Kaitlynn - jade143 N/Y (ap literature book list .txt) 📗

home and tells me one thing and your dead im serious." he was you could tell by his voice.

"you got it man."

we were all silent all the way home.when we got home i went up stairs stefan went in the kitchen. i could hear him telling our mother about us. i got the chills just thinking about us. i need to stand in the mirror again. i walked in my room got my pjs out of the drawer. i took a shower got all the make-up off. The hair was normal and falt. damp. i looked in the mirror.

"i will go with his game. but will do my best to stay strong. he has no power over me. he has no power over me." i repeated that over and over. i felt a little better tell i opened the door. he was laying back on my bed. shirtless and black and white palided pajama bottems. i walked over to the computer got on facebook. there were comments about the party. kali was mad she will be over it tomarrow. i looked over at my ex boyfriend. chad. he was dating my cousin now he's trying to get back with me he's been texting me non-stop. speaking of. my phone was vibrating and it was on my nightstand table. next to stefan. he reached for it.

"who is chad?"

"chad lingard?"

"oh."

i walked to the bathroom got a tylonal from the med cabnit. drunk a glass of water. then went back to the room i didnt even care that he was there. i got under my purple comforter and looked at him. he looked down at me.

"what?"

"why are you doing this?"

"doing what?"

"making my life hell."

"trust me you havent seen hell yet."

"am i?"

"depends."

"on?"

"depends."

"your not going to tell me are you?"

"no." he kissed my lips. i jerked away so fast it hurt my head.

"what?"

"what was that?"

"me kissing you."

"well dont."

"well your my girlfriend."

"no im not." i was starting to get really small in here. even though i had a huge room. he was out of the bed. in front of me. He had my face in his hands. he crushed his lips to mine. i fought. one hand was riding up the back of my shirt the other was keeping my face to his. soon after my shirt was on the floor.

"you know it will go by less painful and forceful if you just participate."


then he raped me. then he finily left i heard him go down the stairs. i gatherd my clothes from the floor. i was silently crying. i ran a bath and sat in it for what seemed like hours. i scrubbed and scrubbed untill my skin was bright red. i still felt dirty. is there a way to take it all way? the pain? just to be a happy girl again. look at me! this is two nights in a row! i was a beautiful virgan, a smart cheerleader/track star. i was great untill he came. why did gab have to become friends with him?! non of this would have happend if they werent friends! i was so mad! i took a razer and cut the my wrist. almost like my poem yesterday cut,bleed and better. i put my wrist in the water. it felt like all my mistakes and sins washed out into the water. i got out, cleaned the cut up. pulled on some new clothes some girls boxers and a tank top. i climbed into bed and fell asleep.......

i shot up in bed. no stefan my clothes are there. just a bad dream. i looked at the clock 6:58. i walked down stairs. into the kitchen opened the refregerater. i hear a cling. i turn around to see gable and stefan at the table. i ignore them.

"what the heck happen to your shoulder and legs?" gable asks.

"what are you talking about?"

"you have burises."

"oh. i dont know do you think i keep track?"

"ew to much infomation."

i laughed. it felt good to laugh. i walked up stairs. i took a deep breath, got in the shower. then i got out blow dried my hair, teased it made a good puff not to puffy. made cat eyes a bright pink hello kitty shirt. then a pare of black skinny jeans. some ancle socks my chucks. then i walked down stairs.

"where are you going?"

"who are you may daddy?"

"no but im your boyfriend."

"so i still dont got to tell you jack."

I walked out of the house and jumped in my red ferrari. sexy its my baby! i love my car. i turned my music up im meeting my friends they'll see my new car! i drove i played with my lip ring. then i was at amy's. i walked in.

"ello?"

"katlynn??"

"yup, who else would come right in?"

"were in the front room."

she lead me to the front room. i saw shawn.

shawn:



mason:



chris:



amy:



katlynn:



stefan:



gable:



chris was on the couch. shawn and a guy i do not know were playing rockband. the guy i dont know had black shaggy hair, man every guy i talk to has shaggy hair. the new guy won i sat on the couch shawn started playing with chris.

