PAIN!!!!! - DANEA (online e reader .TXT) 📗

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Carla: Look there is another way out besdies giving up your life
Me: And what excatly is that
DJ: We don't know but we do know is killing yourslef is nuts
me: DJ you don't take anything seroius don't you
Carla: Look were going to help you through this stay strong
Me; Why do yawl care anyway
DJ: Becuas your our friend and we love you
Me; You know for the path I'm going it really does sound good to hear someone loves me
Carla: And if you kill yourself I don't know what I will do
Me; Look don't worry about me ok, look I gotta go see ya
DJ: Stay strong
Chapter Five

I walked back to the house. My mom and Tyler were hugging and kissing. I thought what a Bipolar relationship.
MOM: Baby were have you been
Me: Not here
Tyler: Look don't get smart with your mom
Me: And what is it to you
MOM: Look I just wanna know were you are
MY mind kept going back about what Tyler had done to me.
Me: Mom if you wanna know so much I think you should know that your so called boyfriend is screwing me more than he is screwing you.
My mom got up and samcked me. I was going to hit her back. but I just ran in the bathroom and looked in the medicine cabinet and got some pills. I started to take a whole bottle of them without using any water. Then a knock came at the door. I kept taking them. I could hear my mom screaming and telling me to oepn the door but I just kept taking them. Then Tyler bust through the door and my mom came running to me. I could hear yelling. But my eyes began to close and my body got weaker and weaker. I saw something and myself go ahead. Then I went into a deep sleep.

Carla

I kept crying and crying. I didn't know what to say. I couldn't believe my ears. When I fount out that keasha was dead I was just so sad and hurt. I was really hurt because the same day she died was the same day me and DJ told her not to and stay strong. But she chose something dumb instead. But i know she is in a better place than here. I wish I could just see her one more time and feel her laughter and her making me laugh by the silly faces she made. But now that has all gone to an end. her funeral will be held tomorrow at 10:00.I just couldn't still believe that I was burying my friend tomorrow like how could this be and DJ is really taken it hard he really liked her and more than a friend. He told me he wished he could have done something and told her sooner about how he felt about her. Today I was going to her house to get some things from her so I could still remebr her. I got my clothes on and brushed my teeth and washed my face. Then I was ready to go. I walked to her house and knocked on the door. Her mom answered it.
Me: Hi Miss. Nancy
MOM: Hi
Me: So umm I herd about keasha and I'm really sorry she was one of my best friends to
MOM: Yeah I know my baby girl was amazing
Me: Look I don't mean no disrespect but she did this to herself because of you
MOM: Now look here my baby girl did that to herself I had nothing to do with her
Me: Look you are to dumb to relize that all those men you brought in your home did horrible things to my friend and she thought the best way out wasm suicide and thats excatly what she did now who is talking now.
MOM: Look you can get off my porch
Me: Look I'm just here to get some things from her
MOM: Look not right now
Me: Look if your where a real mom you would have believed in her and relized that she was in so much pain, and now because of you I have no friend and she killed herself so is that what you wanted because you got your gift.
Tears ran out my eyes.
MOM: Look come in and get what you need thing you take your smart self out of my house.
I walked in and walked to her room. Then I looked through her stuff. I saw this diary and took it. Then I walked to her mom.
Me: Have you seen this
MOM: No I haven't
Me: Well I'm going to take it ok
MOM: Go ahead get out
I walked out and walked to my house and started to read the diary.

Keasha's Diary Of Secrets

Dear Mom,
Today something terrible happened to me and I didn't tell you because you didn't listen. I wish I could just live a normal 10 year older life.
I stoped reading. This diary was made when she was 10 and she didn't tell me about this stuff. I was shocked but I kept reading as tears ran down the page.


You never listened to me. You always listend to those men you let Mike hurt me and he took advantage of me. We were sitting on the couch and he asked me if I wanted to be a woman. I didn't know what that had meant. So I said yes and he touched me and it went on from there. I felt not good about what had done and I asked my mom if it was ok and she said I was lying. But I didn't know what she had emant. Until it started to get out of control and I got tired of it and the hitting and abusing me started.

I had to stop, I couldn't read no more. I felt sad and dumb that I didn't relize all alone that my friend was getting raped my men when she was only 10. I liad on my bed and cried myself to sleep.

DJ

I walked to the door and saw Carla crying. I opened it.
Me: Carla whats wrong
Carla: Look I went back to keasha's house yesterday and I grabbed a few things so I could remeber her and I found this.
She held the diary up.
Me: Whats this
Carla: Its her diary and she tells everything I couldn't read anymore because it was to sad and I cried myself to sleep all night long.
Me: Well what did she write
Carla: Look I don't want to talk about it but i came here so you could read it yourself.
She gave me the book.
Carla: Look I gotta run see ya
I closed the door behind her, and i began to read.

Dear MOm,
Today I was sitting in the living room and you told me that you loved me and I couldn't belive my ears. I thought that you really had meant it but I saw that you were just lying. You used to get me all the time with that smile and the glow in your big eyes. But deep down in that heart of yours you are nothing but a dictator and I hate you. I've believed in you to long and now im done and I'm done being your bitch.


I stoped reading and closed the book. It was to much for me to handel. I laid back in my bed and thought about how if keasha would have lived me and her could've been something.

MOM

I was waiting in the care for the police officer to dirrect the traffic for my baby's funeral. I wish I could have stopped her that day. I walked in the church and at sat