life ?? - chelsea johnson (uplifting books for women .txt) 📗

my head
“I have missed you too” he chuckled and held me tighter then span me around i giggled and he chuckled
“SECRET” Tyler shouted i froze and i pushed myself away from Lorenzo his smile vanished and he looked down at me and then at Tyler
“HER NAME IS SASHA” he yelled at Tyler
“its not” i whispered Tyler walked up to me and handed me a pain of jogging bottoms “turn around” i whispered they both did and i put it on “ok im done” i said they turned back round
“Where were you i was looking for ages” Tyler sounded mad
“Im sorry i needed time to think” i whispered looking down
“Im sorry i hit you” he whispered kissing me i grimaced and pushed him away from me my lip trembled “secret” he whispered hurt but i didn’t care i have never been hit apart from my brother and my dad and it kills
“I hate you” i screamed at him, i sat on the floor and cried it started to rain and Lorenzo sat next to me,
“Im going” he said then stood up and walked away with out a good bye or a kiss, i sat their and didn’t move
“Baby please come home i need you” he whispered i stayed quiet so he grabbed me and put me over his shoulder i screamed the whole way home. When we got home he opened the door and tears were streaming down my face and i was still screaming at him, i was soaked he chucked me on the floor his mum and dad looked at us and he started shouting at me
“Your worthless, your ugly and i hate you, i wish i never met you, go back to LORENZO! You tramp” he growled and then stormed off i cried and cried on the floor until i lost my voice i sat by the door and everyone was watching me i didn’t move i didn’t eat i just sat their the rest of the day and the whole night Justin stayed with me the whole time he put his arm around me and i started to shake and i was sneezing
“You have got a cold please go to bed” he whispered i nodded but i couldn’t stand up he carried me to my room and laid me down. He sat across from me he gave me two quilts and made me soup i fell asleep and i woke with someone lying next to me i sat up and saw it was Tyler i moved and jumped up
“Baby we need to talk” he whispered i nodded so he continued
“listen im sorry i slapped you i was mad that the boys were looking at you i got really jealous and then i saw you at the park with what ever his name was and i got mad again and the only reason i carried you home was because i didn’t want you to get ill and i swear baby i didn’t mean a single thing i said last night i was just mad that you hit me and screamed at me” he said softly i climbed back on the bed and sat on him and kissed his cheek
“please understand i will wear what i please and even if people look at me i only have eyes for you” i whispered i kissed his cheek and then got off and got dressed in the bathroom in black rev’s and an aqua v-neck vest top i put my hair in a high pony tail and put on some make up i walked out and put on my high-tops and then ran downstairs all the pack was in the kitchen eating i noticed that one of the boys was eating my fruit salad i glared
“Enjoying MY fruit salad” i said looking at Chaz he smirked
“Delicious” he rubbed his tummy
“Idiot” i stomped on the floor and sat down
“Awww baby what’s wrong” Tyler said kissing my cheek
“He ate my breakfast” i moaned pointing to Chaz
“Ill make some more” the chef said i got up and kissed his cheek
“Thank you” i smiled and sat down on the counter
“She is like a two year old” Justin murmured
“I am two” i said sticking out my tongue
“Awww bless her” Justin said smiling while James picked me off the side and put me on a stool i growled at him and he kissed my head
“How are you feeling” he said looking in my eyes with a torch i pushed the torch away
“Better once i eat my salad” i said smiling
“Ok who gave her a happy pill” James said all the boys laughed and i frowned
“Do you want me to be stroppy?” i asked them
“No i like this secret” Justin said messing up my hair i ate my salad and then curled up on the sofa with Tyler i was sucking my thumb and all the boys were watching the TV except Tyler he was kissing my neck i squirmed out of his touch and fell on the floor the boys laughed and i pouted taking my thumb out of my mouth
“TYLER” his dad shouted, “You have given her a hicky” my eyes went wide and i covered my neck, i stood up and smacked Tyler
“You idiot” i yelled and walked upstairs i grabbed a scarf and put it on and walked back downstairs and sat in between Justin and Chaz who kept pulling my scarf down i gave up and took it off
“Baby im sorry come hear” he said i got up and sat next to him he pulled me on to his lap and i snuggled into him and he sighed