"oh katlynn this is mason my soon to be step brother."

"oh. your moms going to marry him?"

"oh."

"yeah. mason this is katlynn my best friend in the world."

"hey."

"sup."

he had the most beautiful blue eyes ever seen. his black hair was tosed to the left side. he was so fucking sexy. well all my friends are but he had something about him. why did i say sup? im so stupid.

"katlynn do you want to sing?"

"sure why not."

"are you good?" ask mason.

"oh please good doesnt even cover it she's amazing."
answers amy.

"okay stop bragging on me and start."

"okay how about... im gone im going?"

"okay, im singing at the theater at 3:00 so this is my only one."

"okay im going."

"me to." they all said me too. even mason that makes me nerves.

"okay start."

we played. i sang and got 98% i beat amy and shawn.... did i tell they're a couple? oh and your probably thinking wheres kali? were different. shes my normal friend these are my pimp scene friends.

"lets go."

we got out side and shawn fell in love with my car. mason ador's it chris told me hes going to steal it. amy says that its our baby that she helped. they all made me laugh. amy rode with me. we pulled in to the parking lot. my mom, dad, gable and stefan were all outside.

"what are you guys doing here? how did you even know?"

"flyers. it was on the front of my car this morning." says gable.

"well thanks." i said sacacticly. my parnents dont like my friends. they say that their the reason i got the bottem of my hair dyed black, their the reason the left side of my mouth is peirsed. they blame them for every thing.

"katlynn time to get dressed."

"marcus can my friends come?"

"who are friends?"

"only these four." i pointed to mason, amy, shawn and chris.

"yes as long as they leave the other singers alone."

"got it."

we left my family standing there. they can seat themselfs. i they put me in a black and blue dress:


im in love with it i slid on a pair of black heals. it looked beautiful. my hair was still puffed. im leaving it that way to.

"katlynn your up."

"okay."

everyone alrighty went and sat down i looked out be hind the curtain. my friends and family were in the front row. dear god! mason was sitting right beside stefan. can i ever get a break? then i hear my song starting. parently not. i walked out and then there was a huge spotlight on me.

"sweet love, sweet love traped in your love. I'v opened up unsure i can trust. my heart and i were buried in dust, free me free us. your all i need when im holding you tight if you walk away i will suffer tonight. i found a man i can trust and boy do i belive in us, i am terrified to love for the first time. can you see that im bound in chains, i finally found my way, im bound to you im bound to you. so much so young i'v faced on my own, walls i built became my home. im strong and sure theres a fire in us sweet love, so pure. i caught my breath with just one beating heart and i brace myself dont tear us apart. i found a man i can trust and boy do i believe in us, i am terrified to love for the first time can you see that im bound in chains, i finally found my way im bound to you im bound to you. suddenly the moments here, i embrace my fears all that i'v been carrying all these years. do i risk it all come this far to fall, fall___________!! oh, i trust and boy do believe us, i am terrified to love for the first time! can you see that im bound in chains and finally found my way im bound to you. i am oh i am bound to you______________."

i sang my hardest and i was so out of breath from the fall part. people were actually standing. i need water. i smiled and bowed and went behind the curtain. i got lots of that was wonderfuls and your so talented and your voice is like a angels. then when i got outside.

"that was fucking amazing!!!" yells amy. my dad clears his throught. "sorry."

"dont say sorry to any one. i that took every fucking breath i had, like some one knocked the fucking wind out me." we all cracked up laughing but my parents and stefan.

"you have a very very beautiful voice your very talented."

"thank you mason."

"your welcome."

we drove back to amys. i told my mom i was staying there. stefan was mad. how gives a damn?

shawn and amy went to bed. chris was sleep on the floor. so that just left me and mason. why was i always stuck like this? we were watching the new nightmare on elm street. were at the part were she falls asleep in the tub and his hand comes out of the water. i dont know how but some how i pretty much ended up masons lap. that movie scared the shit of me. then i let him get up and he put a movie called hatchet in. i was actually in his lap this time buring my face in his chest. he would laugh at me every now and then.

"why do you keep laughing at me?"

"because your so adorable."