Clio - Jessica A (best non fiction books to read txt) 📗

to him and he smiled back.

He started playing cards with Gray  I watched them and was laughing my head off cuz Jake kept losing.

"Im guessing you havent told Gray yet?"

and he shook his head "nope"

"tell me what??"

"nothing"

"no im serious tell me what"

"I - I have cancer" I joked

"and Im on Drugs" Jake played along

"oooooh I knew it!" I said " I have cancer and I have a year left to live

"yea im on drugs and im gonna die in 10 minutes"

"Your joking about having some really bad disease?" Jake said to me with a smile

"and your joking about doing drugs- which isnt very good either" I said back to him 

"I knew Jake was on drugs. I just knew it!"

and then Gray turned around for the movie.

Once the movie started they waited a bit before shutting all the lights off and I bent over to Jake and said

"I get scared in the dark" which was a complete lie. I loved the dark more than anything "will you hold my hand?"

"gosh! NO!"

"fine then!"

Once the lights shut off I touched his arm and he gave me his hand to hold. First I kept my hand on top of his. Then he moved it so that our hands were cupped together then he moved it again so that were holding hands the way couples do. It was the first time I held anyones hand and I sweating horribly. Teachers kept passing by and after a while we both stopped moving our hands when teachers walked by. Once he grabbed 2 of my fingers as a reassuring that he was there for me. Then once he put his hand on top of mine.
I dont remember any of that movie. None honestly. I just remember how safe I felt and how long I'd been waiting to hold someones hand. Even though I wasnt expecting the first time I hold someones hand to be at our school auditorium  in complete darkness, while watching some movie about college. But I dont mind. It was amazing.

I was sitting by one of the sluttiest preps ever born- Jaqueline. She had her foot hurt and kept bumping me cuz she kept putting her foot up on my chair and said a simple "sorry" I wouldve pushed her leg off if I wasnt with Jake and having the time of my life.

The movie was about 2 hours long and we held hands for that long. Once the movie finished and the lights turned back on he moved his hand and both our hands were sore by the time the movie ended. Gray looked back at us at about half the movie when I bent over to apologise for my sweaty hands.

after it was done I said to Jake

"you know what I just realised?"

"what?"

"Im sitting with the wrong home room"
he looked around at our home room and then his and laughed

"oh" he said giggling

When the teacher dismissed our home room he stood up and I walked past him. We were really close when I walked past him.

We went into another home room after the movie because the teacher had to make an annoucement.

"alright students settle down." Mrs. Tharp- our science teacher said " you may have heard rumours about next weeks baseball game. Well we are going to one down in Davenport."

Then she just talked about the lunches we could bring.

I read the rest of the time and talked with our substitute the rest of the time. She was awesome and she asked me about my boyfreind and if I had one. I told her

"who?"

"hes in mrs. K's home room"
    "ooh, wait was it the guy who you were holding hands with in the auditorium?"

"wait you guys could see that?"

"yea we could see everything"

"oh god"

"Dont worry we wont do anything"

"okay thank you" and we both laughed a bit till the bell rang and I left.

I went home that day. Feeling amazing. I didnt want anything else. 

 

That weekend. I got my phone taken away. I had renamed Jakes name as Jasmine so I wouldnt get caught. So I took my ipad and started messaging him from that

"heyy"

"hey"

"dont message my phone, I got it taken away"

"okay I wont lol"
    "soo"

"soo"

"do you ever think about sex?"

"umm what?!"
    "do you?"

"would it be bad to say no?- or worse to say yes"

"its your answer"

"ummmm"

he took a while to answer but finally he said 
   "ummm then that would be a no"

 "What!?"

"you heard me"

"umm"
    "were too young and its just wrong"

"well thats not at all what i expected"

"were you being serious?"
    "TOTALLLLLYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no"

"oh okay lol, well sex, in my book is something you should wait for"

"lol okay"

then I heard my parents come upstairs. They didnt know I had my iPad with me. Ships. I thought. Im so freaking screwed. I deleted everything except that last message he sent. No big deal right? Its not like my mom looks through this app. I dont think she even knows I have it right? I rushed to their room and put the iPad away. Missing one tiny detail. I put it in the wrong spot, and my parents notice those kind of things.

I acted all innocent and used a stupid excuse on why I was in their room. I started reading when I heard my dad come up to my room.

"CLIO!!!"

Oh.Shit.

"yes?"

"WHO ARE YOU TAKING TO?"

