Just tonight - Delenatwinflames (highly recommended books txt) 📗

and she was tired and just wanted to go to sleep . She just wanted for this terrible , but freeing day to end .

She was exhausted and could barely stand on her feet . Jenna sent her to bed . It looked like the match was finally over , because they could no longer hear the boys cheering or cursing .

When Rick and Jeremy saw Elena going upstairs , they both looked like they were going to ask her what was going on ,but Jenna gave them a warning look that was saying: " Not now . "

Elena threw herself on her bed without even changing into pajamas and ,after a few minutes , fell asleep . Before she was asleep , she imagined how things would have end up if she didn't waste five years of her life . If she hadn't been stubborn and in complete denial of her feelings for him.

Even though he had left Mystic Falls , she would have gone searching for him . If there wasn't for that cursed spell . And even though she never found out the reason why he left , she wondered was it for her that he did it . Because of ....... Every time she thought of that , when she was close to finding an answer , in her mind , that thought would always slip away fast as it came to her mind.

She was imaging what would her life be like , if she went searching for Damon and actually told him what she should have had a long time ago . She was imaging that her life would have been more than perfect , because she would be with Damon .

Elena believed that Stefan was the one, but clearly , she was wrong . At the end of the day , Damon was the one who truly loved her , even though she couldn't justify his absence all these years .

She finally realised that she lost her soul-mate , so to speak . Because , when they were together , it was like they really were acting and thinking as one person . She would give the world , just to see him again . She regreted because she never got a chance to kiss his lips .

She imagined , like she often did , his blue eyes staring at her and with a big smile stuck on his face , just as the first time he met her . She imagined that they would go somewhere far away , far away from everyone they knew and just take a break from everything . She imagined that they would go somewhere exoticlike Egypt or Hawaii and that they would be alone , with no one to stand in their way . That would make her the happiest person in the world .

She fell asleep , surprisinglydreaming about nothing,maybe perhaps her mind was too exhausted to produce dreams , or perhaps her mind wanted to take a break from everything that happened today .

Or was it maybe because of the pair of icy-blue eyes watching her , just outside her window .
Just like a pill

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Elena was in her room , sitting on her bed . She was alone in the house - Rick , Jenna and Jeremy had gone on fishing for the weekend . Of course , everyone was worried for her and didn't want to leave without her , but she insisted on them to go . Besides , she needed some time on her own .

She was staring through the window , how the stars were bright and the night was impossibly dark . She hadn't felt this bad for a while . It was like those first months when Damon left -she missed him a lot . He was all she could think of . It was a complete torture to her , because she loved him and knew that she will never see him again . At that thought , that incredibly painful thought , tears started sliding her olive cheeks . This was much more worse comparing to the time she was under that spell .

She opened her drawer and pulled out a photo . Not just any photo , but photo of her and Damon in a bar . She remembered the time when this picture was taken - it was an after party for Caroline's birthday . And , no , they didn't know that they were 'caught' on a photo . Well , not until Caroline showed Elena her 'masterpiece' ,as she called it . The picture was crystal clear to everyone who knew to read between lines . Elena and Damon were playing pool and , it must have been something that she did , the way they were both smiling ... was magical . There was no other word for it .

They looked happy ... And the sparkle in Damon's eyes , made chills down Elena's spine . He was breathtaking on the photo . But , the worst thing was , that they looked like a real couple . Caroline already told that to Elena , but she wouldn't listen . She was in complete denial , but secretively , she knew that she was right . Only a couple would look at each other that way .

If only she wasn't too damn stubborn and hide her feelings for him . She could have had him . She wouldn't have had to keep her feelings a secret . It's not like everyone was blind . The chemistry they had was just something undeniable . You and I ... What we have ... A special connection... she remembered her own words .

Elena walked up to the mirror just to find an upset girl looking back at her . How could she have been so stupid ?If it wasn't for her stupid stubborn mind , she would have been happy . She would have had her happy ending . She would have been with Damon . The man she truly loved .

Only if it wasn't for her ... That girl looking at her from the mirror . She ruined her one and only chance at happiness . It was all her fault . She gazed straight in the girl's eyes . She needs to pay .

Elena ran to the bathroom . She quickly opened the medicine cabinet and grabbed ibuprofen from the top shelve . She opened the small bottle and shook it empty on the counter . There was more than enough . She looked at those red pills , there was no coming back after this . Doesn't matter either way , her life was already over . She couldn't be more miserable than this . If she can't have Damon in her life , then she won't live at all . She needs to put an end to this torture . She took a glass and filled it with water . And then she put all those pills in her mouth and took a big sip of water . The pills painfully slid down her throat .

Considering she didn't eat anything since breakfast , she instantly felt sick . She throw up in the toilet . The pills must have done their work , because her vision started to blur and she felt dizzy .

" Elena! " she heard someone calling her name . She started to cry , because of that familiar voice .

The voice she hasn't heard in five years . The voice that called her in her dreams . How could she ever forget his voice ? That mixture of worry and care .... not to forget love .

She fell on the bathroom floor . The walls were shaking . " Elena ! " she heard that beautiful voice again , this time closer . Then , she saw him . " Oh my god , Elena! " she heard him murmuring .

He and his raven black hair , his figure leaning towards her . The panic was clear in his voice . She finally saw his icy-blue eyes . The eyes she missed and loved so much . This meant only one thing -she was in heaven . Then she felt his hand on her waist .

She didn't have the strength to look up at him . Suddenly , everything was black .

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Elena's P.O.V.

I was on some soft surface . I didn't know what was it , but it was comfortable . I slowly opened my eyes and sighed . I found those worried icy-blue eyes looking at me . " Damon ?"

He smiled softly . " How are you feeling ?" he said and stroked my hair . His touch felt so good .

" This place is amazing . " I said ignoring his question . He looked at me , confused . " What do you mean ? " "Heaven . Or hell . Whatever place is this . " I gestured with my hands .

" What the ....?" he started but didn't finish . Then he realized what was I saying , because he was suddenly mad . Although , I don't see any reason for him to be mad .

" You are not in heaven or in hell . You are at your home , in your bed .And you're alive . Barely . " he breathed out an angry sigh . " If only I was a few seconds late ... You would have been ... " he didn't finish the sentence , scared of his words .

" And you owe me an explanation . Why in the hell's name would you do such thing ?! " he was more than angry . I was still processing his last words . I wasn't dead ? If he was only a few seconds late ? What .... ? Then , as an light bulb turned on in my mind , I realized what was he saying . I was alive . I swallowed those pills and he must have made me throw them up .

If I'm not in heaven or I'm not dead , how come he's here ? I asked him that , his angry eyes staring at me . " I came back . " tears started to fall down my cheeks . I lifted myself and hugged him .

" I missed you so much . " I wanted to say a million things , ask a million questions , but I didn't want to ruin that moment . That