I Choose You by Kemi Adejumo (classic novels for teens txt) 📗

Chapter Twenty one

Jessica's Pov

I woke up very early the next day and immediately went to the maid's kitchen . I prepared  Waffles, brownies and strawberry smoothies. All of Christian's favourite food. We always do this when one of us is angry with the other.  I just hope he forgives me.  When I was done preparing the food,  all the other maids were awake and went about their duties. 

I put all the food on a cart and wheeled it to the direction of his room. When I got to the corridor where Christian's room is,  I saw Evelyn coming out . She looked dishelved  and was wearing one of Christian's hoodies. That means she slept in his room.  So he is with Mirabelle and Evelyn? What is wrong with him?  

When she was out of sight,  I wheeled the cart to his room.  The guards at the entrance knocked and informed him that his maid is here.  Soon, they let me go in.  When I entered his room,  he was on his bed and his whole focus was on what he was typing on his phone.  

"Thanks Emily,  you can place it on the table . Oh and wait a bit,  I need my laundry done " he said still not aware that I am the one in the room.  He kept smiling at whatever he was doing on his phone.  His phone suddenly started ringing. Immediately he picked the call,  I turned around  facing the table so he won't recognize me.  

"Hey Princess " He said as he stood up making his way to the closet.  Wow, Christian is really in love.  They way he keeps smiling at his phone,  the endearment he used for her and also the fact that she slept in his room.  I mean he called her Princess,  she definitely is the soon to be Princess.  Should I eavesdrop on him?

I went close to his closet and I heard him laughing at the other person on the phone . 

"Yes Evelyn,  i had a great time last night " he said.  I knew it.  She did sleep here last night. 

"Yes Babe, I promise I won't drink anymore "  Babe?? He calls her Babe?  I guess he didn't really need me. He really is happy.  What is he with Mirabelle then?  

"OK I will call you later.  Yeah bye" I heard his footsteps so I ran back to my position.  

I heard him coming out of the closet . He walked up to me making me lower my head scared that he will recognize me.  Will he be mad at me if he recognizes me?  Will he forgive me?  

"Here you go Emily " he said stretching out a basket of clothes to me.  I did not respond because my heart is not ready for his reaction. 

"Emily? " he called and I waited for five  seconds and turned around. 

"Yes your highness " I replied and collected the basket.  To say he was shocked is an understatement.  His expressions went from shocked to pained to uncertainty.  He looked at me with so much uncertainty.  I guess he is not sure if I am here as a maid or a friend.  Neither of us said anything and we just stared at each other.  Please say something Christian.  When he finally talked,  what he said broke me. 

"Please make sure the Laundry is done in two hours. Thank you,  you may leave." he said and walked back to his bed.  I know I was acting like  he didn't mean anything to me but to be treated that way hurts so bad. Should I just leave?  He kept typing on his phone smiling while I just stood there looking at him.  He didn't even glance at me once. 

"Miss Jessica,  I need my space.  Please leave my room " he said sternly.  Miss Jessica? No,  I can't take this anymore.  Immediately , I dropped the basket, ran to his bed,  jumped on it and hugged him tight.  I sniffed in his smell.  I missed him so much. 

"I am so sorry Christian,  My Superhero" I said as tears dropped from my eyes. Christian blushes whenever I call him my Superhero.  He said it makes him feel like  I trust him to protect me and be there whenever I need him.  I hope it works now and he realizes that I need him now. I don't care how much pain I feel to see him in love with someone else . As long as he is happy,  I am happy.  As long as he is by my side always. 

I don't expect him to forgive me quickly, I just need to know that we are fine. 

"Miss Jessica, don't make me call the guards on you. I won't tolerate your improper behavior so get away from me and leave right now!!" he said unaffected by my tears. 

" I am sorry.  Please forgive me.  I was stupid to think that I can stay away from you.  It is the worst decision I can ever make and I am sorry .  I just want my best friend back " I pleaded but he didn't budge. 

"Oh now you want your best friend back.  Why? Doesn't his presence choke you anymore? "

"No Christian,  your presence has never choked me.  I just said that out of... anger.  I am the happiest when I am with you.  I am sorry. " I kept on pleading  but I guess that didn't mean any to him.  He unwrapped my hands from his body  and made me stand up from his bed. He looked at me with so much pain and anger  that my heart started beating really fast. 

" Didn't you think about that when you decided to act like I didn't exist?  Did you think I was unaffected?  Do you know how hurt I was thinking about what I did to make you despise me so much.  A whole month Jess,  I was shattered ,sad and probably going insane.  I had to drink myself to sleep because I thought I had hurt the most important person in my life. I was so guilty that I hurt you even when I couldn't figure out what I did wrong !! You willingly hurt me Jess and decided to go back on your promises.  You know what? I don't care what you have to say now Miss Jessica  because your Presence is beginning to choke me" he bawled at me using my every word against me.  

I didn't know I hurt him this much.  I didn't know that trying to protect my heart from pain was going to cause him pain.  I can stand being hurt, rejected,  replaced and not being loved back but I can't stand seeing Christian this hurt.  I didn't know he would be hurt,  I thought he was unaffected.  I thought he was happy.  

"Please Christian, I am really sorry. I didn't know. " I kept begging as the tears kept pouring out of  my eyes.  

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