Ex-Wife by Mirah Selim (interesting books to read in english .txt) 📗

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"I love you, Amelia. I really do."

Hearing his confession her breathing stopped and her heart fell in her stomach in disbelief and shock.

This can't be happening. She never thought this can ever happen. How. When. Why did he start loving her when all they wanted was to start a peaceful life with each other nothing else.

For Amelia love was never an option in their married life. She just wanted to trust him and to start a new life with him. But love. She never considers it necessary in their relationship. Till now.

Pulling himself away from her he made her sit upon the bed while he took a seat in front of her. She covered herself with a blanket still looking at him for an explanation.

His big palms landed on her flush cheeks as he caressed her face pulling it closer to his.

"Don't feel guilty for something that's not your fault darling. I love you. And it's fine if you don't. I don't want any change in our relationship. I just want you to remember that my feelings will never be forced on you."

He said in a calm tone making her look up at him straight in his beautiful ocean eyes. He smiled at her before placing a soft kiss on her forehead.

"To tell you the truth I never expected to be in love with anyone after Mia but I don't even know when I started feeling things for you. And that be stronger than what I had for Mia."

Amelia's eyes started watering hearing his confession. So beautiful yet so painful. She felt the pain in his voice when he mentioned Mia. And this scared her.

Mia never loved him even after all his efforts to gain her heart. And what if she would end up in the same pit. Amelia knew that somewhere in her heart she had lost the love she had for Liam once.

She loved Liam more than anything but now she knew she loved him not loves him. But is it enough to say that she has started feeling something for Xander? No, it isn't.

Falling out of love and started loving someone at the same time is different. She indeed had stopped loving Liam but she can't just say that she loves Xander.

Wish it was so easy but it isn't. It never was and never will. At least for her. She's scared to love again. She's scared that what if again She got worst pain than before and she knew if that happened again She wouldn't be able to hold back and pretend to be strong.

Xander noticed her teary eyes and obvious guilt in her eyes. He felt so stupid. Why would he even confess when he knew that she doesn't love him.

He sighed heavily before gently wrapping his arm around her shoulder and pulling her against his bare chest. She sniffled a little feeling her tears streaming down.

"Shh love. Stop crying. I told you it's not your fault. It's fine. It's really fine that you don't love me. Don't force yourself." She shook her head before pulling away from him.

"But you deserve to be loved, Xander. You deserve better than someone whose so scared of love." Xander chuckled kissing her wet cheeks.

He gently pulled her down on the bed before wrapping the blanket on their bodies. Amelia wanted to protest at his carefree attitude but he forced her body to stay laid on the bed beside him.

"Listen my love. I can understand why you're afraid of losing someone again. And there is no need for you to feel bad that you don't feel anything for me. Love is a feeling that comes on its own. You have no control over it so it will be better you stop blaming yourself and just let me love you."

"But--"

"It's ok Amelia. All I want is your presence beside me. Nothing else. And I am more than happy that you're here with me. For eternity." He whispered kissing her forehead for the last time.

She snuggled in his chest feeling a small smile appearing on her lips. How can he say those words without asking anything in return? How can he love her without any greed? How.

Xander smiled feeling her pushing her body against his completely. He sighed in relief that his confession didn't drive her away from him. Instead, she seemed to find warmth in his embrace.

He knew somewhere in his heart he has a desire to be loved by her. But it's fine. It's fine if she can't. Her presence and care are enough for him to think that him having feelings for her was worth it.

They both slept the whole day and even in the evening when they woke up Xander didn't let her off the bed instead took her again.

He wasn't able to stop himself whenever he opens his eyes and found her already in his arms wide awake all he could think was how beautiful she will look under him.

All-day they both didn't leave the bed. They were under the blanket naked as all they could do was to ravish each other again and again.

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"Fuck why are you still so tight. Shit." Xander rasped out slamming himself in her with a fast pace while Amelia was clutching the bedsheets moaned out loudly.

His lips landed on hers making her moan out as his pace increased and within a second they both reached their climax. Xander's tired yet sweaty body fell on hers.

Amelia's back arched at the sudden sensation as she released herself. She had lost count of how many times she has released herself and how many times they both let their desires lead them.

All they had was only lunch and the rest of the day all they did is to ravish each other not leaving the bed for even a minute. It was almost dinner time and they both were exhausted at the times they had ravaged each other.

Plopping beside her Xander breathed heavily same goes for Amelia. She finally decided to take a shower. Well, it's not like she hadn't taken one. She had a shower more than three times but every time Xander and she would end up on the bed.

Xander once again dug his head in her crook making her moan out once again. They both felt their desires rising again but this time Amelia decided the opposite.

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