Story of Rayline's Life - Alyssa Geltz (reading in the dark .txt) 📗

"Bye now." She stood up and walked away. I stood up and went inside. I walked upstairs and fell onto my bed. I soon went to sleep.

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Crystal woke me up and told me it was time to go to school. I got outta bed and went to my bathroom. I turned on the shower and took off my clothes. I got into the shower and thought about everything that happened. I grabbed my towel and dried off. I went to my closet and picked out all black clothes. I changed into them and didn't bother to even put make-up on. I grabbed my bag and slowly walked downstairs. I went into the kitchen and grabbed an apple. Crystal came downstairs.
"Can you drive us to school today.." I looked at her.
"Yeah.. sure. Are you ready to go?" She already started to go out the door.
"I'm never ready to go to school..." I mumbled. I followed her out the door and got in the car. "How's Mom doing?"
"She's doing better." Crystal started the car and pulled out the driveway. The rest of the way to school was silent. It was raining again.. I don't mind thought.. I like the rain. We got to school and went inside. Everyone was staring at me.. and laughing. I looked around then looked at the floor. I got to my locker and opened it. I put my stuff in and grabbed everything I needed. I saw Kayla and waved at her.. She ignored me. I walked over to her.
"Hey, Kayla."
"What do you want?" She stared at me.
"Umm.. what's wro-" She cut me off.
"Go away. No one likes you. Chelsy was right.. why was I ever friends with you." She walked away. What the hell.. I saw Mike and Aron walk past me.
"Loser." They both said. I gasped. My best friends... they.. hate me.. and I don't even know why.. I walked to English class and sat in the back. I stared at my desk. People around me stared at me and made fun of me. I felt my phone vibrate. It was Aron..:

Hey, Loser. Noticed we turned on you?
Aron

I put my phone in away and the teacher came in. She started class and I stared at her. Everyone all looked at me every now and then. Once I heard someone call me a sappy depressed girl. I tried to ignore them. Soon the bell rang and I hurried out of the classroom. I walked to Algebra and when I got there... I froze. Chelsy and Xander were kissing. And it seemed like Xander didn't even mind. Everyone looked at me and laughed. Chelsy and Xander stopped kissing and Chelsy looked at me and laughed. She walked over to me.
"Told you he would be mine." Xander stared at me. Everyone in the classroom started calling me names.. horrible names. I went and sat at my desk then the bell rang. The teacher came in and he started class. Chelsy sat by Xander and was flirting with him. She kept giving me looks. When the teacher left the room for a minute.. everyone looked at me. They started throwing stuff at me and kept calling me horrible names. I couldn't take it. I stood up and ran out of the room not caring that they laughed at me. I felt Xander staring at me, but I didn't look back. I ran into the teacher.
"Rayline? Are you okay?" Mr.Strong asked.
"Can I please get a pass to leave.. I don't feel well."
"Sure." He wrote me a pass and gave it to me. "Get well." I nodded and walked to my locker. I put my books away and grabbed my bag. I don't care if I don't have the keys to my car.. I will walk home. I went to the office and gave them the pass. They let me leave and I walked out the front doors. I hope their all happy... It was still raining when I walked outside. I stood there for a second and stared at the sky. Raindrops fell on my face but I didn't mind.

Chapter 9- Suicide

I looked back inside the school and saw Xander walking down the hall. I started running home. I didn't want to see him.. or talk to him.. I saw enough in Algebra. I got home and I was soaked. I ran inside and went to my room. I don't want to live with this anymore.. I can't take it. I got out a paper and a pencil and started to write out my suicide note. When I finished it I went into my bathroom and started to look for pills to make me overdose and die. I found none so I decided to just go threw a painful death. I would make myself bleed to death. I went downstairs and to the kitchen. I grabbed a knife and ran outside to the backyard. I stood in the rain for a second and then started to cry.
"I'm sorry.." I whispered. I brought the knife to my arm and added pressure to it. I drug it down my wrist to my forearm. I did the same to my other arm. I looked around to see if anyone saw me and there wasn't anyone around. I took a deep breath and looked at my arms. Blood dripped off my arms onto the muddy ground. Raindrops fell onto the cuts. I moved the knife onto my left hand. I gripped the knife and it cut threw my skin. I didn't scream because that would draw attention. Blood came out from under the knife and ran down my hand. I released the knife and it fell to the ground. I picked it up but fell onto my knees. I already felt lightheaded. I checked my phone real quick to see what time it was... School would be over in just a couple minutes. My hands were shaking so I dropped my phone. I put the knife to my right leg and drug it all the way up from my ankle to my knee. I started to bleed even more. My vision started to blur every now and then. Rain ran down my face so I couldn't tell if I was even crying. I saw my phone light up and I looked at it. I picked it up with my hand shaking. It was a number I never seen before I opened the text up:

Rayline, Can we talk?
Xander

He wanted to talk... but.. it was already to late for that.. a couple minutes passed and he texted me again.

