You can't always get what you want - Ale (ebook voice reader .txt) 📗

Lizzie was waiting patiently and Derek was holding one of my hands. I took a deep breath and opened the door. He was awake again and I became worried. What did Damen say to him when he visited? I wanted to ask him but I was afraid of what the answer to that question might be. Also I had more important matters at hand, such as Derek. As soon as he saw us his eyes went to the kid in a questioning stance.

“Why awe we hewe Addi?” he asked with an innocent voice and big eyes. I winced at his nickname, that’s how he used to call me.
“Because I need to talk to my grandfather, meanwhile why don’t you and Liz go buy some chocolate or something like that?” I said smiling and sending Lizzie a pleading look.

She took his little hand in hers and they went through the door making small conversation. Mainly Derek asking questions and she answering them. When they left I took a seat beside the bed.

“I think you’ve already figured out that I won’t be reading the last part of the chapter now” I said with an apologetic smile and he nodded before I carried on “I was walking to work when I bumped into him accidentally. He said he didn’t know where his parents were, so we asked for them through the intercom. His mother was a teenage girl, who said she didn’t want him and then went away. Oh Nonno, what can I do with him?” I asked worried putting my hands in my face.
“Dear, why do you ask me when you already know the answer?” I sighed and looked away.
“I’m only 22 I don’t think I can maintain him and also I study and have work. Who would take care of him meanwhile?”
“You go to classes at the very late until 4 right? During that time he can go to school and stay a little bit late finishing his homework and you can take him with you to work. About money, don’t worry I know you’ll figure it out” he said patting my back and I smiled but then frowned.
“Well ok, I could do that. But what about the legal papers?”
“Don’t worry about that, here take this card to my lawyer. He’ll help you out and money isn’t a problem, tell him you’re my granddaughter. I didn’t work all my life for nothing” at the last part he winked and I hugged him tightly after getting the card.
“Thanks so much for everything”

I wanted to cry of happiness because I have the best Nonno in the world and also of sadness because he was here at the hospital. Instead I pulled away and smiled before excusing myself and saying I’ll come by tomorrow and going to find Lizzie and Derek. But before finding them I called the lawyer and arranged a meeting tomorrow at eight o’clock. Suddenly I thought of something, what if Derek didn’t want to stay with me? What if he preferred an adoption center? I’ll ask him today when we arrive at my apartment. My apartment! I only have one room, God this is harder than I thought. I guess I could sell my apartment and look for a bigger one. But that’ll take a while.

When I found them Derek was eating ice cream and had it all over his face. I laughed and shook my head. They turned around at the sound of my laugh and came to meet me.

“Why you laughin Addi?”
“Maybe because you have a little bit of ice cream, here and here and oh! Here too” I said chuckling and cleaning his face while talking. His cheeks turned pink and I smiled.
“You know you too really seem like mother and son” Lizzie said smiling and looking at us tenderly. To my surprise Derek nodded his head and then said:
“But Addie is my new mommy, awen’t you?” he asked me and I couldn’t help but smile big.
“Of course I am” he smiled wider and hugged me tightly.
“Derek! Now my shirt has even more ice cream” I said frowning and he laughed.
“Sowy”
“I don’t think you mean that” I muttered mostly to myself.

After that we all got in the car and I drove Elizabeth to her house and then went to mine, or should I say ours? It sounds strange to say it. As soon as we arrived Derek jumped out of the car and started running to the building. I got out too and walked slowly, making him impatient.

“Huwy up Addie! I wanna see my new home!”

Even though I didn’t want to I quickened my pace a little bit almost as a reflex. When I got to the door I opened it and went to the elevator with him holding my hand. That little boy! He pressed all the buttons of every floor and it took forever to reach mine (8th) I scolded him and in return I got a smile so I just sighed and let it go.

“Ok, so we’re here” I said opening the door to my apartment. He bounced in and went to do a tour by himself and then turned to me.
“Whewe am I sleeping?”
“Umm, well today you’ll have to sleep with me on my bed, but if you don’t feel comfortable I can sleep on the couch”
“Nu-uh mommy sleeps with me” he said smiling widely and my heart leaped when he called me mommy.
“Ok, so what do you want for dinner?” I asked smiling.


