting i would have stopped him. but no he wanted his cake and ice cream. so now im done with him im not talking to hima nymore. he looks at me everyday but i dont look back, and i see from the corner of my eyes that hes dissappointed, but thats what he gets. i bet it sucks to be you right now.. doesnt it?

Love

so now im going to move on.. forgive and forget is what im doing, and im proud of myself.. i dont think i will ever love strong again, but when im ready god will allow it. i just know it

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Publication Date: 03-16-2013

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Dedication:
TO THE GUY THAT BROKE MY HEART AND MADE ME A STRONGER PERSON