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ever seen on human face in my entire life, she gave her passions and faiths to me and other patients. It's one of my psychodynamic therapy sessions with her, this model of psychotherapy is particularly useful for understanding the emotional reactions of patients with cancer like me, she gave me a point a view for clarifying the onset of psychiatric symptoms in response to the stresses of having a cancer diagnosis. She also taught me a perspective on the doctor-patient relationship that's useful for understanding and resolving conflicts. She taught me about the current psychoanalytic theoretical models add to an understanding of the emotional symptomatology of the cancer as well as provided a point of view for intervention.

 

She told me that the ego psychological models offered a look at defense and coping mechanisms. The object relations model is helpful in terms of understanding the threat of object loss and the relationship between patient and caregiver. The model of self psychology is pertinent to the threat to the integrity of the self and the need for an empathic approach. She's the most beautiful caregiver that I've ever met in this world, she had a big blue eyes and an unforgettable smile. She knew that I played chess, so one day when I was eating my lunch she came to me and brought me a chess board. She dared me to play the chess together, I couldn't believe that actually she's good in chess; she gave up my knights only with a single smooth move. She told me that her parents used to be chess champions, she learned lot's of things about chess from them and she gave me a ticket for an event that I've waited for, a ticket to redeem all my dreams, but this time it was not mine, it's all her because she would join the World Chess Championship 2013 and play with the man that won the World Chess Championship in 2012.

Bishop and Knight

It was three days before the match held in the University of Stavanger, the day when I could see my girlfriend played her first big match for me, I finished my psychodynamic therapy two months ago, I felt so much better because she's with me. On my 45th birthday she came to my flat and made a little surprise for me, she's invited all my friends from the hospital and her family to celebrate it with me. I didn't expect something like that would happen in my life, since my grandpa died there was nothing like happiness that I could really feel, until I won the match in 2010 but then they took it away from me. I had a talk with her parents about chess, they're so great and talented people. I learned lot's of maneuvers that I have not known before, they told me about their experiences in chess and all the stories that they've made in World Chess Championships. They're so lucky to have a daughter like her, she's my everything, she's the reason why I could survive my life from cancer although it's still laying in my head.

 

Two days after my birthday I went with her to the park, she bought a chess board so we could play the games there, she held my hands tightly when we had a walk and then she stopped by for an ice cream, I left her because she asked me to and I walked ahead to the park but before I got there there was a massive truck hit the ice cream shop and that tragedy happened right when my girlfriend stepped out from the shop's entrance door, the truck hit her so badly and it bounced her body away from the shop. She's died by the time I held her body in my arms and it's too late for me to save her.

 

May 7th 2013, I saw so many people there, it should be the greatest day in her life, she would love to be here if she could, she told me that she's practiced all the maneuvers that she would use in this match, she promised me a victory and she believed that she would be the champion. She gave me all the things that I needed in my life, a little hope of life, a happiness, she's changed my perceptions of life and death and she made me a better person. I replaced her and decided to join the match for her, I knew that it's a bit overrated because of the tumor that I had in my brain, but she taught me to pursuit a happiness in my life, I could never forget her sweet face with a nice smile on it. It's all happened unpredictably and I knew it's a part of my destiny. I had to show her and people that we could make our dreams come true even when we're not longer exist in this world.

 

The crowd was surrounding me and my opponent, he was a Japanesse guy, he seemed so smart and experienced and also younger than me. I knew it would not be easy to score a point because my doctor said that I couldn't force my brain to think harder if I didn't want to die. He started the game with an aggressive mood with black against tail-ender, he moved the pawn to find a good developing square for it, he wanted to get my pieces into the game where he could actually accomplished something either aided his attack or defense as soon as he could. I've concentrated in my pieces and developed them, I made a big exception to the principle of centralizing my pieces and concerned my king because I knew that in the opening and middle game the center could be the worst place for my king. I made the castling maneuver to safeguard my king from sudden chess tactics and even checkmate, I got my king away from the center and developed one of my rooks at the same time. My opponent tried to trick me with a Sicillian Defense where he moved his black pawn right for the jugular to fight for the center and made an attack from the center instead of simply mirroring white's movements, the defense would lead to complicated maneuvers, because normally black would go after white's pawn without an immediate attack.

 

I drove the opposing king to the edge of the board by using all three pieces of mine, I forced the king out of the "wrong" corner to the "right" corner, the position  on the right was that typically arisen after the first phase has been completed and the defender has headed to a corner of opposite color to that of the bishop. After that I made a following method to push the king to the "right" corner, first of all I forced the king to leave the corner and put my bishop in position so that the next two moves, in the mean time I made a waiting move and I forced the black king to move so white which were mine could play and took away from the king. I moved my knight in a W shape form in order to make two possible defenses, the first defense was  he could cling the black to the "safe" corner but then he would lose more quickly, the second defense was he could take the black king in the right position meanwhile I kept continuing my knight's move from the mating corner, and he confined his black king in the right corner and I said "Checkmate"!

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Publication Date: 07-08-2013

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Dedication:
My Beloved Grandpa, I could not even play the game with no ruin and I am sorry for that...