Clio - Jessica A (best non fiction books to read txt) 📗

didnt count any of those 6 guys. I dont think I even knew there names, and broke up with them after I got 6 guys. 

It seemed like a heartless thing to do. 

Looking back to January when this happened, I realised it was heartless and I knew I wasnt like that. I knew I wasnt going to turn into those heartless bastards from my school. Because I was waiting for the perfect someone and he was going to make it worth the waiting. He couldnt be very far. Right?

At school that day I heard some prep had cheated on her boyfreind. Like every prep-girl had dated like every prep- boy. I didnt care. Though I did wonder how they dated so many people easily. 

I hated people who cheated. I hated even more that Ive done it before.

This world can make you pretty heartless. Even though you dont notice it.

 

By the end of march it was only Joyce and I who hadnt had our first kiss yet.

Maryanne had hers in 4th grade. DJ in first. and Meg who just had it like a week ago.

She was super happy. So was Maryanne. and so were we all. 

  

Chapter 9

It was April 1st today. Normal day right? well yea more or the less boring but once I got home it wasnt very boring. I had quite an interesting conversation with Jake. I was in the bathroom. Same as always. I spent about in hour after school in the bathroom. Its the only place I can be where no ones bugs me or my parents arent all nosy about what im doing. 
I was brushing my hair when I got a text from Jake.

"hey"

"hi"

"what u doin?" he always sent me that same message.

"brushing my hair, you?"

"riding my bike"  he was always riding his bike

"lucky. I wanna ride my bike"

"then why dont you?"

"you know my moms rule."

"oh yeaa the one where you cant ride your bike unless your dads home?"

"yep"

"then whens he coming home?"

"at like 6"

"awww"

Then we just talked for another hour. I could talk to him about anything. He could talk to me about anything too.

But then it got weird.

" Soo....."

"sooo...?"

"am I the one?"
     "the one?"

"yea you know the one"

"what do you mean the one Jake?"

"you know, if im the one you wanna be with"

"woaw Jake you know im not ready to be in love, I go around wining about how im single but you know im not ready..."   I didnt know that this was the biggest mistake I ever made - to say that.

"ooh. Well I just wanted you to know that I really like you, and when I talk to you I get this burning thing inside. I think its just some lung problem, cuz I was getting it after we did that running test."

"really? lol, I was not expecting any of that."
     "yeaa... sorry"

"noo its okay, wait since when have you liked me?"

"just guess"

"ummm im a bad guesser"

"random guess"

" a month"

"you are a bad guesser"

"i know, so since when??"

"6th grade?"

"6TH GRADE?!?!

"yeaa"

"AND YOU NEVER TOLD ME??"
    "sorry"

"oh god"

"what?"  

" I liked you too in 6th grade!" 

" I know"

"you knew??"

"yeaa"

"then why did you never ask me out when I liked you??"
    " I dont know"

"okay okay, but why would you like me?? no one likes me!"

" I do"

"but why??"

"your different"

"im different?"

"yeaa"

"how??"

"your fun, and your weird and crazy. But in the best ways possible, and your not fake. Which is why I like you"

"no ones ever said anything like that to me"

our conversation ended eventually after that and I went to bed in utter shock but the good type of shock.

 

Chapter 10

The next day as soon as I got to school I told all my freinds this.

"woaww" Joyce said

"you should just go out with him" Maryanne said

"yea" DJ agreed

"I cant believe you turned him down!" 

"I dont know what I was thinking!"

"So hes liked you since last year?" Meg asked

"6th grade actually"

"wow"

"I know"

"I still cant believe you turned him down!" 

"I still think you should go out with him" Joyce said again

"me too" DJ and Meg both agreed

"I dont know. Ill think about it"

The bell rang and we went to our classes

I put thought into this but didnt do much. 

I guess I liked him , and he liked me. Damn I never thought I'd see the day. 

