You can't always get what you want - Ale (ebook voice reader .txt) 📗

from yesterday's class. I sighed and looked the other way praying that he wouldn't talk to me. But of course he did.

"It's a nice day, isn't it?" he asked while staring out the windows.
"Yes it is" I answered and tried walking faster.
"So how about we go take a coffee after class?" he asked with a hopeful edge to his voice.
"I'm afraid I have plans already" I answered politely.
"Plans? Which ones? You have a boyfriend?" he kept asking questions and I was beginning to have a headache.
"I'm not obliged to tell you my plans or any other personal information" I looked straight as I said this and walked swiftly to my seat, but to my utter dismay he took the one beside me.
"Oh, touchy are we?" he said and I peeked form the corner of my eye and saw him smirking. Of course he was just a "woman" man, the kind that only likes to play with them and when bored leave without remorse.

I closed my eyes, took a big breath and looked to the other side of the classroom ignoring him. I heard the teacher footsteps and directed my gaze to the front as he spoke and I took notes. In the middle of the class a note landed again in my desk, again. I looked around and this time I saw Blake motioning for me to open it. I debated on whether I should open it or not, but my curiosity took the best of me. Inside it said in neat calligraphy "You are beautiful, you know that?" And despite my effort to not blush, I couldn't help the red that came to my cheeks. Immediately I looked down and let the hair fall over my face so he wouldn't be able to see. When the class had finished I grabbed my things and flew out of the classroom.

Evidently I wasn't fast enough because not two seconds after I had left the class door I felt a presence beside me again. I looked straight as if I hadn't seen and quickened my pace.

"What's the rush Princess?" he asked with cockiness and that did it, I snapped.
"Look, I don't know who you think you are to just come here and try to interfere with my life. Your tricks won't work with me, so stop wasting your time and mind your own business" I whispered-yelled through gritted teeth while halting to a stop and looking him dead in the eye, give him my hardest glare, turn around and run.

Yes I ran. I, a supposedly twenty two years old mature woman ran like a teenager. I reproached myself for my behavior. Firstly because I let myself lose my temper and secondly for running away. When I ran I heard footsteps behind me so I ran faster and got inside my car, speeding away. I looked in the rear view mirror and saw nothing so I breathed because I hadn't realized I had been holding my breath. I turned on the radio, hoping there would be a song that I liked, the song of Ke$ha "Blah Blah Blah" was blasting and I turned up the volume, grabbed my sunglasses and I started "dancing" in my own weird way, very immature I know. But I was happy to forget about everything for a few minutes and just be carefree. Oh, now I know I shouldn't have been distracted. How I regret that blissful happy moment.

Anyhow I won't reveal anything just yet, so as I was saying I danced until the song ended. And then I saw a little shop of coffee and parked outside before going inside. My grandfather loved café, specifically the espresso. When I got inside the sound of a tickling bell was heard and the person behind the counter, who happened to be a young woman about my age with dark brown wavy hair and hazel eyes, her skin was pale and she looked a little like me. Not physically, but I could see that behind her façade was a sad girl wishing for fun and friends, so I couldn't help when I got there and ordered the espresso for my Nonno and gave her a brilliant smile. She handed me the coffee and I thanked her trailing off searching for her name.

"Oh, I'm Courtney"
"Well Courtney thanks for the coffee and I hope to see you around" I smiled again and left, wondering if she caught on to my silent sentence the one I implied 'I hope we can be friends'

With that thought I got in my car and continued my way. As I got closer I couldn't help the dread I felt and anxiousness. I got out of the car, grabbed the book and coffee and shut it. I started walking to the entry and as I passed the glass doors I saw someone reflected in them and immediately my body stiffened and I froze. I wanted to keep walking, I really wanted to but my body wouldn't respond to my commands so I waited helplessly for that someone to come near me, right until I was face to face with him.

Chapter 2

There in his 6’1 glory stood the one person I wanted the least to see. The one who I once trusted with everything but showed me one can never trust easily, because it takes years to build it but one action to destroy it. His brown eyes bore into me, but I refused to give in. Slowly I sidestepped and tried walking away, but he knew me too well. His voice stopped me dead on my tracks.

