Disappear - Amber (best motivational novels .TXT) 📗

The moving motion outside the car stops. My day dream stops as well. I turn of my ipod and look to the front seat, at my dad. I open the car door and look around. Nice glass house. I hear rushing water beyond some willows. I start to walk that direction. The grass is nice and green. The willows are beautiful. My own little forest. The trees finally end, and there is a nice grassy meadow. I see a river. I smile. There was a huge mountain/rock place I could climb. I turn and see a waterfall. The sun came down and made everything glow. That’s why I like 4pm-6pm. It makes things glow.
I turn around and walk back to the house. My parents stand there, talking. “I love it!” I yell. They turn and smile. “We could go fishing!” I yell. “And hiking!” I add. Now all I needed was my favorite band.
“I’m going to take a walk.” I say. They nod, and I walk back through the trees, and follow the river, towards the rocks. I See a cave, but there is an opening. I squint. I can make out a weird figure. Oh. I hear music. A beautiful mans voice, familiar lyrics, and a beautiful tune on the guitar. I lean on the caves opening side, watching and listening. I knew it was from panic at the disco, Time to dance. I smile, and lean closer, and a rock falls. Crap. The music stops and he looks this way. I hurry away. “Wait!” I hear. I turn and trip. Awww dammit! I see a boy-looks my age, come running out of the cave, with a guitar in hand. He turns and then spots me. I smile, blushing. “Are you ok?” He asks. I bite my lip. “Yeah.” I say, getting up.
He smiles. “I-I’m not a creeper or anything.” My voice goes sqeaky, then goes low, then normal. I am nervous, and I bet he can tell. “oh, that’s fine, I like having an admirer.” He says, tension gone. I begin to come relaxed. “Oh, well I just can’t help hearing beautiful music, I-I love live music, or from an ipod, but I-“ I stop. I was babbling. He laughs. “Well, My name is Ryan.” He says. I smile. “I’m Rose.” I say. “I will see you later?” He asks. I blush. “Sure, I think I might be spending a lot of time here…” I say and turn around. I feel his hands on my back. I turn. “Yeah?” I ask. He smiles, his face shows shock. he gulps. “See you later.” He says. I smile and walk away. I walk away only to hear,
“Baby, I love you
I never want to let you go
The more I think about,
The more I want to let you know...
That everything you do,
Is super fucking cute
And I can't stand it

I've been searching for
A girl that's just like you
Cause I know
That your heart is true…”
*Never SHout Never

I smile as I walk away.
I go to the big city. We were on the outskirts of Chicago. There were some pretty wild parties, from what I heard. I walk around with my mom. I see some guys sitting at a table outside. We were at a mall. They smile. I smile back. I turn around. I hear them. “Dibs.” I hear one. “Dude!” I hear another. I smile, fighting the urge to laugh. “Dude! Jeez, Brendon, lay off.” I hear the first one. I hear foot steps.
“Hey.” I hear the guy. I turn. “Want to go to a party?” He asks. “What time?” I ask, startling him, because I am not saying anything like, “Will you be there?” I might use that one day, though. “Tomorrow night at nine.” He says. I nod. I didn’t want to call him. “Here’s my number, because I’m new and don’t know where the hell anything is.” I say, and give him my number.
My mom walks out of the mall going to the car. She had to get her meds…jeez. “Whats your name?” I ask, backing up towards my mom. “Chase.” He says. I smile. “Call me Rose.” I say, and walk away. I can say that to boys I don’t really like. But if it were Ryan, I don’t know if I could…

I walk through my forest. I hear the guitar. I left my hair down. Every time I turn my head, its softness touches my neck, my back, and my face. I see him sitting by the river singing. I walk slowly to where he is. He turns and smiles. “You inspire me.” He says, strumming the guitar. I smile. “I do?” I ask. He nods. “Want to hear a song?” He asks. I nod. I would tell him about the party later.
“Your so real, I can touch, so beautiful, Shes just so real! Green eyes, Blue skies, those beautiful eyes! Sun flowers, good things, no more waiting…
Green eyes, Blue skies, red cheeks, musical laugh, soft touch, voice like velvet,…
Her smile helps me make it through,
So beautiful,
Bright lights, dark nights, no fights, She’s a beautiful sight,
She makes no sense, but we do, she’s got me obsessing, I can’t forget about her,
Rain falls, she laughs, days pass!
Soon to be,
Green eyes, blue skies, red cheeks,
She can’t,
But I can,
The time is off balance,
Was I wrong?
No, no more pretending,
Hope this isn’t a misunderstanding,
Gold hair flowing,
Shes dancing,
I’m fighting,
It’s time I stand,
I couldn’t stand it,
Now shes here,
Now I’m realizing and understanding,
Will she do the same?”
He says the last part, and looks at me. This moment is all intense. He sets the guitar down, and somehow, I’m right near his face. Are noses and inch apart. If I kiss him, two things could happen.
1. He doesn’t want it, and things get all awkward and I run away.
2. He wants it, but I’m a bad kisser, but he doesn’t tell me