"I have no idea what your talking about"

"who is this- 563 571 something something? COME HERE AND LOOK! WHY ARE YOU GUYS TALKING ABOUT SEX?"

"its Meg"

"I ASKED AND IT SAID VANESSA, WHICH ONES RIGHT?! IS IT MEG OR VANESSA? WILL YOU COME HERE??!"

so I slowly got up, buying as much time as possible.

Im. So. Fucking. Screwed.

My dad picked up the phone then dialed his number, luckily it went into voicemail saying his name in the end.

" THIS DOESNT SOUND LIKE MEG OR VANESSA, ITS SAYING ITS JAKE!"

"I dont know what your talking about" 

and so he dialed it again and it went into voice mail again.

then my mom spoke up

"WHY WERE YOU GUYS TALKING ABOUT SEX!??"

and i just shrugged my shoulders

"YOUR SO OLD AND IN LOVE THAT YOUR READY FOR SEX!??"

" no" I could hear my voice shrinking

"THEN?!"

"GO TO YOUR ROOM!" my dad yelled out and i walked out.

'WHO IS THIS PERSON" I heard my dad yell at my mom "BECAUSE IM GOING TO TALK TO HIS MOM, IM GOING TO! SHE THINKS SHE CAN JUST GO ON AND TALK ABOUT SEX WITH GUYS. WELL SHE CANT!"

I shut the door and just let him yell out as much as he wanted.

He didnt shut up that night. I knew that I wasnt going to get my phone back.

 

Chapter 13

 The next day during first period, I apologised for what happened and he just laughed and said it was no big deal. As long as my dad doesnt come to murder him, which i assured him wouldnt happen.

The next week we did go to a baseball game. I sat by DJ on the bus and we listened to music together. Cuz we were awesome like that. Jake texted me a couple times while we were on the bus. He hated bus rides. He thought they were loud and annoying.

"hey"

"hey"

"its so loud in here"

"its not that bad, Im guessing you dont like long car rides"

"no I do, I can barely hear myself think."

"lol why dont you listen to music instead"

"its okay, me and Gray are playing fruit ninja"

"lol your always playing that"

"I know lol. Gtg were here"

"okay byee"

We got off to a huge crowd of kids. We were going with the 7th graders too. 

I saw Jake with his freinds not far away and I looked away to talk to mine.

"did you see Jake just hugged a 7th grader?" DJ said

"WHAT!??"

"Wait who?" Ava said. Ava was DJ's cousin in 7th grade. She was awesome and super sweet. DJ showed Ava Jake along with the people he was with. He didnt talk to me at all, or look at me, or anything that had anyhing to do with me.

"you should just dump him"

"nah its okay."

"are you sure?"

"yea he'll come around and apologise to me tonight then promise he'll do better."
    The rest of the time was normal. Kinda like a girls night out. Only it wasnt night and there were about 200 other kids there. 

We were having a pretty normal time. Eating. Gossiping. Fangirling about the hot guys. Until it started raining. We had to leave 3 hours before the actual leaving time since it started raining and the field was too wet. Since it was raining we got back to school and just had free-time for the hour left.

Once I got home I texted Jake.

"hey"

"hey"

"why were you ignoring me again today?"

"I wasnt"
    "ya you were"

"Im sorry,  I just didnt wanna ditch my freinds"

"you could at least say hi to me"

"sorry"

 "its okay"

 

 

Chapter 14

Times passed. We went to the baseball game again the next week. He ignored me again. This time there were other middle and high schools and the place was packed. I mean freaking packed. There was no room to sit. He went off to sit in the grass with his freinds and I went with Seery too.

This guy kept staring at me and pointing to us as me seery were walking by. Then a little kid came up to me and said.

"hey you see that guy there?" he said pointing to him

"yea"

"well he likes you"

"really?"

"yea but hes just too shy to show it. Hes thinks your really cute and hes really shy around cute girls"

I couldnt see why he found me cute. My hair was a mess cuz of the wind. I was wearing my batman shirt with my baggy sweatshirt on top. I had short shorts on too.

He, on the other hand, was super cute.

He was standing with his freinds, and would ocasionaly glance over at me and Seery.

I eventually went up to him and tried talking to him. His eyes just widened and he ran to the other side.

um okay. I thought and walked back towards the grass where Jake was sitting. 

One of our freinds was sitting with them. Me and Seery went over there to sit by them. I threw my sweatshirt at Jake and sat by Seery.

Jake tried "selling" my sweatshirt to Enrique- who was Jakes freind. Bitter butthole in my opinion.