Have I found him? Was it really him? Why would he like me? Why me? Why not those preps that dressed with half clothes on? Why not those preps that were so much better at soccer than me? Why not those preps that were so much prettier and smarter? Why not those preps who were better at sports than me? Why not why not why not? I had so many questions. I didnt deserve him. I had lied to him. More than once. I wasnt what he thought I was. 

I lied to him. Told him Id never had a boyfreind. Which was kinda true. Because I didnt count any of those guys. But I acted so sweet and innocent and smart around him. I did act weird and stuff. But it wasnt who I was. 

I told him I collect poetry and that I dont listen to any recent music and that I only liked old music. Which was kinda true because I did listen to old music and todays music too. And I didnt collect poetry. I had only read some because I read a bunch of love stories and they usually recite poetry in those, so thats how I knew some.

It was my birthday on the 15th. I told him and he promised to get me something. He wouldnt admit what though. 

I saw him at soccer a few times. He had soccer practise the same day I did but we both were on different teams. He once told me while we were texting about his childhood. He was also abused and beat. I didnt tell him much about my childhood because I wanted to give him my attention. He needed someone to listen to him, and I already had Meg. 

It was now April 10. 5 days till my birthday. Me and Jake were texting all day long as usual. At night he told me his phone was going out of service and I shouldnt message him.

All I could do was hope he was gonna be back by my birthday.

He didnt talk much to me while at school. Actually he didnt talk much to anyone at school. Which wasnt such a big deal right??

 We were on the verge of moving. I hated talking about it and I hated it when my parents talked about it. I tried to avoid it but you cant avoid things like this for very long. This reminded me of this one quote I saw. "You can close your eyes to the things you dont want to see. But you cant close your heart to the things you dont want to feel" I could relate to that right now.

That saturday I had a soccer game. My dad always yelled at me and used the time walking from the feild to yell at me and make me feel bad. Always. 

Afterwards Maryannes mom called asking if I wanted to come over. My mom said no being the BEEP she is. The only good thing that happened that day was that I started riding my bike again. I had a fear of bikes since I was 6 because I fell once and got really hurt. Well I started riding it again and rode it all around town. I got back. Apparently too late bacuse I was greeted with yelling. 
"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN??" my mom yelled at me

"i was riding it around town"

"why??"
    "I dont know! because I wanted to??"
    "You know your not aloud to go outside this neighborhood!"

"well I didnt know that! and wheres our dad?"
    "I sent him to go look for you!"
    "you sent dad to look for me?"

"yes!"

my dad eventually came home and surprisingly he wasnt even angry

"gosh I thought on the first day I let my daughter out of the house alone she gets kidnapped" my dad joked

"hah" I said sarcastically

We all sat down in the bench in our backyard

"Clio your not aloud outside our neighborhood"
     "Sorry I didnt know"

"Well if you go out of this neighborhood again you have to wear your helmet" my dad suggested

"no! Your not aloud to go out this neighborhood with or without a helmet"
I eyed my dad willingly

"Sorry kiddo but do what your mom says"

"Fine then!" and with that I went inside

 

It was now 2 days till my birthday and I was still single. All by myself. Celine Dion moment. 

I walked down the stairs with Jake and his freind after 7th period.

"so is your phone gonna be renewed by my birthday?"    "probably not"    "woaw woaw she has your number?" his freind cut in

"I dont see whats wrong with that" I said

and with that we were seperated by the people current. 

I was pissed off majorly on how different Jake acts in front of his freinds.  Once again I thought it was just him being quiet.  Once again I was wrong. 

 

Chapter 11

It was finally my birthday and when I woke up I knew it was going to be the best day of my life. I wore my Wolverine shirt and my super baggy pants. Its like my car knew it was my birthday and played "The Best Day of my Life" by the American Authors. I took it as a good sign. The day passed. Meg got me a necklace saying my name on it. Joyce got me a card with a bunch of "thats what she saids" on them. DJ got me a Wolverine snapback and a pack of earrings. Maryanne came to my place