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moment I smelt his neck . Felt his chests going up and down .

On my surprise , he pulled me away , after several seconds . He looked at my eyes , now confused .

" What was that for ? "

" What do you mean ? "

" Why did you do that ? "

" I missed you . " What the hell was his problem ?

" Where were you all these years ? And why did you leave ? " I wanted to know . He owed me an explanation . A big one .

" It doesn't matter . You had your Stefan to comfort you . " his face changed at the mention of his brother's name . He looked away .

" Please , don't say his name . It makes me sick . " and it really did .

He turned his head to me , surprised . " What ? "

" It's hard to explain . "

" Explain it to me anyway . "

I looked at him . How am I supposed to tell him? Well , let's just say that I was under some stupid love delusion spell for five years . I thought that I loved Stefan , but I actually loved you . And yes , it was all Stefan's fault - he compelled Bonnie to cast the spell on me . Which worked ... I dunno ... for five years ?

" I can't . "

" Ugh . Then , explain it to me why did you try to kill yourself ? " he was furious .

I took a deep sigh . " Because I love you . "
A failed compulsion:part one

Author's note : A longer chapter finally ! See Damon's reaction to Elena's words . I was kinda stuck with this chapter and if it wasn't for Snowpelt , this chapter wouldn't be this good as it is . She gave me the whole idea and with that came more ideas and like that this chapter . Thank you again !!! And , not to forget , this is a longer chapter even though it seems to be short- well it isn't - it has two parts . The next part is UP or Published . Enjoy !


Damon's P.O.V.


" What ? " I was confused-what she just said ...didn't make sense at all . She couldn't have said that what I think she said . But , no , my vampire hearing wasn't fooling me . Yet , it didn't make sense at all . She made it pretty clear when she said that it's Stefan that she loves , and not me .

That it's always going to be St. Stefan . Maybe she's just in a shock after she almost ... I couldn't bring myself to even think of that word . It was bad enough what she tried to do . And , if this is her reaction to me ... then it's better for her to forget me . And what she said about Stefan ... it was strange . How could the mention of his name make her sick? After all , he was the love of her life .

I guess , that it was just another reaction from the shock - she probably didn't mean it anyway . Just like as she didn't mean those words she said to me . I missed her so much ... and I can't stand this anymore ... I can't stand to see her being with my stupid brother . It was too much .

And , just like that I knew what I had to do . " Elena ... " I started . She was staring at me , waiting for me to continue . God , I loved those chocolate brown eyes ! I missed them . I missed her scent and her beautiful smile . And they way her hair was falling in straight lines . I missed all of her . I shook my head- I can't let my emotions stop me . I can't get carried away . I need to do this , even though I don't want to . But I have to .I took a quick glance at her neck . Good . She wasn't wearing her vervain necklace.

This should be easy . It's not like I was doing this to her for the first time . " You will forget everything that happened today - you drinking those pills , and me ever coming here . You were in your room , studying the whole day . " I ended , locking her eyes with mine .

She looked confused for a second and she blinked . I was gone out of her window before she got a chance to open her eyes again .

Elena's P.O.V.

I was ... there were more emotions that were boiling underneath my perfectly calm face . I don't know why was I still pretending to be calm , when obviously I wasn't . Yeah , there were a lot emotions that I was feeling that moment , but the most powerful one was anger .

I knew that I wasn't going mad or that I was dreaming . I knew that what happened was real . I wasn't wearing my necklace , but I was sipping vervain everyday . So , I didn't forget what was I suppose to forget . I know that I tried to kill myself and I know that he was here .

He tried to compel me , but it obviously didn't work . I saw him , after five long years , FIVE YEARS , and he tries to compel me ?! I wanted to cry and punch something at the same time .

I can't believe him ! FIVE YEARS and he doesn't even want to talk to me properly . He saved me from killing myself and then he tries to compel me and then he bails on me . That speaks everything for him . He doesn't have to say anything .

If I didn't know better , I'd thought that he doesn't care . That he stopped caring for me . That he doesn't give a damn for me . But he does . He saved me ... and the way he was looking at me... That look was telling everything I needed to know . His actions were an true enigma ... to anyone who didn't know him as much as I did .

Aside that he tried to compel me , I was furious with him because he thought that I didn't know him that well . I knew him to his core . And because of that , I knew where was he right now .

I only had a few minutes , so I rushed to my car . I started the engine and drove off as quick as possible . Thank god the traffic wasn't jammed . I was there before I knew it .

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I entered the Salvatore boarding house- the door was unlocked as usually- and I saw him . At least I thought that that was him , until I heard Stefan's voice .

" You came . "

Stefan came to me in a blink of an eye and I could tell that he was drunk . He smelt like beer and like he didn't shower in days . He smiled faintly . He caressed my cheek . Ok . This was really more than enough to what could I stand . First of all- he ruined five years of my life by compelling my best friend to cast a love delusion spell on me and second of all - he was disgusting to me in every possible way . I pulled away from his touch .

" Stefan ... I didn't came because I want to get back with you . You hurt me more than anyone in this whole world and I just can't forgive you like that . " I looked away so I don't have to look at him .

I did my best not to say things I really wanted to say to him . I knew what I came for . Who I came for.

" It's fine . I get it . " he said turning away from me . He poured himself another drink - gin , I think - and drank it like shots . " You came here because of Damon . " he said . I looked at him again , surprised by his words . He smiled . This wasn't going to be good .

" I should have known that you came for him . I may be an fool , but I'm not stupid . I'm a fool , because I thought that you could love me more than him , but like I said - I'm a fool . You could never love anyone more than him . He's your world .... whatever . " he waved with his hands and almost tripped because of that . He took the whole bottle of gin - he didn't bother to take a glass- and drank almost half of it , in just one sip .

He turned to me and said : " You said that you love only me . You lied " he pointed his finger to me , accusing . I didn't know what to say . I just stud there , glaring at the man who ruined my life .

" I say that you're just a stupid bitch . A whore , better yet . " he said , approaching me with the bottle in his hands . It was really funny , ironical how he was he acting right now . I knew that he was acting like the old Damon - the Damon who used to kill people just for fun or out of boredom , the Damon who used girls for sex and blood , the Damon who did so many awful things to me .

Stefan was always the good brother . Even when Damon left his old habits , he was still inappropriate . He was swearing too much , he was drinking too much and he was always a sex symbol . He was every parent worse nightmare - he was the guy who was dangerous and forbidden and that fact made him more appealing . He was the guy who you would date but hide it from your parents . He was a bad ass . It was just simply who he was .

Stefan , on the other hand , was quite