What if He kisses me? Just kiss him, I decide. I lean in more. I feel his breathing on me. I lean in more and he pulls away. “Sorry.” I say, looking away. Angry tears threatening to come. I push myself off the ground. “You know what? I’m just going to go, I like the song.” I say, and run away. I turn to see him staring straight at the spot I was at, then looking at me. “Wait!” He says. I turn around and run.
I get home. “Rose, you have a call.” My dad says. I nod and look at the phone. I call the number on my cell phone. “Hello?” a guy voice answers. I smile. “Hello Chase.” I say. “Hello-Uhh-err…” I hear him stutter. “Rose.” I say. “Oh, hey Rose, Where’s your house, I could pick you up…” He says. So I tell him where I live and wait outside on my porch.
I see Ryan walking towards me. Crap. I see the car pull up. “Hey, whos this?” Chase asks. He was good looking…not as good as Ryan though. I smile. “Just a friend, Bye, Ryan.” I say and get in the car. Ryan stands there, astonished.
I wave as chase backs up. He pulls up to this place that has many parked cars and loud music. Chase smiles. I smile back, thinking about Ryan.

(Ryan)
I walk back to the cave I’ve been in for years. Playing music no-one hears, until she did. Now people see me. I can touch her! I haven’t had this feeling in a long time. I close my eyes as the memory plays back in my head. The big knife, prom, my girl friend running, me trying to help her. I remember how the big knife felt in my back. All those teenager movies, the boyfriend always gets killed. She lived, and had a happy ever after. I didn’t. I never got to live. I still am a virgin for Christsakes! I sigh. I kinda messed up there. Going too fast. When that dude, “Chase” saw me, I freaked. I’m a fucking ghost. And a girl can touch me, I can touch her, she can hear me, and made it so others can too. She will come again, I know she will.
She has to, or I might lose the rest of my sanity.

(Rose)
Chase’s hand is on my waist, we sway to the music. He kisses my neck. I smile. I wasn’t angry anymore. But I was hurt. So hurt. It was my fault, but he pulled away. Chase pulls at my hand. I follow. He leads me upstairs. I roll my eyes. Why the hell would I sleep with him? I don’t even know anything about him, but the things he said at the party. His dads dead, his moms a drunk, life sucks for him, and he wants me. Hmmm. I don’t know, I think that’s pretty much a stranger to me. “Chase…” I say. He pushes my gently against the wall. He kisses me. His hands on my waist. I pull away, kiss him again, and walk down stairs. “Where are you going?” He asks, following me down the steps. “I’m walking home.” I say. Chase swallows, completely sober now. “I can drive you home.” He says. I smile. “I wouldn’t want you to get a DUI are anything…” I say. He smiles. “My Uncle’s a cop.” I shrug and follow him to the car.

He pulls up at my house. I smile. “Thanks.” I say, and give him a kiss. I walk out and open my front door. I Tell my parents I am going to walk to the river.
I walk quietly as the wind gently pulls its warm fingers through my hair. I love how the moon lights up the water, making it gleam. I sit down and touch it. Not that cold. I close my eyes and breathe in the summer air. I breathe out and smile. “Take time if you need it… rewind and repeat it, When tears fall you better believe it, Every day feels like forever..” I sing, gently. The song is done awesome-ly by, New years day. “I take what I can get, but its not on my wish-list.” I add, and keep going through the verse. I stand up, and begin to singer louder, on beat. “Say what you want, I believe it, No you don’t really have to mean it.” I walk along the river, not caring if people were here listening. My short dress protests when I jump in and keep singing in the water. Even though I didn’t have music, I knew it was time for the kind of solo thing. I was choking on water anyway. I come back up, and swim. I start to sing another one of their songs,
“I'll always have a sunrise,
I'll always have a sunset,
I'll always have the ocean,
to help deal with these emotions.
and there'll always be a highway
that's running through the desert
in southern California.

but all I really want is you,
all I really want is you!”
I sing. I look down the cave. I was high…on love-or something. Maybe excitement. Right now, I am so happy, I could believe in flying pigs. I start to walk down towards it.

(Ryan)
Her lips