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Spirit With Which My Distaste For My Profession Often Affected Me. While
At Liverpool, I Received A Letter From My Brother John Which Filled Me
With Surprise And Vexation. After His Return From Germany He Had
Expressed His Determination To Go Into The Church; And We All Supposed
Him To Be In The Country, Zealously Engaged In The Necessary Preparatory
Studies. Infinite, Therefore, Was My Astonishment To Receive From Him A
Letter Dated From Algeciras, In Spain, Telling Me That He And Several Of
His College Companions, Sterling, Barton, Trench, And Boyd Among Others,
Had Determined To Lend The Aid Of Their Enthusiastic Sympathy To The
Cause Of Liberty In Spain. The "Cause Of Liberty In Spain" Was Then
Represented By The Rash And Ill-Fated Rising Of General Torrijos Against
The Spanish Government, That Protean Nightmare Which, In One Form Or
Another Of Bigotry And Oppression, Has Ridden That Unfortunate Country
Up To A Very Recent Time, When Civil War Has Again Interfered With
Apparently Little Prospect Of Any Better Result. My Distress At
Receiving Such Unexpected News From My Brother Was Aggravated By His
Forbidding Me To Write To Him Or Speak Of His Plans And Proceedings To
Volume 1 Chapter 16 Pg 88Any One. This Concealment, Which Would Have Been Both Difficult And
Repugnant To Me, Was Rendered Impossible By The Circumstances Under
Which His Letter Reached Me, And We All Bore Together, As Well As We
Could, This Severe Disappointment And The Cruel Anxiety Of Receiving No
Further Intelligence From John For A Considerable Time. I Was Bitterly
Grieved By This Letter, Which Clearly Indicated That The Sacred
Profession For Which My Brother Had Begun To Prepare Himself, And In
Which We Had Hoped To See Him Ere Long Honorably And Usefully Laboring,
Was As Little Likely To Be Steadily Pursued By Him As The Legal Career
Which He Had Renounced For It. Richard Trench Brought Home A Knowledge
Of The Spanish Tongue Which Has Given To His Own Some Beautiful
Translations Of Calderon's Masterpieces; And His Early Crusade For The
Enfranchisement Of Spain Has Not Militated Against The Well-Deserved
Distinction He Has Achieved In The High Calling To Which He Devoted
Himself. With My Brother, However, The Case Was Different. This Romantic
Expedition Canceled All His Purposes And Prospects Of Entering The
Church, And Alfred Tennyson's Fine Sonnet, Addressed To Him When He
First Determined To Dedicate Himself To The Service Of The Temple, Is
All That Bears Witness To That Short-Lived Consecration: It Was Poetry,
But Not Prophecy.
MANCHESTER, September 3, 1830.
MY DEAREST H----,
I Received You Letter And The Pretty Balbriggan Stockings, For
Which I Thank You Very Much, Quite Safely. I Have Not Been Able To
Put Pen To Paper Till Now, And Even Now Do Not Know Whether I Can
Do More Than Just Tell You That We Have Heard Nothing Further
Whatever From My Brother. In His Letter To Me He Said That He Would
Write Home Whenever He Could Do So Safely, But That No Letter Of
Ours Would Reach Him; And, Indeed, I Do Not Now Know Where He May
Be. From The First Moment Of Hearing This Intelligence, Which Has
Amazed Us All So Much, I Have Felt Less Miserable Than I Could Have
Thought Possible Under The Circumstances; My Mind, I Think, Has
Hardly Taken Hold Of The Truth Of What Has Come So Unexpectedly
Upon Me. The Very Impossibility Of Relieving One's Suspense, I
Suppose, Compels One Not To Give Way To Its Worst Suggestions,
Which May, After All, Be Unfounded. I Cannot Communicate With Him,
And Must Wait Patiently Till He Can Write Again; He Is In God's
Hand, And I Hope And Pray That He May Be Guided And Protected. My
Great Anxiety Is To Keep All Knowledge Of His Having Even Gone
Abroad, If Possible, From My Mother. She Is Not In A State To Bear
Such A Shock, And I Fear That The Impossibility Of Ascertaining
Anything About Him At Present, Which Helps _Me_ To Remain Tolerably
Collected, Would Almost Drive Her Distracted.
The News Of The Revolt In The Netherlands, Together With The Fact
That One Of Our Dear Ones Is Away From Us In Scenes Of Peril And
Disturbance, Has, I Think, Shaken My Father's Purpose Of Sending
Henry To Heidelberg. It Is A Bad Thing To Leave A Boy Of Eighteen
So Far From Home Control And Influences; And He Is Of A Sweet,
Affectionate, Gentle Disposition, That Makes Him Liable To Be
Easily Led And Persuaded By The Examples And Counsels Of Others.
