Someone Like you - stephanie lyon (debian ebook reader .TXT) 📗

Prologue

 

 Momma always told me, that you’ll never find someone better than a southern boy, a guy that works hard, plays hard. Fixes just about anything that needs fixing loves kicking back with friends, bond fires, muddin, and drinking a cold beer. Was always wearing old worn in jeans, boots or crocs, faded out hat, t-shirt? When dressing up, he wore old worn out jeans, clean boots, and button down shirt. He has loud mouth when it comes to talking about girls, but he was true and faithful when it came to the one he loves. Country and southern rock music was all he ever played.

 

And to me that guy was Dakotah, I knew my mom would of loved him if she was still alive, It didn’t take me long to fall for Dakotah, four months and I was already planning on spending my life with him, a year and a half and that still hasn’t changed, but a lot of other things were about to.

 

“Fay you okay.” I heard Dakotah ask snapping me from my train of thought. He smiled his sweet southern smile that always melted my heart and I knew after tonight, nothing will be the same, but I couldn’t keep it a secret any longer.

 

“Can we talk” I asked staring at the ground.  He squatted down so he could see my face and grabbed my hands. My heart skipped every time he touched me I was so in love with him, but I just hope after tonight he will still be in love with me. “I uh- do you- umm do you remember when we talked about moving in and starting a family?”

 

“Yeah of course I do, and I still want to after graduation and I have the money to support us, is that what you’re scared about?” he asked. I felt my heart drop and I couldn’t talk. That was the one thing I didn’t want to hear. That he wasn’t ready. Without saying a word I pushed past Dakotah and ran out of the barn towards my truck. “Faith” I heard him scream each time he did it broke my heart even more. I didn’t hesitate turning on the truck and leaving because I knew it’s what I had to do.

 

 

Chapter One

 

14 months later…

 

I knew it was going to be hard, but it wasn’t until I pulled in front of my grandpa’s farmhouse just how hard it would be. Looking at the fields, the barn, all of it just reminded me of the reason I left in the first place. All the hurt I felt that night came back, and it didn’t hurt any less even after a year.

 

There wasn’t a day sense I left that I didn’t think about what I gave up by leaving Alabama. I gave up my best friend, my soul mate, the guy I wanted to spend my life with, and I think about that night all the time, wondering what if I just stayed, what if I did tell him that night about the pregnancy.  I grabbed the letters I put in my Bag, the 73 letters I wrote to Dakotah that I never sent and I started to read one.

 

 

 

Dakotah,

Im so sorry I left you, I have thought about you everyday Sense and the pain aren’t getting any easier. I left the other Half of my soul when I left you, but I thought it was best To leave, you’re so amazing and I couldn’t screw up your Life by staying so I left. But there’s not a day that I don’t regret leaving you I love you, you’re my heart and I Hope you can forgive me, I left because I was Pregnant and I wouldn’t stand telling you after you told me you weren’t Ready So I left, grandma told me you came by every day For the last nine months and It breaks my heart knowing I’m causing you pain, but im trying to do what’s Best I want You to graduate and do everything that you can’t do if you Had a Baby. God words can’t explain how hard this is, I’m so sorry. I love you, I always will.

 

XOXO,

 FAITH

 

 

I put the letter back in the box and wiped the tears that were now rolling down my cheek, he would never forgive me for leaving, but I didn’t blame him, it killed me to leave and knowing Dakotah it killed him even more that I left him without even an explanation.

           

I took a deep breath and got out of the old beat up Chevy, grandpa was expecting me, and with grandma gone now he isn’t the same. I could tell when he called me and told me the she was gone last week. He sounded empty, the same way I felt when I left Dakotah a year ago.  I grabbed the carry-on bag that had all my clothes until my other stuff was shipped back to grandpas. 

 

I was halfway up the stairs when I heard my grandpa’s voice.

 

“she loved you with all her heart boy, trust me I was there the night she boarded the plane, she wouldn’t of left unless she had to, and I’m in no place to tell you, that’s for her to tell you boy, but I will tell you, you where her life” he said his voice was stern voice. I stopped, he was talking to Dakotah. The way he spoke, he treated him like a son.

