Just Writings, series:1 - Johnathan Adams (bts book recommendations .txt) 📗

"Pain"
I watch my wrists bleed out,
as i sit and wonder what she's doing.
What i did i'm sorry for,
don't see how she could love me anymore.
Should have been more of a man,
and kept my shit in my pants.
She's in trouble all because of me.
I know theres a promise thats been broken,
next time i see her i'll come clean and be open.
Tell her i was scared and wanted to end my life,
Scared that i would never see her again,
or in the future make her my wife.
Tell her because of that,
i put the blade to my wrists cut and sliced.
Don't care what i have to do to keep her,
she's all i got left and i dont want to lose her too.
Nothing else but her matters to me.
Just as long as i can be with her and her be happy.
-Johnathan Adams-

"untitled"
there goes the love of my life,
wrists ache to be cut and sliced.
Maybe i shouldnt have opened my big mouth,
visoin blurs and mind clouds.
Tremcles run through my body,
knuckles turn white pullin out my hair slowly.
Last words she said runing through my head,
wishing i could go back and change time.
I tell her i love her but doubt she beleives me.
Don't care what happens to me,
just happy is all i want her to be.
wether with who it will be,
she deserve way better than me.
I dont ask her to take me back,
all i ask is for her to forgive me.
-Johnathan Adams


"Letter to Dad"
Dear dad,
This will be my last letter to ever write you. I just got to tell you how i feel.You claim to be my father but you don't act like it for shit. Growing up I barely knew you. I was lucky if i even seen you once in a freakin a while. But what hurts is to know that you walked out. Damnit you knew that you could have made everything better. Instead you tore apart her heart. You know what f*** the whore you left us for! I was only a baby, what did you expect us to be able to do? That wasn't even the end though, you still could have been there for me when i needed you most.
What about all the times i was locked up and you didn't even write, or hell even answer any of my letters. I tried to reach out to you and tell you how I felt. But in return I got silence. This may be just only a waste of time, but oh well. The most recent update is that i'm engaged. She is the love of my life and so beautiful. But of course you'll never meet her. You won't even be at my wedding. What kills me the most is that I almost am to the point that I don't want anything else to do with you.


P.S. It's to late to try and be a father now, you blew your chance.Maybe you should have wore a damn rubber!


unfortunantly your son.
Johnathan Adams


"Forever"
Forever is what i promise,
a promise i'll always keep.
Forever till the day i die,
i promise to protect you sleep.
Forever i'll be yours,
yours to keep.
I give myself and everything i own,
to do with as you wish.
Here i am falling head over heals in love,
and madly in love i'll be forever.


"Who I am"
People point and talk behind my back.
Yeah bet you didn't know i knew about that did ya?
Just because I'm different doesn't mean you got to talk shit.
straight up if youyou can't except me for who i am then go f*** yourself.
You try and tell me what to do and what to beleive in,
but i've got my own beleifs.
I've got my own ways,
I've got my own life style.
So yeah it's my body and life, if you don't like it you can kiss my ass.
Everbody has their own choices to make.
So don't try to tell me how to make mine.
Just remember you are who you are,
and i am who the hell i am.
-Johnathan Adams-


"Life"
My life is dark,
my life is dim.
Alone i wait until,
a light shall shine through.
Still i wait,
wait alone.
I'm slowly dieing,
because of you i've waited,
my whole life through.
Now im dead and so are you.
-Johnathan Adams-


"Uncontrolled love"
Uncontrolled love is what keeps pulling you back and drivin you so crazy you can't stand to be seperated from each other.
Uncontrolled love is when your aching for the otherone so bad you start to akebecause you cant be there with and hold forever and never let go, the other d it will be the last time together as one and complete.
Uncontroled love is that feeling in your heart when you think about the other one
so much that you'll do anything to make the other happy even if it hurts someone else in the process.
Uncontrolled love is trully no matter what you do, say, or want Uncontrollable.
-Johnathan Adams-


"Darkness"
Death is on its way,
darkness is here to stay.
My blood hits the floor,
as i slit my wrists with morn.
Death is here.
Darkness still.
I hit my knees,
and start to drift away.
Dead i'll be.
Darkness i'll see.
Dead i'll stay.
-Johnathan Adams-


"Crushed"
You crushed my heart,
as you walked away.
What hurt the most,
is you said you'd stay.
Through dificult and easy.
you ripped out my soul,
and threw it away.
I gave you my heart,
and you crushed it.
Now because of it i'll never love again.
-Johnathan Adams-

Publication Date: 06-20-2010

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