Moreover, He Is At The Age When Boys Are Always In Some Love-Scrape
Volume 1 Chapter 16 Pg 89Or Other, And If He Is Left Alone At Heidelberg, In His Own
Unassisted Weakness, At Such A Distance From Us All, I Should Not
Be Surprised To Hear That He Had Constituted Himself The Lord And
Master Of Some Blue-Eyed _Fräulein_ With Whom He Could Not Exchange
A Dozen Words In Her Own Vernacular, And Had Become A
_Dis_-Respectable _Pater Familias_ At Nineteen. In The Midst Of All
The Worry And Anxiety Which These Considerations Occasion, We Are
Living Here A Most Unsettled, Flurried Life Of Divided Work And
Pleasure. We Have Gone Out To Heaton Every Morning After Rehearsal,
And Come In With The W----S In The Evening, To Act. I Think
To-Night We Shall Sleep There After The Play, And Come In With The
W----S After Dinner To-Morrow. They Had Expected Us To Spend Some
Days With Them, And Perhaps, After Our Birmingham Engagement, We
May Be Able To Do So. Heaton Is A Charming Specimen Of A Fine
Country-House, And Lady W---- A Charming Specimen Of A Fine Lady;
She Is Handsome, Stately, And Gentle. I Like Lord W----; He Is
Clever, Or Rather Accomplished, And Refined. They Are Both Of Them
Very Kind To Me, And Most Pressing In Their Entreaties That We
Should Return And Stay As Long As We Can With Them. To-Morrow Is My
Last Night Here; On Monday We Act At Birmingham, And My Father
Thinks We Shall Be Able To Avail Ourselves Of The Invitation Of Our
Liverpool Friends, And Witness The Opening Of The Railroad. This
Would Be A Memorable Pleasure, The Opportunity Of Which Should
Certainly Not Be Neglected. I Have Been Gratified And Interested
This Morning And Yesterday By Going Over One Of The Largest
Manufactories Of This Place, Where I Have Seen A Number Of
Astonishing Processes, From The Fusing Of Iron In Its Roughest
State To The Construction Of The Most Complicated Machinery And The
Work That It Performs. I Have Been Examining And Watching And
Admiring Power-Looms, And Spinning-Jennies, And Every Species Of
Work Accomplished By Machinery. But What Pleased Me Most Of All Was
The Process Of Casting Iron. Did You Know That The Solid Masses Of
Iron-Work Which We See In Powerful Engines Were Many Of Them Cast
In Moulds Of Sand?--Inconstant, Shifting, Restless Sand! The
Strongest Iron Of All, Though, Gets Its Strength Beaten Into It.
BIRMINGHAM, September 7, 1830.
You See, My Dearest H----, How My Conversations Are Liable To Be
Cut Short In The Midst; Just At The Point Where I Broke Off, Lord
And Lady W---- Came To Fetch Us To Heaton, And Until This Moment,
When I Am Quietly Seated In Birmingham, I Have Not Been Able To
Resume The Thread Of My Discourse. I Once Was Told Of A Man Who Had
Been Weather-Bound At Some Port, Whence He Was Starting For The
West Indies; He Was Standing On The Wharf, Telling A Long Story To
A Friend, When A Fair Wind Sprang Up And He Had To Hurry On Board.
Two Years After, Returning Thence, The First Person He Met On
Landing Was His Friend, Whom He Accosted With, "Oh, Well, And So,
As I Was Telling You," Etc. But I Cannot Do That, For My Mind Has
Dwelt On New Objects Of Interest Since I Began This Letter, And My
Visit To Heaton Has Swept Sand And Iron And Engines All Back Into
The Great Warehouse At Manchester For A Time, Whence I May Draw
Them At Some Future Day For Your Edification.
Volume 1 Chapter 16 Pg 90
Lady W---- Possesses, To A Great Degree, Beauty, That "Tangible
Good" Which You Admire So Much; She Has A Bright, Serene
Countenance, And Very Sweet And Noble Eyes And Forehead. Her Manner
Is Peculiarly Winning And Simple, And To Me It Was Cordially Kind,
And Even Affectionate.
During The Two Days Which Were All We Could Spare For Heaton, I
Walked And Rode And Sang And Talked, And Was So Well Amused And
Pleased That I Hope, After Our Week's Work Is Over Here, We May
Return There For A Short-Time. I Must Tell You Of A Curious Little
Bit Of _Ancientry_ Which I Saw At Heaton, Which Greatly Delighted
Me--A "Rush-Bearing." At A Certain Period Of The Year, Generally
The Beginning Of Autumn, It Was Formerly The Wont In Some Parts Of
Lancashire To Go Round With Sundry Rustic Mummeries To All The
Churches And Strew Them With Rushes. The Religious Intention Of The
Custom Has Passed Away, But A Pretty Rural Procession, Which I
Witnessed, Still Keeps Up The Memory Of It Hereabouts. I Was
Sitting At My Window, Looking Out Over The Lawn, Which Slopes
Charmingly On Every Side Down To The House, When The Still Summer
Air Was Suddenly Filled With The Sound Of Distant Shouts And Music,
And Presently The Quaint Pageant Drew In Sight. First Came An
Immense Wagon Piled With Rushes In A Stack-Like Form, On The Top Of
Which Sat Two Men Holding Two Huge Nosegays. This Was Drawn By A
Team Of Lord W----'S Finest Farm-Horses, All Covered With Scarlet
Cloths, And Decked With Ribbons And Bells And Flowers. After This
Came Twelve Country Lads
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