my perfect not so perfect life - Ashley Brown (read 50 shades of grey txt) 📗

I sat on my bed wondering how summer had just gone by so fast without me even noticing. Today is the last day of my summer vacation and sad to say nothing special has happened to me. No summer loving with meeting a hot guy at the beach and falling in love and definitely no stories of how I met a werewolf or I found out I was a mystical creature. I did hang out with Lucy my best friend but she was the one to get a guy not me, you know all those stories that there’s always an ugly friend in the friendship I always feel like I’m the ugly one in this situation.

“Sasha! I’m going to work, okay take care of you.” My mum called from downstairs. My dad had to live far away because of his job and my mum was always busy at work which often left me at home. My parents never actually bother to know what I do with my life; my mum basically keeps my report cards till when my father comes to visit. They expect much from me but still, they never try to be part of my live and assist me in achieving those expectations. Things have been really hard for me since I’m the only child and I don’t really like telling Lucy my family problems.

I get out of bed and into the bathroom; I look in the mirror and see a thin, well not so thin but not fat at all girl with dark curly hair and green eyes staring at me. I sighed realising how messed up I looked but I didn’t care all I wanted to do was to sleep. So I craw back into bed and return to my beauty sleep.

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“Have you eaten? God Just look at you. You are a total mess.” I look up to see my mum staring at me she was definitely not smiling. “Hey mum. Sorry I was kind of tired.” I said yawning and rubbing my eyes. She smiled and pulled my blanket off me. I scratched my hair noticing how my mum looked at it with a disgusted look. “Get cleaned up and come down for dinner.” My mother said leaving my room. I sit up and look round my room it’s a mess and I haven’t put out my school uniform for tomorrow. I yawn as I walk into the bathroom and have a refreshingly warm shower. Once I’m done I put on my pyjamas and rush downstairs suddenly realising how hungry I was.

Just as I was going down I overhear my mum talking to someone on the phone, my mum sounded serious so I stopped to listen to what was being said. “I’m so grateful for this opportunity you are giving me but I will first have to discuss this with my daughter to make sure she is fine with this.” My mother said. I step into the Dining room and my mother spins round immediately she tells the person bye and smiles at me. I look at her giving her the questioning look. She laughs but I can tell that it’s been forced, so I just let it go and grab a plate of pasta. My mum always made me eat before she told me something that I might react angrily to. When I was done eating I looked dup at my mum who was watching me and said “I’m done eating so just tell me what it is, the sooner we get done with this the better.” She swallowed and spoke up “Honey, I’ve been offered a chance to leave the country for about a month and a half, but you can’t come along because it’s strictly ––—.” I didn’t even let finish because I already knew she was going to say it’s strictly business. Was she really going to leave alone at home for months? She’s always doing this to mean always putting her job before her daughter. “When are you leaving?” I ask calmly. “Next month.” She said almost in a whisper. “But this month is almost over!” I cried running up to my room. I locked my door and threw myself on my bed letting all the tears fill my pillow. I knew I left my mum hurt but she is also hurting me. I’m still going to have to forget that she is leaving me and move on with life. I sigh as I drift into a very deep sleep.

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I wake up to the sound of my mum hitting my door and screaming for me to get ready for school. I stretched and rushed to get ready for school. After showering and all that other stuff I got dressed and did my hair actually I did nothing to my hair, I just left it flying. I looked at myself in the mirror my school skirt was a bit short it was way above my knees, but not that bad compared to other girls in my school their skirts are practically I don’t k now what to even call it. By the time I got down my mum was already eating breakfast. I grabbed a juice box and sat down. “Are you dropping me in school or do I have to walk?” I asked. My mum frowned basically at herself and said she wouldn’t be able to take me to school today. I nodded gave her a hug and left the house.

