When her pain is consuming - Chalen D. (fun books to read for adults txt) 📗

smiled and hugged Me. We finished off our Coco.

"Do you want me to go with you?" I asked as we stood on My porch.

"You'd do that for me?" Her face lit up.

"Sure." I smiled.

"If you come they might not fight."

"Okay." I nodded.

She took My hand and we walked down the street to Her house.

We walked into the kitchen to a man looking through the cupboard, pots and pans where everywhere.

"Dad? What are you doing?"

"I wanted to Make I'm sorry cookies." He stopped when He saw Me.

"This is Scarlett. She's a really good friend. She helped me through a lot."

"Hi Scareltt." He smiled. "Uh, You wouldn't mind helping me make your I'm sorry cookies would you?"

She laughed, "Want to Help?"

"Without a doubt." I laughed.

We were standing at the island eating the rest of the cookie dough, When Her Mom got Home.

"What- Oh Scarelt."

"Hi Mrs. Jason."

"Hi Dear." She set her keys on the counter and left the room.

Both Beth and I jumped when the upstairs door was slammed closed.

"See?" She muttered softly, as Her Dad went to get the cookies.

We had a couple of cookies and Her Dad went upstairs. The fighting began and a glass broke. We both cringed.

"You can go now." Beth said, setting the cookie dough blow in the sink.

"Not without you. I'm not going anywhere." I planted my feet and crossed my arms.

"Okay. Let me just get some clothes and-"

"I don't think that's a good idea. I'm sure I have something that will fit you."

She nodded and we went back to my house. She sat on the trunk at the end of my bed as I set a box on the floor and ripped the tape off.

"Have at it."

She opened the flaps.

"You still have your clothes boxed up?" She asked holding up a shirt.

I shook My head. "Those are Kenna's."

"Scarlet no." She said, sadly and dropped the shirt. "I can't wear your sister's clothes."

"She doesn't care. She's dead." She stood up and came to Me.

"You okay?"

"Yeah." I shook my head No, and She pulled Me into a hug.

"It'll get better sooner or later. At least that’s what we can only hope for."

I backed up and pointed at the box, "Go for it."

I walked to the bathroom and turned on the sink. I took my arm out of my hoodie sleeve, and pulled up my sleeve. I took the lid off my toilet and grabbed Ayden's razor that was tapped there. I dragged it across and grabbed the blood rag from under the sink. I dabbed at the blood. At least it wasn't as deep as it used to be. I pulled my sleeve down, shoved my arm into my hoddie, put the blade and rag back, and splashed water on my face.

"I think I'll wear this." She held up a shirt.

"Good choice. Kenna wore the shit out of it."

"I'll just, " She dropped the shirt in the box, and pawed through it.

I sighed and gave her the shirt.

"Just wear it Beth."

"You sure?" She asked face scrunched up, as she held the shirt to her chest.

"I'm sure." I nodded.

"Okay," She gave me a soft smile.

I smiled back, and walked to the window, grabbing My necklaces.

"Thanks for letting me wear these. I'll give them back."

"No problem." I turned to her. "What do you want for dinner? We could order out if you want."

"Chinese sounds good."

"Oooh, it does." I said, picking up the phone as She laughed.

We sat on the couch with 'Safe Haven’ on.

"I don't get it. A flying fish?"

"She's a kid." I laughed.

She shrugged and ate a bite of her food. After we watched the movie and we ate we headed to bed.

*****

"Oh I like your shirt!" Cassie said the next Morning.

"It's Kenna's."  Beth told her.

"Really?" Cassie asked voice low.

I saw Beth nod from the corner of my eye.

I sighed, "I have something to do."

I walked away from them. I really didn't want to hear them talk about my dead sister.

"Hey." Eli said, walking around the corner.

"Shit!" I smacked His chest.

"You scared me," I pulled Him into a hug.

"I was walking right to you."

"I wasn't paying attention."

"Well What were you thinking about?"

"My Sister."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No thanks. I got to find Blake and ask Him if He has something." I gave Him a kiss and walked down the hall.

I sat outside the art building, when my foot was kicked. I opened my eyes and looked up.

"Eli said you needed to find me?" Blake asked sitting down.

"Nah, I just wanted to be alone."

"Am I okay or-"

'No your good."

"Why where you wanting to be alone?"

"I was with the girls, but they were talking about My sister, so I left and found Eli, but I didn't want Him feeling bad for Me, So I said I had to find you."

"Why Where they talking about her?" He seemed a little ticked off. "They know that's a very touchy subject for you."

"It's okay." I took his hand. "Beth spent the night last night cause Her parents where fighting. I let her wear Kenna's shirt, because when I moved here I didn't take my clothes, only hers and Ayden's."

"Well are you okay?"

I nodded.

"So what was going on? With Beth I mean. I know it's none of my business, so you can tell me when to but out."

"No it's fine. We made cookies with her Dad, I can see why Beth loves Him so much. When Her Mom came home They started fighting and We went to my house."

"Well did you at least talk to her?"

"Yes."

"And that's where I but out." He said digging in His bag for something.

"I think I helped her."

"Well that's good." He took a purple Monster out of His bag and popped the tab.

