Torment Is Not As Hell... - Laura Valentina España Rodriguez (spiritual books to read .TXT) 📗

Well my name is Katrina Johnson just another girl in world.Nobody cares about me im alone always cause my parents are always in business trips and i have to be alone always.Well today is my first day of school i didnt want to go but i have to cause i expected to have someone that would make me feel better.


*At School*

there are bully's everywhere ! like Liam,And Marie

Marie was in her locker and then she looked at me and call liam and then came up to me and start saying me

Liam : Hey you slut !
Marie: We dont want you here why dont you go out of here ?
Liam: Yes go out we dont want you here slutty katrina johnson !?
Me: Hey i dont want to go what are you going to do to me then ?
Liam: after school you wont be alive Mrs Johnson
Me: GO YOU OUT OF MY LIFE BULLSHIT !!

I started running until i got out of breath, then i started crying as my lungs were about to explote i wanted a friend someone to lay on but that was imposible cause i have to live my own world because everyone thinked i was a bullshit. someone interrupt her in the middle of her thoughs it was a nice guy standing in front of her

***: Hey, umm sorry but you left your book at the classroom
Katrina: *Cleaning Her Tears* oh , thanks ! :)
***: By the way my name is Justin, Justin Flinkle
Katrina: Oh nice name, my name is Katrina, Katrina Johnson
Justin: beautiful name for a beautiful girl
Katrina: Awww thanks.. umm i have to go home im sorry maybe we can talk later ?
Justin: Of course here is my number ... see you then !

I was really happy ! finally i got a friend ! i was walking way home when Liam and Marie appeared

Liam: did you think you were going to live after this ?
Marie: aww poor you...
Liam: now lets have some fun...
Katrina: What are you going to do ?
Marie: Dont ask
Liam: Shut up and enjoy

when he said that they started punching her on the face and then throwing her to the cement until she was crying of pain they left her there alone because Justin came and beat them up

Justin: Katrina,who did you this ?
Katrina: Isnt it obvius ?
Justin: My.... Brother Liam ?
Katrina: WTF !? He is your brother ?
Justin: yes, but this isnt important in this moment, lets take you to a hospital
Katrina: Ok ! but fast cause i feel a little dizzy

When they arrive to the hospital they couldnt believe their eyes With the person they saw over there it was....

She saw Jake Smith her ex boyfriend the one she has felt completely in love and the one that hurt her telling her their relationship was just a bet.

In that moment she started crying because all of that memories

*FlashBack*

Jake: Katry i need to tell you something that it may change this..
Katrina: What is it?
Jake: Our relationship is false
Katrina: u mean ?
Jake: It was just a bet... Im sorry
Katrina: *withtears* You played with me ?
Jake: dont think like that
Katrina: Go out of my life!

*EndOfFlashBack*

She started to remember the reason why she cutherself and why she smoked all reasons were in front of her eyes and she felt surprised when she saw him and she was crying but then justin interrupt the moment

Justin: Hey Katry dont cry

when he told her ¨Katry¨ she cry even more because she remembered all hurt and pain she felt on that moment and it made her blind for love

Katrina: Im sorry
Justin: Dont be sorry just tell me what happened
Katrina: Is complicated, do you mind if we go out of here ?
Justin: i dont mind lets go to your house ?
Katrina: yes ! lets go

Justin POV

We got to her house and she was pretty sad,she told me everything about that Jake, it was horrible what he did to her and what she was suffering right now because of my brother and his girlfriend.

Katrina POV

When i got to school I Walked down the long corridors with my head down, I tried that one note, but it was my lucky day.


More insults came to my ears, trying to be covered by a tune that my brain automatically replicated to try to distract me. From one moment to another, simply I heard a door close and those hateful voices were silent, had finally reached the living literature. Today's work was simple, to write a history of at least 20 pages for two days, I was good this work, fortunately. The class is fast paced, too much for my taste, I liked literature.


Wait a few minutes until I knew that there was no one at school, or at least not the plastic, walk to my locker, big surprise to see him take me covered with Post Its.Justin came up to me and started to hug me


Justin: Katry im really sorry they did this
Me: dont worry its ok
Justin: Lets take this off your loker but sweetheart dont cry cause im here for you
Me: thanks Justin


Then i started picking up with tears the full of colored paper written insults, "You're disgusting," "Emo" "You are ugly" "I see because you have no friends, your father and your mother abandoned you ran because you're pathetic" "Drop Dead ".


The tears were falling increasingly faster and without permission, I slowly drop back in the starting box all papers were in my way, I took my hands covering my face i cant stand this anymore everyone is just disgusting i ran home and went to my bed and cried myself to sleep

The rays of the sun gave me straight in the face, as a sign that I had to get up. Friday, lovely Friday, since I started high school on Friday had loved, but of course at that time had Jake , my home, my mother, my sister ... My sister, I am saddened to know that you may not see her grow, but somehow I'll see her or bring her with me, or leave her there would joke with my mother and that bastard. She will be safe and sound with me. I got and took a shower and then went to school

when i arrive to school i saw Justin bleeding terribly

Me: OMG Justin !
Justin: Im sorry
Liam: Oh Brother ....
Me: what did you do !
Liam: Beat my little brother up
Me: You are a Bullshit !
Liam: You think so ?
Me: Yes !
Liam: oh why ?
Me: Justin isnt part of this game , if you want to kill someone kill me cause he has gave me the happiness you have stole in me !!
Liam: You are safe for this one but in the future your death
Me: ASSHOLE !!

I took Justin to hospital and then i took him to my house in my mothers room and then went to mine and started crying I lay in bed with a white shirt that showed off my belly and a short striped pajamas that had as. I got up, I look in the mirror, they were right, the plastic in my school were right, I was ugly.I hadnt nice hair, it had not pretty face,i had not beautiful body. It was just awful

The world fell on me, teasing my head again, this whole situation was killing me, all the memories were like razor cuts that made me slowly in every corner of my heart. i needed to say this things i was feeling to someone i felt drown , I change with the first thing I saw, i took all the clothes i was wearing before , and went down,and took a lighter and burn it, throw it away and went back to my room, that was not enough, I already just did not want to be in this world.

I took a razor, with all my strength until I broke the blade staying alone,i took it with a trembling hand, the rest on my skin and I was moving it up to make a straight line from which the blood flowed in drops staining the ground was not enough, I repeated the action three times, no longer wanted to live, did not need reasons to kill me, I needed reasons not to, I thought and thought and could not find any.

The view was blurry I clouding in the distance sounded like Justin came, calling me from below, seeing that no reply came. Look around me, I was on the floor above a pool of blood. The door opened suddenly, and with my last strength I whispered: 'Sorry about the mess-