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So here I am walking into the school gates, everyone seems to be hugging each other and you can hear screams everywhere. I was never a popular person in my school I actually had no friends apart from Lucy, but Lucy on the other hand is very popular and sometimes she just leaves me out especially at lunch when she goes and eat lunch with the popular kids and I’m left alone. I scan the area for Lucy. I spot her with the popular kids who I call the Popies. Lucy is flirting with Jeff. Jeff and Lucy got really serious this summer, so I haven’t had the chance to spend quality time with her. I walk to m locker and pick up my books for my 1st three classes. They were Maths, French then physics. Just as I’m about to leave I notice the locker beside mine has a name. I feel the urge to check who it is because no one has ever chosen that locker and I always feel it’s because they don’t want to be next to me. The name on the locker reads ‘Drake’ so far I knew there was no Drake in my grade so this person obviously had to be new. Now it all makes sense why this locker was chosen this person had no idea who was going to be next door.

“Sasha! There you are.” Lucy said wrapping her arms round me. I hugged her back but hated the fact that she wouldn’t come this close to me when the Popies were around her. I had Lucy in every single class I took and that was what made us best friends in the first place. “Missed you Lu. So how was your summer?” I said as we walked to Maths. “It was amazing. So much happened I don’t even know where to begin!” She squealed. We sat beside each other and Lucy told me all about her summer and Jeff and some other crap I really wasn’t bothered to listen to. She never even stopped for a minute to ask how my summer was, well it’s not like anything happened but it would have still felt nice if she just asked.

Finally it came to the third Class before break physics. I really hated physics because I never understand what’s going on. I enter the class with Lucy, but then Bianca waves over to her, asking her to come seat with her and Lucy just totally ditches me and goes to Bianca. I feel hurt but I just go to the next available seat which is next to a guy who has no idea who he is. I seat and keep me eyes glued to the board. I really need to focus so I can pass. “Hey I’m Drake.” The guy next to me says. I turn to face him observing his features he had a nice blonde hair and blue eyes reminding me of the ocean. “I’m Sasha.” I said almost in a whisper. “So Sash, is that girl your friend she seemed to have ditched you.” he said. I just officialy hate this guy. I knew he was right but I didn't need him pointing it out. "Please stop talking to me. I need to concentrate okay!" I said irritated by his presence. "Fine if that's what you want. You know I'm right and you just hate the fact that I'm right." he said with a smirk on his face. I bit my lip and completley blocked him out of my head I so do not want to deal with a cute annoying boy I roll my eyes and hiss.

The bell rang indicating that the class was over. I was so grateful it was break time and I was straving. One thing I love about my school is the fact that we end early. I change my books for my last three subjects. I see Lucy with the biggies meaning i'm going have to eat alone again. I find an empty table in the corner. I looked at the biggies's table, they were having so much fun laughing and teasing each other. I saw Drake hanging out with the Opies he was also wearing a leather jacket. You can only get a leather jacket if you make socer's A team. the soccer team has been practising during  summer vacation. I just hated drake more he was part of the Popies and he made th soccer team. I looked at my food suddenly lossing my appetite.

I got up and satrted to walk towards the door when I heard someone calling me. I turned around to see Lucy running towards me, she wasn't actually running it was more like fast walking. "Hey! were you just going to go to class without you bestie." she said. I stopped her immediately I couldn't take this anymore I was always being a loyal friend but always ending up  getting hurt. "Lucy I've had enough!" I started. I looked round to make sure there was noone around, so that I wouldn't cause a scene. "You call me your bestie but you always end up leaving me for the popular kids. In physics you ditched me for Bianca. You beg me to follow you to a party, but you just leave me and run off with a guy. You call me to hang out and then you bring Jeff along and completley ignore me. You always leave me to eat alone in the cafeteria while you sit with the popular kids. All I do is suck it all up, I'm always trying my best to make you happy but guess what, I figured you are so not worth it!" I said finally feeling relived that I let all my feelings not realising that I should have prepared for the atomic bomb coming towards me.

"Oh really Sasha is that what you think? you know I have other friends, you aren't the only friend I have in the world can't I be with my friends anymore. Bianca saved me a seat I wasn't just going to leave her hanging.You say I leave you and run off with a guy You can't blame me for being prettier than you,if you don't want to be alone then do something and start trying. I know your only problem with Jeff is that he is