“Someone’s satisfied” the boys teased
“Yer i am thanks” i smirked at them
“Having fun?” Tina asked i shook my head
“Good i need to borrow secret” she said i stood up and bent over and kissed Tyler
“See ya baby” i teased him i went over to James and kissed his cheek and all the boy’s cheeks then me and Tina went out we sat in the limo and it started going
“We are going to get your wedding dress fitted” she said bouncing up and down i smiled timidly
“You will be fine” she said rubbing my leg we was in the dress shop for about an hour before i found one i like i felt like a princess we bought it and a vale and shoes i smiled then we went and got our hair done and went dress shopping for tonight as we were going to a restaurant we had so much fun and then when we got home the boys surrounded me when i brought two dresses in but they were in bags so they couldn’t see i giggled and Tyler’s eyes sparkled we starred at each other for a while until Justin broke the silence
“Awww” he said i flushed scarlet and looked down everyone burst out laughing and i hung my head
“Leave her alone” James shouted i looked up and saw Tyler and james in front of me i ran upstairs and into the bedroom i hung them up and went into the bathroom and cleaned my teeth i didn’t have a reason to i just wanted some peace when i came out i herd laughter and the front door slam i walked down stairs and saw a boy iv never met before and a girl who looked about a year older than me Tyler was starring at them with affection they must mean a lot to him. I walked over to Tyler and smiled kindly at the people
“Hello secret iv have herd so much about you, im Kevin Tyler’s older brother” he said i smiled at him and he pulled me into a hug when he let go Tyler was glaring at Kevin
“BABY this is Kevin’s girlfriend Natasha” he said i smiled and shook her hand
“Please call me Tasha” she said
“Hi im secret” she nodded and i went into the kitchen and made myself a glass of orange juice i drank it then i sighed
“Tyler can i go in the pool?” i asked him
“Yer why don’t all go in the pool” Kevin suggested i giggled and me and Tasha ran upstairs and i gave her a bikini and i grabbed one
Tasha wore my gold and silver one it suited her so i said she could keep it i grabbed my black one that fit me perfectly we put our hair up and ran downstairs i had a towel on as i didn’t like my body
Tyler’s point of view
Me and Kevin was in the pool waiting for the girls i herd them giggling and Tasha came out in nothing but a bikini she looked HOT!! I saw secret standing behind the patio door in a towel i hated the fact that she put her self down so much i growled and Tasha snuck up behind her and ripped the towel off her and threw it in the pool she screamed and we all laughed i jumped out and walked over to the door.
She was wearing a black bikini that made her look sexy, with her long black hair tied up i held my arms out and she ran towards me i picked her up and slung her over my shoulder she screamed at me to put her down and i laughed and carried her over to the pool
“Are you gunna get in or do i have to chuck you in?” i asked her she giggled and i put her down she went to run into the house and i grabbed her and threw her in she screamed and then i jumped in we laughed and splashed for the whole day until it got dark and dad shouted at us to get out of we will be late for the dinner party the girls gasped and ran upstairs.
I got ready in a suit but no tie and Kevin did the same we waited at the bottom of the stairs for the girls.
When we herd them coming we looked up and gasped Tasha was in front she had a short pink dress that hugged her body and matching pink stilettos she had her hair pilled up on her head with a pink bow i smiled at her but her eyes were on Kevin so i chuckled and he punched me when i looked up again i saw secret.
She had a long black dress that was strapless, it had a sequin front and it hugs her body until her thighs and then spreads out her hair is strait and hanging down her front and back stopping just after her chest she has make up on but not a lot, she has never looked so gorgeous as far as im concerned she opens her eyes and looks up at me threw her lashes and my breath hitches
“You look beautiful baby” i whisper softly in her ear she giggles and it’s such a lovely noise
“You don’t look too bad yourself” she whispers my family laughs and i grin at her, i hold my arm out
“Miss Johnson” i say she takes my arm
“Mr. Wolf” she giggles i walk her to the car and help her in then i get in Kevin and Tasha get in too and my parents get in as well
“Lucky it’s a limo or some people wouldn’t be going” i murmured Kevin chuckled and