Chapter 3

Kill me now. Let me explain why, since its Friday and Derek can’t start school today I thought “I guess I can take him with me to class, how much damage can he do?” I should’ve left him at home. You know when in shows someone says “It could be worse” and everything starts to go wrong? I feel exactly like that now. First at the apartment he got stuck in the toilet and while I helped him (It was a little awkward, I admit) the toast I was making burnt. After I tried to make mix for pancakes and he distracted me and threw the mix all around the kitchen, and at last I tried with cereal and he made a disaster on the table. Because all of this I was already late and sped up a bit to go to the University, and guess what? A policeman saw and gave me a ticket. Let me tell you, at this point I was already fuming. And Derek non-stop talk was only making it worse.

“Can you just shut up?” I snapped and saw his eyes spark with tears. “I’m sorry Dee, I’m just a little bit cranky, could you please be silent for a minute so I can calm myself?” I took my eyes off the road for a second and saw him nod and when I look up again I saw I was about to crash. I took a wild turn and heard the tires screech and the other driver pointed the finger at me. “Shoot” I said and stopped to the side of the road “Are you ok Derek?” I asked him while scanning for any damage.
“Ok? That was awesome! Can you do it again mommy?” he said grinning and I shook my head, smiling a bit before driving the rest of the way to Harvard.

I got out and shut the door of the car and went and opened Derek’s. He took my hand and I had barely time to lock the car before he started running off, while dragging me, to the opposite direction of my class. I tried stopping but he was strong for his age, and all I managed to do was take my hand out and he kept running. So I had to run while trying to catch him. When I finally got him I looked at my watch and saw I was already thirty minutes late. I stopped the urge to curse and almost ran to my class.

Now I was in front of the door, mustering the courage to open it and walk inside with a little boy who was jumping up and down. I took a deep breath and turned the knob before walking inside. I swear every pair of eyes turned to me and the teacher sent an angry look my way. My cheeks turned bright red and I let my hair fall over my face to cover the blush. And as I was walking to the only empty seat, that luckily, not! Was beside Blake, Derek decided to talk, or most likely shout.

“Whewe awhe we mommy?” I froze, literally. I couldn’t make a move. Yet see anyone in the eye.

When I shook awake from my temporary shock, mostly because the lecturer said “You’re late already Miss White, do all of us a favor and take a seat”, I walked with my head down in defeat and slumped in my seat. Tears were making their way to my eyes and I blinked furiously to keep them away. Why was I sad? Derek didn’t do a thing but say the truth, so why did I felt like this? Maybe because I didn’t want strangers to think the worse of me, but again, why do I care about what others think? I let my head rest in my desk, only to feel a note landing in my head and Derek tugging on my hand. I decided to look at the little kid first.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.
“I don’t have a seat” he said looking down and I pat my lap and answered.
“Come here” he looked up, his eyes bright and jumped on my lap. I smiled at him and then bent down to grab a notebook and take notes.

As I was leaning over I felt the note fall to the floor. I picked it up and opened it without thinking. It read “I didn’t know you had a husband. Must be a lucky guy” Husband. That word brought painful memories, ones that would be always imprinted in my head. I willed myself to forget, but my mind liked to play cruel games with me and one of her favorite one was to every time I got close to enjoy myself and life shatter t it and remind me reality was no joy ride. This, was what made everything break, I couldn’t stand it anymore. I grabbed my bag, took Derek’s hand and walked out the door. As soon as I was out I began running towards the parking lot, Derek was laughing freely, thinking we were playing a game, unaware of my pain and the tears that were trailing down my cheeks and to the ground. And I like it that way, I didn’t want him to be sad or ask questions. As I got in the car I heard my name being shouted but I ignored it and reversed before speeding out of the University and towards the hospital. I’m weak, there’s no denying that. I can’t fool myself, because I bet that if someone else had my life then they wouldn’t be so soft like me. I cry easily, I get sad easy, but the one lesson I learnt is to not let anyone in my heart. Well apart from my family and Lizzie. I was too focused on my thoughts that I didn’t realize I had past the hospital. I stopped the car and banged my head with the steering wheel before turning the other