Love me truly - Amanda Pearson (best feel good books .txt) 📗

and looked over to where makayla and Tanner were sleeping, they weren't there. I walked out into the the hall and passed a mirror, my hair was tangled in all directions. "I look like crap," talking to myself, I tried finger combing my hair, but not working out very well I shook my head and continued to where the big bang was.

"What's with all the banging?" Tanner had a guilty look on his face and dad and James were in the same room. Shit, I forgot to tell him I'd meet him there. "Um, I look awful I know, sorry I forgot you were coming early," James smirked and my dad's face was red and furious, his eyes turned to slits and there was a hole in the wall. What the fuck? "You're grounded you're not going anywhere," James raised an eyebrow. "Damn what you do?" James crossed his arms. "She let you kiss her, and he grounded her," he look dumbfounded and looked at me then back over to my dad. "You can't be serious," he walked over to me. "I'm dead serious, get away from my daughter, kid," James huffed and leans and whispers in my ear. "Go get ready I'll wait outside," I nodded discreetly, he quickly kissed my cheek as my dad was burning holes in the back of his head. "Yes sir, I'll leave now," winking at me my face flushed with heat, Tanner was shaking his head, knowing what's gonna happen. James walked out, closing the door behind him.

Running up stairs I quickly I grabbed my brush and dragged it through my very tangled wavy hair, when all the tangles are out I quickly get dressed, into a baby pink sweater with black writing saying 'love me' on it, with black leggings underneath I go to the bathroom and brush my teeth and other morning routines then quickly put some mascara on and some light pink lip gloss. I go over to my window and get up onto the roof, James standing below with his arms out as if he thinks I'll jump. Guess he didn't see the latter. I walk a little farther over and climb down the latter with a smirk on my face. He awkwardly rubbed the back of his neck. He nodded towards the car, we quickly went in. I put my seatbelt on and he started the car. My dad came out screaming out threats, as we sped off onto the road. We looked over at each other for a second. "We are going to be in so much trouble," I shook my head laughing. He looked between me and the road. "'We'," he raised an eyebrow. "I won't be surprised if he's waiting by the door with a shotgun," he put a hand through his hair. "I usually walk up to the girls door for a goodnight hug or something, but I think I want to stay alive for our next date," I laughed. "What makes you so sure I'll go out on a second date with you, and who said this is our first date?" He smirked and put a few strands of hair behind my ear. "I said this was a date and you agreed and besides I can tell you like me, your red cheeks give you away," I quickly covered my red colored face with my hands. Dammit. I peaked out from my fingers he had a big grin on his face. I sighed as my cheeks cooled down. "Okay, where are you taking me?" I looked over waiting for an answer. "Well first since you didn't have any breakfast I thought I could take you to Starbucks," I bit my lip, I love starbucks, but it  costs a lot of money. "I don't have enough money," he continued driving. "You  don't need money, I'm paying for everything,"  his lips turned up into a smile, which made me smile. " why would you do that?"  He looked at me with a 'duh' look. "Because this is our date," I rolled my eyes leaning back in the seat. "It's not a real date, James," I sighed and kept my eyes out the window. Every guy I dated was insane, how do I know he's any different? "Why not, why can't you go out with me?" His eyebrows knitted in frustration, suddenly I remembered what Mackenzie said. Stay the hell away from James. I shuttered. I don't want to know what will happen knowing I was around him and also on a 'date' with the guy. James parked the car, and turned to me. "What ever happened your past won't happen between me and you, I won't hurt you, give me a chance, Rose, for fucks sake," tears came to my eyes but I blinked them away. I quickly made an excuse. "I-I don't know you," he smiled a little, and leaned in close, our faces inches apart, my breath hitched as his green eyes poured into my blue ones, as he whispers. "Well make this a date and get to know me," I swallowed trying to think of a reason, a long pause before I answered, his smile left his face. James tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear and begged quietly. "Please, one date?" I nodded slightly. There was no way to say no. His bright smile came back and he leaned even closer placing his lips on my forehead giving me a kiss, my face turned pink. He got out of the car and ran around to my side, with a grin never leaving his face he opened my car door and bowed a bit jokingly. "Milady," he smirked, making me giggle and I got out.