He took a drink then handed it over. I took a drink and gave it back to Him.

"So is she good now?"

"As good as a person with her problems can get."

He nodded, and took a drink.

At lunch we all ate in the same place, under the big tree. I sniffed, and then I smelt it. A smell that made Me lose it. I slammed my hands on the table and got up.

"Hey dude, You okay?" Beth asked.

I got up and ran from the table.

"I got it." Eli told them running after me.

I didn't stop running until I was in the Locker hall. I rested my head on a cool locker.

"Scarlett?" Eli asked touching my arm.

I turned around to him and hugged Him, then pushed away.

"No!" I backed up running My hands through my hair and keeping them there. "It's wrong it's all fucking wrong!"

"What's wrong?"

"That sent. It was Ayden, and I flipped the fuck out! I'm not over Him Eli, and it kills Me!"

"It's okay." He reached for Me.

"No Eli!" I jumped back. "It's not okay! I should be over it by now! I should have never got into a relationship with you."

"What do you mean?"

"I'm selfish. It's not only unfair to you that I love someone else, but it's unfair to Me."

"Scarlett. You’re always going to Love Adyen. We can work through this."

"But it's not fair!" I blinked back tears hard as my eyes stung.

"Scarlet, come on. Everything-"

"Please don't say fine."

"It's going to be okay."

"Are you referring to time being a healer, when it's more of a concealer?"

We blinked at each other.

"Listen Eli. I love you I really do, but I just can't do this right Now. I need to go home." I kissed Him and walked out the front door, ditching my backpack at the lunch table, and Eli standing in the hall looking after me.

"Hey what are you-"

"If someone brings My backpack tell them I said thanks but I don't want to see anyone. Tell them, I flipped out, and I can't see anyone right now, cause life is just to fucking hard!"

"Scar!" Lee yelled after me as I ran up the stairs and locked my door.

I walked around my room hands in my hair. I took off my shoes and chucked them at the wall. I unzipped my jacket and fought my way out on it. I slammed it on the floor and walked to the bathroom, with a Mission. A Mission to ease the pain just for a little while. I grabbed the blade and cut four times. This time it was a little deeper.

As I watched the blood rise, I watched the pain go from the inside to the outside. As it dripped onto the counter, the tension eased, and I sat on the toilet grabbing the rag. I cleaned everything up and walked to my closet for a new long sleeved shirt. As I scrapped the hangers across the rail I stopped. My breath caught in my throat as I ran a hand down Ayden's jacket. I put it in my closet when summer began, and never looked at it again. As silent tears rolled down my face, I shook it off the hanger and put it on.

I grabbed the container off the top shelf and opened it taking a whiff. I put one of His shirts in it so I could remember His smell for a while. As I smelled I remembered the smell at lunch. It was a dead ringer, and made my stomach drop. I put the container back and went to my dresser. I kicked off my jeans, through on some sweats and crawled into bed where once again like so many times before, I cried myself to sleep.

****

When I woke up it was still dark out. I looked over at my alarm clock.  Five in the morning. I tossed the blanket off and walked to my bathroom. I turned on the light blinding Myself. I took the Coco butter lotion from the cabinet and set it on the counter. I set Ayden's jacket next to It and lifted the sleeve of My shirt.

It was scabbing a little. I rubbed in the lotion on my forearm. It helped with stretch marks to not scar so maybe it would help My arm. I had to give it a shot. I took a shower and got ready for school slowly. As I jogged down the stairs I almost fell over My back pack. I slung it over My shoulder.

I ate two baby oranges and went to school. I shut my door, and Pulled Ayden's Jacket closer around Me. As I walked to class I saw Blake, Cassie and Beth. Beth Smacked Cassie's arm, and they looked over at Me. I looked down and continued to walk. From the corner of My eye I saw Cassie tug on Blake's shirt. He looked over and Mouthed fuck.

He sped walked to me, and when I Saw that I stopped, turned to Him, let my arms fall to my sides, and Cried. He broke into a run, and Slammed into me with a hug. I rapped my arms around His neck.

"Blakey, it hurts, it really hurts." I sobbed.

"I know. It's just another heart break Baby."

"The pain." I gasped for air. "Please, make it stop."

"I can't baby. I can't." He said on the verge of tears.

I kept grabbing Blake's jacket as If trying to pull Him closer to Me. I wanted to never let Him go. I wanted him in front of me all day and night, to make sure He was safe. He picked me up and began to walk. Soon we were in the bathroom, and He held Me while I cried. Once I was done I pulled back wiping my face.

"Feel better now?"

"Yes and No."

"I'm sorry sweety."

"It's not your fault, I'm Broken."

"Are Sure you can Brave school today?"

"I'm not going to risk it."

"Okay." He nodded turning to the door.

"Wait." I grabbed His arm. "Where you going?"

"Well I was going to go home with you, But if you want me to go to class I-"

"No!" I grabbed onto his arm and pulled Him to Me. "Stay with Me."

*

I sat on the stool in the kitchen as Blake shook a large baggy. He plopped it on the table and opened it up. "There! Homemade Ice cream." He announced.

 He grabbed the Carmel