“Long time no see, sis” I could feel the smile in his voice.
“You’re not my brother” I spat and continued walking, but stopped again because of his next words.
“Oh, don’t be like that! How’s grandpa?”
“That. Is none of your business” I kept walking and he didn’t stop me again.

While I was in the elevator unwanted memories came to my mind. I want to forget them but they always come back to me. I shook my head in a desperate instance to keep them away, locked in a corner of my mind. I stepped out of the elevator and went directly to his room. He was sleeping again and I went to shake him and him his coffee.

“Thanks Dear, how are you?” That question the one I dreaded the most.
“I’m…fine, how about you? How are you feeling?”
“Better than ever” he flashed me a grin but suddenly broke into coughs.

My face fell, but I quickly recomposed it and waited until he could talk. I didn’t want to read to him at this moment so we kept talking about everything, old times and family. Soon it was time for me to go to work so I said goodbye and after hugging him I left his room and the hospital. When I got my car there was a note stuck to it. I read it in my mind ‘Someday you’ll have to get over it. I see you got your dream car. Love, B’ I crumpled it and threw it away. Love? If anything he has shown to me he does not love me at all, and B of Brother? I already told him he’s no longer my brother!

My mood was ruined but I had to get to work. My part-time job of the music store is only Tuesday and Thursday. The rest of the days I worked for my uncle, it was as a preparation for when I graduated. Most of the time I just tell the builders where small and insignificant things go, as concrete, tubes or rocks. Sometimes I get lucky and can guide the construction by myself.

After working for three hours I got in my car again and drove to a diner to have some food. I ordered a steak with rice and started eating. I left the money on the table and got in my car ready to go home. I felt guilty about not visiting my grandfather again but I had too much work to do. Maybe if I get to sleep early I’ll wake up earlier and go visit him in the morning.

I finished everything at 11pm. I was about to go to bed when I received a text message. ‘I guess you’re asleep, just wanted to say goodnight and sweet dreams’ It was from my mom. I smiled and replied. I live in Boston and my Nonno was in the hospital here because they have the best doctors but almost all my family live in California. I was staring at the ceiling while thinking and slowly I fell asleep. I wanted to have a dreamless night, but that was too much to ask.

It was raining heavily but I wasn’t in the house and neither was he. I was screaming at him to stop, but he didn’t listen. I watched helplessly as one of the people I loved the most destroyed everything. My world.

“Damen! Stop! STOP! Please!” I was screaming so loudly that after sometime I just didn’t have voice.

I wanted to run to him but something was holding me back. Tears were invisible because of the rain, I was freezing and completely soaked but I didn’t care about that at the moment. Suddenly a thunder echoed and I jumped. Slowly he turned his head at me and grinning evilly he took a step closer with the knife still in his hands.

I woke up with a gasp, sweating. Tears were in my cheeks and I was trembling. I put my head in my pillow and gave a strangled scream. I screamed and screamed until I had no voice and I was so tired that I was surrounded by darkness.

The next day was a blur for me. I was in a numb state. I woke up and dressed up mechanically, then shoved an apple in my mouth and got out. I got inside my car and took my time to turn on the engine. I started towards the hospital, but changed my mind at the last moment and went to a lonely Starbucks. I didn’t want to see my grandfather because then I wouldn’t be able to control myself and would fall apart. Why? Why did he show up after such a long absence?

The glass doors opened as I was near and I made my way in. After ordering I took a seat in an empty table and just stared off into space thinking. I looked down and saw that I had already finished my coffee, I was about to get up but then I felt someone in front of me, I looked up to see Blake.

“What are you doing here?” I asked looking away.
“Drinking my coffee, what else?” he said and I rolled my eyes.
“Well I hope you like it, but right now I have to go, bye!”

I got up and after grabbing my bag left. Not before I heard Blake muttering “Bye to you too…” This is the best, I told myself. I was reminded yesterday what trusting someone can do to you and I won’t be so naïve again. It wasn’t your fault another voice said, but I just shook my head as I arrived at my car.

Classes went by in a blur. Unlike others day, I barely paid attention. Of course I received another note from the infamous Blake, this time it read: “And the Princess built a tower for herself, not letting the rest to ever hurt her again” I don’t know why, but he always was accurate