We went in and he ordered me food and payed for me, I ate in silence but he stared at me the whole time, I finished eating but he was staring at me still intensely. "Do I have something on my face?" He just shook his head. "I'm just trying to figure you out," he leaned his head on his hand watching me, it was intimidating. "So um, what did you want to tell me? He smiled and clasped his hands together. "You're clueless," I cocked my head to the side, confused. "What do you mean I'm clueless?" He chuckled but got serious. "I already told you what it was, it's that I like you," I was going to cut him off when he got out of his chair came towards me pulling me up to him, I could barely breath from how close he was standing, his arm tightly around my waist, he lifted my chin making his green eyes pour down in mine. Suddenly he was leaning closer and closer, I was looking at his pinkish lips then back into his eyes, we were about to kiss when- "James," I very quietly whimpered. Why did I whimper? It's just a kiss.. I blushed at the sound that escaped my lips, he looked at me with a smirk and let me go, and took my hand. "Hey Charlotte," she crossed her arms. "I told you to call me Charlie, everyone except you call me that why? And who's she?" She nodded toward me. He smiled genuinely. "She's my girlfriend," I, I'm - I'm his what? My face turned red. She nodded, I kinda hid behind him. "Well I have to go, I'm getting ready with my date with Carson, four years, can you believe it, we are going to the movies later," My body went stiff at his name, I was holding onto the back of James's shirt. "Hey, so are we, maybe we could go together," there's no way it can be the same person, right, I mean there's probably all kinds of Carson's around. Letting out the breath I didn't know I was holding, still a tight grip on his shirt. "Yeah a double date, it sounds fun, we'll see you two tonight," he nodded I just stood there not paying attention trying to telling myself it's okay that it won't be him. James turned around to face me, he swiped his thumb across my cheek looking confused."why are you crying, are you okay," I quickly wiped the rest of the tears off and gave him a small smile. "Yeah, I'm fine," I lied, he knew but didn't push on for answers. "Hey let's out at the mall for a few hours," he smiled at me and kissed my forehead, he held my hand as we left star bucks and drove to the mall.

~9 pm~

Leaving the mall James pulled me toward him, making me giggle, him grinning he leaned in and kissed me, I just stood there, I wasn't ready to kiss him back. His arms held tighter then kissed my cheek. "Come on we have to go meet the other two," I stopped smiling and got out of his arms and nodded. Please don't be Carson Kylan, I don't think I can handle it. I continued walking towards the car without giving James another look. We only knew each other for two days, and I'm falling for him why? Because I'm insane. Suddenly I felt James grab my arm pulling me back to him. "What's wrong, tell me," he had worry in his eyes, but I shook my head. There's no way I can tell him what happened in my past. I probably have nothing to worry about.  He sighed but let my arm go. I got in the car waiting for him to drive us to the movie theatre. Driving for about  fifteen minutes. I couldn't bring myself to look at James, I was embarrassed, and scared. Can I really go through this, what if it's him, should I try to stay? The theatre came into view as we entered the parking lot, my breathing was ragged and I knew I'll have a panic attack, I closed my eyes and tried to regulate my breathing. It's time to find out the truth. The past with carson

We got out of the car and walked into the theatre, James attempted to hold my hand but I quickly put my hands in my pockets, I was shaking and my hands were getting clammy. I could see his jaw flex but kept his mouth shut as we went to the ticket booth, I guess that girl, and the Carson guy isn't coming finally relaxed I took James hand, until I hurt the toxic sound I haven't heard for three years, a voice I never wanted to hear again. "Hey kitten," he was close and whispered in my ear, I swallowed hard but kept my mouth shut. He spun me around and slammed my back against the wall, cruciating pain filled my body. "What did I tell you about ignoring me, you little bitch," he said lowly so no one else could hear. I couldn't speak I was more than scared. I don't want to remember, i- I don't ~....

~flash back~

"I told you that you will be punished IF you don't meet my needs, now you're going to pay," he grunted out as he tied me to the bed post tight enough I couldn't feel my hands, I had two black