I Choose You by Kemi Adejumo (classic novels for teens txt) 📗

Soon,  I noticed him passing notes to a cute little girl and  she gave Jessica.  Jessica looks kind of pissed from reading the note because she just crumpled it and threw it away.  Are they not on good terms.  Is that what makes him very sad?  He excused himself and about five minutes later,  I saw Jessica walk out as well.  I am sure they went to talk.  

He was gone for a while.  He came back alone with the saddest face I have ever seen.  What is going on between them that makes him so sad? "  I wish   he tells me things ....like the way we used to be.  I miss those times but I am here to recover that love back.   I think I will go see him when we get back to the palace.  

We spent the whole day at the Orphanage.  It was really fun spending time with the kids.  Christian also did a great job faking his smile even if I can tell that he was not genuinely happy. We finally got to the palace when it was dark outside .  Christian did not go with us in our bus because he came in his car,  so he got to the palace before us.   I entered my room,  had my bath and did my night routine. We already had dinner at the Orphanage so I might not get to see Christian today except I go to his room.  I slid out of bed and headed for his room.  

I am having mixed feelings about this.  It's my first time going to his room and I don't know how he will react.  I got to his door and there were no guards.  That's unusual.  There are always guards here.  I knocked on the door but got no reply.  I kept on knocking but still nothing.  Now I am scared. What happened to him?  Is he not inside?  I decided to open the door. when I walked in, the room was dark but the ray  of light from the  moon outside his opened window is enough for me to see the figure on the bed. I immediately walked to the bed and fear gripped me as I saw a drunk Christian crying his eyes out.  I have never seen him cry... It breaks my heart.  

"Jess? "He called out when he noticed someone in the room with him.   He sounded so hurt. 

"No it's Evelyn " I corrected him but I didn't not expect what happened next. 

"What are you doing here? " he asked as his voice became so cold that it made shivers run down my spine. 

"I... I.. ca.. came to check up on you" I stammered. .

"Get out" he said harshly but I didn't move but tried to touch him "I said get out" this time he screamed at me making me jump in fear.  He did not look like himself but I cannot leave him like this.  No I have to do something.  

"It's Jess Christian.  It is me" I lied hoping that he falls for it. 

"Jess is that you" he asked as his voice became soft as if he was not angry like two seconds ago.  

"Yes it's me" I said and he pulled me into the bed with him and wrapped his arms around me.  

"You smell different "He said with a gentle frown. 

"Stop using perfumes "He said again.  

OK now I am beginning to doubt his friendship with Jessica.  Does he love her?  The thought of it hurts soo bad .  Was he wrong when he said I have a chance with him? I will not think about it and just love him no matter the outcome. Even though  he smells like alcohol,  I still love his smell.  I heard his snores and I smiled.  I am definitely going to be in trouble tomorrow  but I don't care.  I just want to be in his arms. I heard him mumbling so I put my ears closer to his mouth. 

"Please don't leave me Jess"

Christian's Pov

I woke up with the worst hangover ever.  My head feels like it's going to fall off my neck.  I had the sweetest  dream last night.  In the dream,  Jess came back to me but for some reason,  it felt so real.  I wish I can open my eyes and see her next to me. 

I opened my eyes and looked next to me.  There was a girl next to me but it is was not Jess. 

"Evelyn? "I groaned while rubbing my head from the pain I feel. 

"Here, for your head" she said stretching a glass of water and Advil to me.  I accepted it and took it in one go. 

"What are you doing here ? I didn't give you  permission to be here" I said at her

"I am.. am sorry,  you were sad yesterday so I came to check up on you. You were drunk last night and I could not leave you" she explained in fear. 

Of course my dream was real except she was the one here last night and not Jess.  More reason why I should be mad. 

"You slept here? " I asked in anger and she nodded in fear.  "You know what , ust get out " I screamed as her tears started falling.  "I said get out " I screamed louder and her crying voice got louder but she wasn't leaving.  Why exactly I'm I being so harsh to her? Why am I mad at her when she really didn't do anything but was concerned about me.  "Because you wish it was Jess and not her with you!" my inner voice screamed at me.  It true and I am just taking my pain out on her.  

I stared at her crying face and my heart fell.  I feel so ashamed of myself right now.  This is the girl I want to be with and I am treating her like this?  

After coming back to my senses , I quickly went to her and pulled her into a  hug.

"I am sorry Evelyn " I pleaded and she cried more. "I am a bad boyfriend aren't I? " I said and she nodded. 

"I am sorry " 

"At least promise me that you will not drink anymore please  " she pleaded. 

"I promise" I said and she gave me a genuine smile.  Wow she is so innocent.  Didn't I just scream at her and now she has forgiven me. 

"Now go to bed,  you still need to sleep " I nodded and pecked her on her lips.  Her faced became red and she ran out of the room.  

Immediately she was gone,  I went back to bed but I couldn't sleep.  My mind is filled with my best friend.