Bridge Of Writing (Domination #2) - DeYtH Banger (e book reader android .txt) 📗

Why do you want me to act this particular way?”

Mr. Addiction: Because you fail again and again … you don't follow your goals.


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It really sucks it sounds like I won't go very far. Another failure just follow me up, right in my home.

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I won't give up listen to my teacher failure is not easy to be avoided here. Addiction always finds way to trick you.


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I won't lie:

I have progress:

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I have made it too few before they were plenty. I mean in week I was jerking off like 3-4 times.
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I didn't saw it as a damage, but something like mistake = That's what books of (Masturbating is Good For You) say.

Say: It happens, it's normal…


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I really didn't found at that time solution.



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But the truth is that in the end Mr. Addiction, found a way to trick me.

First , Mr.Addiction…made a dream fulfilled with prostitutes… and going all directions of making you on.

Mr. Addiction: You are weak
Mr. Addiction: Do It Come on
Mr. Addiction: Just do that

DeYtH: Noooooo

Mr. Addiction: Just that
DeYtH: Okay, but once
Mr. Addiction:



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The Story follows up to fighting to stop doing this sick things but Mr. Addiction, by using silence beats me up in his game he always knows the answers.


Mr. Addiction: Okay… now look at this video this people are having sex.

DeYtH: It's sick

Mr. Addiction: It always has been difficult to adapt change and TO DON'T CARE WHAT ALL OTHERS PEOPLE ARE THINKING.

Mr. Addiction: Two years have been you said when you grow other you won't stop masturbating you will even double and tripple the whole count.


Mr. Addiction: It have been 2 years since you removed your friends by reasons which were stupid.


DeYtH: So you are my friend?
Mr. Addiction: Yes
DeYtH: BULLSHIT, bitch leave off

Mr. Addiction: What you need is desire and image that's what makes you on.

DeYtH: You are sick, because OF


YOU I COULDN'T MEND MY FRIENDSHIPS
I COULDN'T GET BETTER LIFE
EVERYTHING  SINCE YOU BECAME PART OF MY LIFE  HAS WENT IN DIRECTION COUNTERPRODUCTIVE.


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DeYtH: Every day with you living makes damages  in my life.

DeYtH: BECAUUUSEEE OF YOU PEOPLE SEE ME AS SICK PERSON, BECAUSE YOU MY MIND IS LIKE ON DRUGS.

Mr. Addiction: LOW YOUR VOICE!
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BUT YOU LIKE IT?


Mr. Addiction: I am right!

Mr. Addiction: No Need to answer my question

DeYtH: I feel like a JUNKIE, blur vision…

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Mr. Addiction: But you like it?

DeYtH: I like it and I hate it … liking sonethng like this will cost real damage, no need for such savage decision.


Mr. Addiction: No Need to fuck with me… don't listen to this professor dick. You can do it… as much as you want.


DeYtH: No

Mr. Addiction: Why?…  because of him?

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- He won't find as far as you do it private

DeYtH: You are sick and you need medicine

Mr. Addiction: No, you are sick.. I am a part of you.

DeYtH: NoooooooOOO… THAT'S LIE

IF YOU WERE ME, THEN WHY YOU WANT TO DESTROY ME?

Mr. Addiction: That's your true self- you are an addict and I can give you the supply.


DeYtH: I don't want your suply, I am me… and I will remove


Mr. Addiction: You can't let's bet in that… mainly because you are weak… weakness can't destroy a virus.


Mr. Addiction: Even if you cut yourself… bash yourself… slap… kick yourself… I WILL BE THERE….

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SLAYING YOURSELF IS THE ONLY DECISION.


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DeYtH: I feel like slaying myself, mainly because of you… You made me to think about that… an addict can't  see the right way.


Mr. Addiction: You are weak… and I am here to destroy you mentally.

DeYtH: Why you want me to do that.

Mr. Addiction: Lookacha you… you can't keep your promises, you are not sure, you are worried, no friends, YOU DON'T HAVE NOTHING WHICH COULD IMPROVE YOUR SOCIAL STYLE.

Mr. Addiction: You see yourself as a genius, but you you ain't genius.


DeYtH: What can I do about that?

Mr. Addiction: Try random things, try something to keep you out of stress.


"Albert Einstein: in order to solve a problem, you can’t use the same thinking that got you into the problem."


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1. How did your sexually  compulsive behavior started?

- It started from my early age by playing a game on my father's laptop.
At first it was just normal looking game with a girl and man then after few rounds it was treasure… but with time it started making my mind weaker…

- Rejection is little depressive that's why if I do something with a girl ( I mean chat), it's rare + most cases I convince a friend to do it and I have fun in watching how he fails. But stIll getting rejected it's like Blip 20%
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When it get 100% '- I start jerking off
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You are kinda right, It started with my father's porn. He had on his laptop songs which were fulfilled with pornographic material - IT'S ONE REAL BIG DAMAGE

 How old are you now, and how long have you been doing the same or different sexually compulsive behaviors?

