My Love Taken Over - Carly Jensen (well read books TXT) 📗

deep breathe sometimes it worked but most of the time I wanted to punch me in the face! It was just one of those things that we hard for me to hold back! Especially from my best friend… and it was really hard this time because it was the feelings I had for her. What was I going to do? At first I had no clue, but then I remembered that I could just write down what I was feeling for her and not have to worry about exploding or telling her.

Sometimes I feared that she would find out on her own about the way I feel for her… I would always wonder what would happen if she did. The thought of it just bottled my mind. What would I do if she found out? I had no clue. I just wished and wished that the worry would go away. I wanted to tell her, trust me I did… but I wanted to wait until she was A. single and B. it was the right time. I had a feeling it would be a long wait. I mean only because she… she’s a beautiful, down to earth, caring, loving girl that ANYONE would be stupid to treat her wrong, or leave her.

I asked myself everyday how someone can be so perfect. I never got an answer… that’s okay though I didn’t really want one; I wanted to find out on my own.

I still wondered how she and only she did this to me. Wow I thought I was going insane for this girl. This one girl. And only she made me this way! Was it true love? I thought so. Wow how much I wanted her to be mine. And I just hoped someday she would be<3.

We kept getting closer and closer as the end of the year kept creeping closer and closer. Her and her GF broke up… and I felt horrible but at the same time excited. More horrible then excited though. I hated seeing her sad. It felt like I was getting stabbed over and over when she was sad or crying. Heck I still get that way when she’s sad or crying. I didn’t know what I could do to help so I just told her I was sorry because I truly was and I worked up my nerves and gave her a hug. Wow when I gave her that hug I started to sweat and get butterflies and just jumping inside. Man I was happy. But like I said the pain of her to the happiness and washed it away. Because when some one I love this much hurts I hurt too. It was almost like a spell. But I knew it wasn’t I mean really a spell? No.


6 - Healing with friendship...

It was getting closer and closer to the end of the year and she was getting better and better. After a few weeks of the break up she was perfectly fine, happy actually. I was surprised myself at how fast she had healed. But then I gathered the real info. She told me that the old relationship with her now to be ex GF wasn’t a very good one at all. She said that the relationship was mostly fighting and over stupid little things too. I felt so bad for her at that point… because I had been in that kind of a relationship before and it was a hard one too.

Now I realized yes she’s going to be okay and yes she’s going to move on and find someone better. But then again I knew after a relationship like that……… it will take time to heal. But with her… it was different. She was mostly pissed off at her instead of sad. I was glad to know she wasn’t sad, and I was glad to know that she would be able to move on.

Okay so I admitted to myself by this point that there was absolutely no doubt in my mind that I was in love with her. So I decided to act on how I felt.

Now I don’t exactly remember how I told her I liked her more then a friend, and yes even though that was like the most important part in my life I don’t remember it I know sad right? Well just saying now the reason I don’t remember is probably because of how scared and nervous I was. Its not because I don’t want to remember it because believe me If I could remember It I would love too. But sense I cant I think I’m just going to tell you how things turned out between her and me……………

7 - Happy ending after all

I some how found the courage to tell her how I felt and let me tell you it wasn’t easy. But somehow I found the courage to…… I was surprised at what she told me after she knew how I felt about her…

It turns out she liked me that way too, and well long story short we started going out. But then like most of my relationships it went off and on and off and on you know like a roller costar. But you know what? It had a completely different ending.

Me and her ended up being together. Actually I’m talking about right now. She and I are together… and I’m not letting her go. She makes me soooooooo happy and I try to make her happy and give her the whole world, so far the world thing isn’t really working (I’m tight on money)…… But I think I’m doing a good job on making her happy…… And you know what I couldn’t be happier.

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Publication Date: 04-12-2012

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