Rayline? Hello? Please answer..
Xander

And another.

If you don't reply, I'm following your sister to your house.
Xander

I didn't care... Soon I heard a car come up the driveway. Crystal.. I heard her yell that she was home. She yelled my name.
"Rayline?? Hello?? I know Mom's not here.. she's at work.. Rayline??" I heard another voice.
"Rayline?? Where are you!?" I couldn't tell who it was... I think it was Xander. My vision was really blurring now. I fell off my knees onto my belly. I brought the knife up to my neck. I thought I saw Crystal coming from the side of the house. I heard her scream.
"XANDER!!! RAYLINE!!! She's back here!" She was running over to me. I was about to apply pressure to the knife on my neck, but someone took it out of my hands. I saw Xander run up beside me.. he was saying something but I blacked out.

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I woke up in the hospital, memories coming back to me. I looked at my arms and saw them wrapped up. I heard Crystal's scream in my head. I fell back asleep.

Chapter 10- Xander

I woke up the next day and felt a hand on mine. I looked over to see who it was and it was my Mom.
"Mom.. I'm sorry.." I started to say.
"It's okay. I'm just glade Crystal and your friend was there to save you." She hugged me and I hugged her back.
"Where's Crystal?" I had to ask where she was.. I needed to know if she was alright.. and Xander..
"She's at school... but I don't know if your friend is at school. He looked really worried when I saw him." A frown appeared on my face. I started to sit up. "No no.. you need to rest. And I can't trust you out on your own."
"Mom.. Please.. I feel fine.." I looked at her.
"Fine.. I need to get to work anyways. Let me go see if I can check you out of the hospital." She got up and walked out of the room. Sigh. I looked at my left hand and it was bandaged up from my hand to my forearm. Mom came back in with the doctor. He started to make sure I was okay... He was asking me questions about how I felt. He told my Mom I was alright to leave, but if i had any thoughts about suicide I would have to go back.
"Alright, I'm taking you home then I'm going home. Don't you dare leave the house." Mom ordered. She checked me out and we went to the car. I got in the passengers seat and Mom started the car. She pulled out of the parking lot and drove home. It was silent on the way home.. We got home and I went inside. Mom left for work. I looked at my bandages and slid down the door onto the floor. I hid my face and thought about what I should do... I want to go see Xander.. all I ever thought about was him.. and he did want to talk.. I stood up and walked outside. I closed the door and started to walk. I thought about going to the park.. but.. I just started walking there. I looked up at the clouds and it was getting cloudy.. It was going to rain again. As I walked I looked at my feet and thought about everything that has happened in a matter of days. I got to the park by the time it started raining. I looked around to find nobody there. I walked over to the giant maple tree. I put my hand on the trunk and looked at the sky. I felt another presence behind me.. then a hand. I turned around and stared at his dark blue eyes. He stared back. He was the one to break the silence.
"Rayline.." He whispered. I heard sadness in his voice.
"Xander.. I'm so sorry.." I whispered back.
"It's okay.. can we talk about what happened yesterday in Algebra..?" I looked away. "Please...." He begged.
"Alright.." I looked back at him.
"Chelsy kissed me.. I was trying to pull away but she pulled me closer to her.. I couldn't get away. I would never kiss her..." He stared into my eyes and put his hand on my cheek. I put my hand on his. "The only person I would ever kiss.. is you.." He whispered.. I gasped. "I like you.. a lot.."
"I like you a lot too.." I looked at his lips. They were slightly parted.. he was leaning in. I leaned in and our lips met. His hand slipped off my cheek onto my waist. I moved my hands onto his chest and slid them around his neck. I moved one hand into his hair. He moved his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. His kept kissing my lips and I kissed him back. He put my back onto the tree and started to kiss my jawline