- Now I am 18 Years old, it has been since 10-11 years old kiddo. Just made a  mistake = finding this videos and it ruin all my conception of understanding normal life… IT FEELS GOOD THAT'S HOW ALL STARTED.

When you were a child, did you play doctor? Did your compulsive behavior start with the girl next door? Or the boy next door?

- Yeah, it was some kinda game in which doctor or a plumber who is going to fix some kinda a problem which is having one  woman aka girl. And then he falls … and then it comes choices, there are few scenes…

How did you learn about sex? That is, how was sex introduced to you? Did you have “the talk” (about sex) with your parents or with another authority figure

- It happen at home, they started terrorizing me with shit few years it was like a chain… each year each mouth we talk about it, somewhere in the middle or probably before that came in place this game… it really made me on..  I was with a friend… and I felt like I wanted to push the button one more… time… one more time… then I started doing a research… and one moment I got the tools… but I wasn't really sure - Until it came the book about masturbating which really fuck my mind… - SUCH UGLY AWFUL CONCEPT WHICH DESTROY PERCEPTION AND EVERYTHING ALIVE. MenDer

 Part 1
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Me: I hate the whole thing of purpose
FaS: Your question cannot be really defined in further do.
Me: Killing is what's going to safe me from becoming poor.
FaS: I am Wrong..! But by itself talking you are talking about suicide.
Me: I hear voices
FaS: That's the define line which make you crazy from not being crazy.

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Part 2


Me: Self-reichesnest is what I really need
FaS: You can't really define human needs
Me: whatever
FaS: No need to be so short, dead isn't comming to collect you.
Me: How do you see dead?
FaS: The Collector
Me: Are you a robot?
FaS: Define the whole concept of being = robot (is it a demon )
Me: It's wires not flesh.
FaS: Whatever…!
Trying to communicate with you fails all
Ends


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Part 3

Van: What you wish is a desire?
Gong: Your whole POV is wrong
Van: NOT IT'S NOT DESIRE IS WHAT OVERTAKES REASON
Gong: No Prosperity NORRR engagements

Jokes

 Note: Too Old!


Why coke is near to joke?
Why eat is near to fat?

Is it a chapter about being eaten or somebody hasn't had his lunch?

Jokes we use them to laugh, which from one perspective is very strange…


Look it:
 laughing AT words???
Laugh at features….
 It's long time since it was on the track.

(I MEAN THE WHOLE IDEA OF THIS SILLY CHAPTER)

 It's not:

- Another Pornography thing
(TYPICAL FOR MY STYLE)
- It's not sonething to boost your mood
(All my ideas have one in common a conflict is build within them and slowly ruins all the strong arguments, it's Word Battle)
- Sex, Death WON'T BE INVOLVED
(THIS STORY HAS BEEN STAYING ON MY TABLET FOR A VERY VERY LONG TIME, FIRST I HAVE LOST MY MEMORY, SECONDLY DUE TO REPEATION I AM GETTING DUMB)
- NO GAMES


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Do your own research try to find one of those movies jokes  which really really hurt people's feelings.


For example M.D. House is hyprocite
(A book how to be hyprocritical like him, I haven't found such novel from so much deep seeking…

- Yeah I have found books about him, but not books about:

How does he feel when he is hyprocite
Why does he do it?
(In the beginning he was typical usual American, what happen with him in 4 or 5 season to get the place in which he is like in season 7 and 8?)
How can we be like him, I mean such ironical?
How can we get so high self-esteem?



- So many questions which aren't still answered,


What does he have to do with the topic Jokes?

It's because I put him in a possition - the beginning of our topic = JOKES


There isn't a book full of good jokes!

There is a book full of:

- Deep Shit
- Dumb
- Boring

There isn't a book which explains how to be

- Ironic
- Getting Punches

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Jokes ARE the thing which helps us to go throw the day. That's the definITION!

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JOKES HAVE NO PURPOSE AT ALL

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SILLYNESS IS WHAT'S GOING TO BE THE CONCLUSION.

In my story race doesn't matter, what matter is that all cool well made M.D. House TV Series… I mean such series like this one… are just shows in which you watch whats on the surface, but you never get into it.

Non-Relevant The Journal 2

By DeYtH

Did the other kids talk about sex? What did they say to you? Did it frighten or arouse you?

- Yes they did, about type of porn, preferences…
They were asking me about do I watch porn open and how much times do I masturbate?
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Naah, not such thing as arouse… or getting frightened, just feeling strange.

Was there anything good about how you learned about sex?

- That both ways are good, masturbating or having sex with your Partner, but in my rough opinion it's bad shit. - The