Transformation - Alishba Sohail, Alishba Sohail, Alishba Sohail, Alishba Sohail (10 ebook reader .TXT) 📗

TRANSFORMATION

Chaps:

“BLACK”

“GREY”

“WHITE”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’m Alishba Sohail, a mental illness survivor who tries to express pain through words through verse. I am writing my transformation from a disappointed dead soul who wanted to end her life but time actually heals. Time worked as a cure for me. My anxiety made me stronger than ever. I described my healing period by colors. I love writing about colors.. I wish to be called poet of colors..Colors can actually do wonders…

Black is my worst period of life when I wanted to die because I had the glimpse that I have already dead inside black was my support I feel comfort in dark..I made black my best friend and it showed it sincerity than Black changed into grey..

Grey is my healing stage when I started hoping again that I can survive I will get through it.. and I did..In colors we don’t Give that attenstion to Grey that it deserves but in my life Grey became my cure.

White is the time when I Got freedom from all the troubles.. at that time I found peace…peace of heart peace of mind peace of life..white is my happy partner it made me happy from core of my heart.

I love all these colors they are with me always..THANKYOU SO MUCH BLAGREITE!!

 

BLACK

Hulking chest ' dread mind

I can see colors

But dark wooed

Perceive black far and wide

Black is my poem

Ma verse

Rhyme of my dead existence

Groove, time, spark

Love, sight, day, night

Black is my new bright.

Black is my cleanse

Dingy made enthusiasm

I own black

Black owns me.

Dark soul loves

Being ignorant;

Don't grill me; don't heed me

I'm no more; dead inside.

I count my days towards end,

from this dark to another black

where I'll not have to find black.

Black is waiting for me

I'll be there soon.

Seeing dark all around is my dearest hobby

Black introduce me to my darkness

Melancholy, misery, sorrow, woe

I met them all

I start living in black and lost every other color,

Black is the only color my eyes see

I feel dead, I stray life

I stay away; stay hushed

Got ditched lost sight

I'm a lost soul departed mind

I want to go to dark

Perpetually!!

There will be me and my dismal

I'll show my black pompously

I will show my doting towards black

All and sundry

They will never occur me

they will never met my dark

Black became mine

my only one

Spouse of my nights

Notions and writes

Black took over me

No ambition no acquire

I lordly shout

I Lived Black

Black Is my Living!

 

 

On my sky

I maxim black rainbow

I discern every shade of black

No, it was not reverie

Palpable black

Seven Blacks altogether

At darkest sky

Makes a sheer sight

Black rainbow sterling love

My heart pivot to black

My wits see dark black

Viability revealed dim black

Fascinations feel bright black

Optic showed naked black

Let me say

I Love every color of it

Each and every Black of it

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When I was unescorted

When none here

felt endure bid death

Swelled eyes smashed heart

Scratched shadow lost soul

No one marked me

But black

Only black

Black was there

To fortify me

To see me

shelter me

Love me

Hold me

Hug me Kiss me

Black became my partner

I ‘ll never forget Black

Grey

 

Life at its landmark

Time has gone

Black left, black fades

Black put all its potency in me

and became Grey!!

Black is now Grey

 

 

Grey mitigates me;

black lost its recognition

turned into Grey happily!!

It’s the paramount

It’s the allay

I'm looking for me in grey

I never desired to abandon the charisma of black

I always wanted to live in it

Ever Forever!!

 

 

 

Transformation of black into grey

Showed me the other colors

I wasn’t ready to face shades

I thought

I will never be but I did..

It was so arduous

Grey is not an absolute color

It is an ignorant one, just like me

That’s why I started accepting grey

This shade is all about fade away

Grey is grueling to dwindle my darkness.

My black.

 

 

I never wished but I was alleviating

Time healed

We don’t believe but it does

Grey used to give me lectures

It shares stories of the moon

And the stars my disappointments

Despondent and wretched

Fading away!

 

 

Sky also abrade grey sometimes

it signify GREYSOME.

No more dejection for me and my GREY

I want to die for my color grey

So that all can see

How much I am in love

With this extra ordinary color

Grey console me

Grey comfort me

Grey profound me

Grey knew all my stories

Grey showed me path

Path to live

Path to life

Grey is the true color

It can acquire hearts

Give grey a chance

Chance to prove

That grey can do wonders

Like it has done to me

It changed me;It made me

I was not accepting it , as my new partner…

I loved dark

I wanted to live alone with dark

But grey is the great partner

It holds wisdom

It is soothing “A soul soothing”

The Great Grey

Grey is a sober

Dignified , sympathizer

In all the chaos of the world

Grey shows the way

Towards the peace

Towards the light

Towards all the color

Of the life.

Meaningless life

Terrible thoughts

Miserable images

Turning to a new way

Happening of life

Is so great ; Greish is a new life

Greish is my creation

I started giving new names to grey

So so fascinating ; Greish is just LOVE.

 

WHITE

 

I lost grey but found me

I found me in white

A sweet happy peaceful white

White is the basic

A base of every damn color

White makes me beautiful

White makes world amazing

White is a color of LIFE

White has an extra ordinary charm in it,

Wow what a beautiful days

I born again

I starting seeing

White is truest

It is more specific than any

I found peace

I found love

I started loving my life.

 

 

White never inspired me

Never liked light shade

But this time I loved

White took me to the blossoms of gardens

To the inspiration of living

Motivation of cherish

Like opening of doors

Like merriment air

It made me breath

Breath in white

White breathing.

 

Right from the core of my heart,

I start believing in the goodness of the white

How mesmerizing it is to feel your inner light

That white light was the triumph

For all my sufferings my pains

I wasn’t that brave

Never before all this

But now I’m stronger than ever

I can bear everything

Entering in white gave such courage.

Such passion such grit.

 

White is so mysticism

It holds all the love and calm in it

Sea of believes; sierra of tranquility

Easement and alleviations

Therapy of broken souls and cores

Composure of it assuage wounds

From the depressed existence

To the happily fulfilled

White holds majestic powers.

 

Like a snow covers the whole lot

It covered all my ruptured

Covered all futile scope in me

How much blessed I am

To have white in my life,

Now I want to live

Cheerful, contented, delighted, ecstatic

I am able to live happily

Being is so charming!!!

 

 

Much obliged for all three

For making me what I’m today

For blessing me for chosen me

I lived you all loved you all!!

I am able to watch every color

Enjoy every color of my life!!

 

 

 

 

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Imprint

Text: Alishba Sohail
Images: Alishba Sohail
Cover: Alishba Sohail
Editing: Alishba Sohail
Translation: Alishba Sohail
Layout: Alishba Sohail
Publication Date: 10-04-2020

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Dedication:
this is my journey of healing from sad dead soul towards a happy living person, Life showed me many shades and I described them with the help of Three majors!!!