PAIN!!!!! - DANEA (online e reader .TXT) 📗

I was so mad. I tell DJ That I love him and all he has to say is I don't feel that way about you. Well he didn't say that but he might as well. I was driving home when I saw his car pull up. I got out not looking at him.
DJ: Look Carla I know you don't want to talk to me but I need to talk to you.
Me: What is there to talk about?
DJ: Look when you told me you loved me, sure I was shocked but you never told me and I wasn't expecting that and at least not from you.
Me: Look you proved that you don't love me so you can just leave
DJ: No! what I'm trying to say is that I need you and you need me
Carla: But you never liked me or loved me like I love you
DJ: Well I'm asking for you to give me well us a chance
I looked shocked.
Me: DJ I don't understand
DJ: Look I wanna be with you so we both can recover from Keasha's death, I know its going to be hard but with me and you we can get through this together.
Me: I love you DJ
DJ: I love you to
He kissed me and we walked in my house.

I was cooking some chicken noodle soup, Keasha's favorite. I smiled as I thought of her name. I thought to myslef, I don't think I can forgive myself. I even know I won't but I gotta get through this. I just wished I could just rewind this all and act like the mother she wanted and needed. But No you only have one life to live and there is no way turning back like there is no rewind button. We are not cats were they have 6 lives to live and we are not vampires who can live forever. We are human beings who soon one day will die and never return bt return in a new life a better one. I just wished I listened to her when she first told me about my first boyfriend. I knew she was telling the truth I just didn't want to believe her and when I start she kills herself. But the thing is, is why did I care now I should have cared along time ago. But everyone makes mistakes and they have to learn from them. But why did my mistake cost my daughters life. I sipped the chicken noodle soup. Then a knock came at the door. It was DJ and Carla.
Me: Hey can I help yawl
Carla: Miss Nancy I'm sorry for what I said about you and now I'm here to make it up
DJ: Same here
Me: No its fine
Carla: Are you sure your fine?
Me: Yes I'm fine
DJ: Then why are you eating chicken noodle soup?
Me: Beacuse I can
DJ: No its because it was Keasha's favorite
I burst in tears. DJ and Carla came over and hugged me.
Carla: Miss Nancy were here for you and we will be here to help you recover from Keasha's death
Me: Thankyou so much she would want it
DJ: Yeah your baby gurl had a good heart
Me: I know and yawl do to
That day I learned a lesson that when you make a mistake there is always someone to be there to help you learn from it and pick yourself back up.

Publication Date: 05-01-2012

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I DEDICATE THIS BOOK TO MY FRIENDS.