 

“She left me jack, if she loved me even just a little she wouldn’t of” Dakotah voice boomed. I felt tears start to fill my eyes again. He didn’t think I loved him. I dropped my stuff and ran into the living room where I knew they were that’s the only room that grandpa ever went in besides his bedroom. Grandpa was sitting in his recliner while Dakotah sat on the couch; well partially he was sitting on the edge of it. They both looked at me, the look on Dakota’s face revealed that I was the last person he expected to run through that door. He stood up and glared at grandpa, but I spoke before he could say anything else.

 

“That is not true!” I yelled, tears slowly rolling down my cheek. “I did it because I loved you” I cried.  He glared at me; I could tell there was no love left in his eyes anymore. He pushed past me and went out the door. My heart broke as the screen door slammed. It didn’t get easier when the person you love leaves you. No matter how many times it’s happened.

 

I sat on the couch and let the tears come; my grandpa walked over and rubbed my back as I cried.

 

“That boys’ in love with you Darlin’ he’ll come back” my grandpa said, rubbing my back in attempt to sooth me. I shook my head; he had nothing but anger in his eyes. I didn’t blame him though I left him without a word then suddenly reappear out of nowhere. “yes he is Darlin’ he wouldn’t be so angry if he didn’t love you, he’s only angry cause he still cares and it hurts him” he said pulling me against his chest like he did when I was ten and I cried. I didn’t push away I felt comfort in the fact that at least one thing didn’t change in the last year.  

 

Half hour later I was till laying on the couch, but grandpa was in the kitchen cooking me dinner, I guess with grandma gone he’s had to learn how to cook. I only ever saw grandma in the kitchen; it felt weird seeing grandpa in there.

 

There was a knock at the door but I was too into thinking about the past to get up, I knew grandpa would get it anyways.  “She’s in the living room, not really in the best of moods” I heard my grandpa say.

 

I was hoping that it would be Dakotah but I knew it wasn’t, it took a lot to hurt Dakotah and when you did, he’d hold a grudge. My heart broke as the thought of losing Dakotah for good. It was different leaving t Oregon, I knew I’d come back one day when I thought the time was right, but I forgot about the fact that he might not want me when I came back.

 

Willy’s tall stocky figure walked into the living room and I gave him the best smile I could even though I knew it wasn’t much of one.

 

“Hi Willy,” I said my voice more like a whisper.

 

“Hey fay” he said sitting next to me on the couch, he looked like the same Willy that I knew sense middle school. Tall stocky brown hair, shaggy, blue eyes, but  now he had a five o’clock shadow something I told him that would make him look older, and I was right. Besides that he was the same as when I left. “ Just give him time faith, he still loves you, you just really hurt him when you left without any kind of explanation, he was planning on proposing for your anniversary then you left him he was really messed up” willy said watching me, I’m guessing he saw the pain in my face so he started rubbing my arm.

 

“I was pregnant” I blurted without thinking.

 

“What! Is that why you left, you know he would have stayed by your side faith! You –“

 

“I know, I screwed up but I can’t go back and change it now Willy I asked him about our future that night and he said he wanted to but he wasn’t ready to move in or start a family!” I cried. I couldn’t stop I needed to tell Willy all of it no one else knew besides my grandparents and my brother. “I was scared so I left, I thought about adoption, but I couldn’t, I couldn’t give something that was part of him and me away”

 

“So you had the baby?” Willy asked, I nodded my head then continued.

 

“His names Bentley and he’s beautiful, he looks just like him, but I was scared Dakotah was moved on by now and I didn’t want to bring him here yet” I cried.

 

“he hasn’t touched a girl sense you left faith, for nine months he came here every day asking if you were back, after ten months he gave up, but it wasn’t by his choice It was tearing him apart, he gave you everything,” willy continued making my heart break even more, I never should have left in the first place it was the stupidest thing I had ever done and now I possibly could have lost him, for good.

 

“Willy, I don’t know what to do” I sobbed putting my face in my hands. I looked up at his sympathetic face. “I want to be with him he still has my heart.”

 

“then give him time faith, he’s still in love with you, if he didn’t he would have taken the ring out of his truck,”  willy said rubbing my back then kissing the