Dear Edward - Heather Parsons (smart books to read .TXT) 📗

was wrong. For everything she could have prevented and everything she just gave up on.
Getting out she screamed out loud, releasing all her anger, all her pain and leaving her heart on the side of the road for someone else to find. Someone else to take care of it because she didn't want to anymore. All it caused her was pain and she'd had enough.
After all her screams released from within and all her energy was gone Brianna dropped to the dirt and stared. No faces flashed her vision, no memories just empty space.

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The open road was vast and barren but Edward continued on anyway. Getting further and further away from Woodland as he could. He'd already caused enough problems there and felt responsible for most of it.
He should have left the first day he arrived, should have walked away just like he was doing now. But the reasons for leaving now had a lot to do with Brianna herself. He couldn't take looking at her and feeling heartbroken. And realizing this now caused him to pick up his pace and get further away.
A little way up he saw a car on the side of the road and the closer he was the more he saw. Brianna, she was laying on the ground, in the dirt and not moving. Did I cause this, he thought to himself.
“Brianna! Brianna! Oh my God, BRIANNA!” He screamed, dropping his bags and running to her side. Skidding to a stop beside her, he saw that her eyes were open but she wasn't responding to anything he did. Snapping his fingers in front of the sight, lifting her arm up only to see it drop back down. But her chest was moving, that's a good sign.
So instead of screaming at her, Edward sat by her side and waited. Hoping and praying that she'd come too then he could leave. But not before making sure first.
The sky darkened by the time Brianna came too. Moving slowly she sat up, looked directly at him and then stood. “You want a lift?” She asked in monotone.
“Are you okay?” He asked unsure of her current state of mind. Never had he seen her look the way she did. Like everything in the world imploded and she was the only one left alive.
“Are you coming?” She asked opening her door and climbing in.
Taking a moment to think about the pro's and con's of the situation, he shrugged his shoulder's and said, “sure why not?”
It was never meant to be a question but the way it had come out it sounded like one.
Grabbing his bags, he threw them in the back seat and climbed into the front. The minute his door shut she hit the gas and they were off.
Keeping his eyes on her most of the ride seemed ridiculous. Honestly what could she do that he wouldn't know about and a few seconds after he turned his head, he found out.

SEVENTEEN

“The snow was such a beautiful shade of white. Pure in a way that could never be touched by any man and I used to sit down and watch it fall. It was a simple pleasure to be far away from the bustle of everyday traffic and enjoy God's true nature. Enjoy the sounds of the animals in their natural habitat.” She sighed and closed her eyes seeing her little piece of heaven.
The car swerved causing her eyes to open but still she saw the image in the sight. Laid out in front of her, calling for her to return.
“Dark blue almost black skies with the stars twinkling brightly, you felt like you could reach out and touch them. Hold them in your hands and make a wish. Believing that what you wished for would come true. Knowing it in your heart that it was true and not something your parents said to soothe your tears.” She smiled, the memory taking shape in her mind.
Edward sat very still not saying a word and just listening to her musings. Nothing she was saying made any sense to him.
“One night I reached out and held one of those stars in my hands. It felt like another life form that pulsed and shined so bright, I had to cover my eyes. I made a wish that night not in the forms of words but from my heart. I was such a foolish girl.” Tears fell from her eyes.
“My relationship with Jason was slipping away and I asked my mother in a letter what I should do. Knowing full well that her reply wouldn't get to me for weeks but she was the only one I wanted advice from. She was the only mother I had. When the letter came I was so excited, I ripped it open before even leaving the mailbox. What she wrote was so heart warming but she never answered the one thing I wanted to know and I was so mad. So angry that I didn't write her back.” Brianna spoke through her tears.
“She died because I'd made that wish. It was such a horrible thing for me to wish for. I wished for my family to be together. My dad although you'd never know was heartbroken when she left. And all I wanted was her back.” Her hands shook so bad she had a hard time keeping the car on the road.
“When we buried her I knew my dad would soon follow. It was only a matter of time before something happened where he could be with her again.” Brianna said.
His face paled, he thought for sure she was just rumbling about nothing. But the look on her face spoke volumes. The beats of his heart increased while he gripped the door handle in fear. Seeing your life flash before your eyes when your time is near the end was one thing but when someone else was in control it's quiet another.
Fear rippled through him as he tried to think of something to say. Opening his mouth and then closing it again, he couldn't think of one thing that would break through her walls of insanity and make her see reason. Would it matter what he said to her? Would she listen?
“I'm going to take you there.” She said in a flat tone.
“I'm not sure if I'm ready to go there.” He said smoothly. The last thing he wanted to do was spook her. Cause her to do something that would end both their lives.
“No one's ever ready.” She said and pushed harder down on the gas petal. Flying down the road at speeds that made the trees on both sides zip by.
“Brianna, please slow down. Brianna, NO!” He whispered, holding on not only to the handle but also the dashboard as his body flew around inside the car.
She didn't respond to his pleads. Pulling the wheel hard to the left when the familiar dirt road came into view. She'd been this way many times before and knew without the right amount of speed her car would never make it up and over the hill.
Once the car stopped he jumped out. “Are you crazy? You could have killed us! Is that what you wanted, to die? To be with your family?” The words rushed out of his mouth before he could stop them. That was one of his many faults, not thinking before he said something and seeing the look on her face now, broke him.
Climbing out and facing him was hard to do. His questions had never entered her mind but now she was asking them herself. The tears she'd cried a few minutes ago had almost dried up and now were returning.
“I.....I.....” She couldn't form the words to speak. Her mind was blank and no plausible explanation was acceptable to say why she'd done what she'd done. For a moment she thought maybe sharing this place with someone would be magical but now, seeing the look on his face. The anger rising up inside him she thought against it. He'd never appreciate the beauty of it and that alone broke her heart. She thought he was different, but she was wrong.
Leaving the keys in the ignition, she turned her back on him and walked away. Her car was just a car, nothing she could see using again. There would be no use for it where she was going.
Edward stood there, kicking the dirt around and watching as she walked away from him. The questions kept coming but this time he didn't voice them. Thinking he'd won the argument but then it never really started. Smug son of a …...
Shaking his head, shaking the thoughts out of it he turned around as well and headed back to the road. Kicking the dirt around him, he replayed what she'd said in her car. Sorting through all her rumblings caused his head to hurt but there was something there. He knew it. Something she'd said that made his heart skip a beat.
At the top of the hill is where he stopped walking. Looking out at the trees, out at the scenery that lay below he stood in awe. Staring out he saw the very tips of the tallest building in Woodland, saw the tips of the flag poles that hung the American flag everyday. On the other side he saw the lines of trees that seem to go on forever. And in the sky as he looked up he saw an eagle fly over top of him, squinting to watch it's graceful movements made him smile. His anger dissipate.
The rustic cabin lay ahead and Brianna could see the shimmering glow all around it. It was beautiful all by itself. And this time of year instead of snow there were wildflowers that grew all around. Every color you could ever think of was here. All different shapes and sizes.
“I thought bringing him here would help.” Brianna mumbled. “I feel like such an idiot.”
Trekking through the woods to make it this far drained Brianna of all her energy. She fell down in the middle of the flowers and closed her eyes. Raising her hands to cover her face, cover her fears and cover her broken heart.
Thoughts of her fight with Jason returned to her mind. Everything she'd done