Overcoming Circumstances - Belinda Slider-Baker (books on motivation .TXT) 📗

kissed me.  It wasn't just a quick goodnight kiss, it was a passionate kiss.  I couldn't resist.  I kissed Thane back with so much passion.  I put my hands around his face, and he did the same.  He slowly stopped kissing me and told me that he would wash my body now.  I just leaned back against the tub and closed my eyes.  I heard him put body wash on the sponge.  He started with my feet.  Then massaged my feet and worked his way up my legs.  As he got to my thighs, his hands began to shake.  He washed my thighs without touching my private parts.  He washed my belly so carefully.  As he got to my breasts he paused.  He asked me to sit up, and he would wash my back.  I leaned forward and he washed my back.  He then handed me the sponge and told me I needed to finish washing my delicate parts.  I started to joke with him.  

"You can't wash delicate parts Mr. Thane?"  

"Oh, I can wash delicate parts, Miss Blythe, but I don't think you will like the outcome."  

"Try me!" 

He grabbed the sponge from my hand.  I was nervous yet excited.  He slowly rubbed the soapy sponge over my breasts.  He made sure to rub the nipple extra long.  I let out a small noise with the touch.  His blue eyes told me everything.  As he made his way down my belly, he stopped but instead of rewashing my belly, he placed a kiss upon my baby pouch.  A tear formed in my eye.  Never in my entire life has anyone ever treated me this way.  Besides having sex once with Cooryn our senior year, the only other guy I had been with was Tanner.  When I was battling cancer, it was just too much on me emotionally.  I just didn't really care about sex that much.  I thought my life was ruined forever.  As soon as he kissed my belly, his lips found mine again.  As soon as he kissed me, the sponge moved down to my crotch.  As he was washing my feminine parts, the blood in my veins was on fire.  I couldn't think straight.  Four months ago with Cooryn, I was a little drunk, but I was always comfortable around Coor.  He had been my best friend for years and years.  Thane, I have known each other for a couple of years.  I know he would never hurt me, but Cooryn didn't even do these things to me.  Hell, Tanner never did either.  I was getting a little nervous, yet excited at the same time.  Thane must have felt something was off.  He immediately stopped washing and kissing me and got up off the floor.  

"What is wrong Thane?" I asked in a very low upset voice.  

"I thought I was hurting you, honey."  

"Thane, you could never hurt me.  Why would you even think that?"  

"I am sorry, Blythe.  Let's get you out of the tub, and we can lie on the bed and talk for a while."  

"Okay, sounds like a plan."

Thane helped me out of the tub.  He helped me put on a night shirt and underwear.  He told me to stay right there for a moment.  He needed to run down to his rental car and grab his bag and book a room.  I told him he could stay in my suite.   

"Blythe, I will sleep on the couch then."  

I didn't even argue.  I knew no matter what happened, and I wanted him to just hold me.  

"Okay, whatever you want Thane."  

Thane rushed down and grabbed his bag.  He hurried up and jumped in the shower.  In less than 30 minutes we were both lying on my bed watching a movie.  I was curled up around his body with my head on his chest.  He would kiss the top of my head from time to time.  His other hand was running down my back.  He was taking his thumb and making circles around my skin.  I don't know if it was on purpose or just nervousness.  The more he did that the more my body wanted to respond.  Finally, I lifted my head and looked into his beautiful marble blue eyes.  He looked right back down into my blue eyes.  Before I could blink, his lips were meeting mine.  I turned and was lying on top of him.  We both realized that we were in a very serious position.  Yet, I didn't care.  We were kissing and rubbing against each other.   Before we could continue, Thane asked me a question.

"Blythe, I don't want to hurt you.  You were cramping early.  But first, please talk to me about Tanner."  

I went numb.  I rolled off of his body and turned over on my side and curled up in a ball.  He brought his body to contour against mine.  

"Blythe, please, I know I shouldn't be asking, but please I need to know."

"I already told you our condom broke. I got pregnant.  He didn't want children.  He asked me to get an abortion and when I refused he hurt me.  He hurt me badly."  

"How bad?  I know I made you stop on the phone.  I didn't want you to tell me on the phone.  I never thought we would end up in the position we are in either."  

Tears were streaming down my face.  

"He punched me in the face two or three different times.  I tried to fight back.  He was just too strong for me.  I was already having morning sickness and was weak.  When I got into a ball to protect my belly, he just started kicking me in the side.  When I went to turn around he grabbed me by the hair of my head and threw me against the wall.  He took his shoe and started kicking me in the stomach numerous times.  When I started to bleed between my legs, he ripped off...off my clothes.  I can't finish Thane."  

By this time Thane had turned around facing me and holding me so tight against his chest.  He was rubbing my back and whispering soothing words.  

"He raped you didn't he?" 

All I could gasp out was a "yea."  I looked up, and Thane had tears in his eyes.  

"I am not scared of you Thane.  I know you would never hurt me.  My first time having sex was with Cooryn when we were seniors in high school.  Oh, God, my past."  

"Blythe, what about your past?"  

"I can't do this.  I can't let you get wrapped up in my warped world.  I am poison Thane.  You deserve a woman who will give you what you need and no baggage.  I have too much baggage."  

Thane took his fingers and lifted my chin to look at him.  

"Blythe, I want to know about you, and your past.  No matter what it is, I will never walk out on you, never."

"Yes you will.  You will never be able to handle my past.  I never told Tanner my past.  Cooryn and Marissa are the only friends of mine that know."  

"I hope you can tell me what happened to you, Blythe."  

"My past was just as bad as it was with Tanner."  

Thane's grip tightened around me.  I could hear him swallow hard.  

"When I was in middle school, my Granny got custody of me.  My real dad was remarried and had another child.  I do have a brother, Jasop.  My mom and I were living with her boyfriend, Chuck.  Chuck was a bastard.  He was a sleazy perverted man."  

Thane must have known where this was headed.  He switched us on the bed.  He was sitting up against the headboard, and I was straddling facing him.  

"At first he would just say sexual things to me."  

I couldn't look Thane in the eyes.  I kept my head down, and he didn't push for anything different.  

"Then, he would get into a tickle thing with me.  Of course it was just so he could touch my breasts, but then one evening while my mom was cooking dinner, he put his hands under my shirt.  He started really touching my breasts.  I bolted from the room and locked myself in my room.  He came to my room and told me to open the door or else.  So, I opened the door.  This was the start of a monster.  He would send my mom on all kinds of errands.  At first it was all oral sex.  I vomited every time.  He would bite me and leave marks all over my feminine parts.  It used to hurt so bad.  He would get so mad at me after I got sick with the oral sex.  He would punch me.  He made sure to leave marks where no one would see them.  He told me if I told he would kill me.  After the first month, I told him to just kill me, I didn't want to live."  

Thane just gasped and kissed my forehead.  

"Once I said that, that is when he started to rape me all of the time.  He said if I wanted to die then he was going to make it worth my while.  After he raped me five times in one day, I stopped talking.  I hurt so badly.   It wasn't long after that that I started to get very painful periods.  So, the rapes didn't happen as much after that.  Finally, during my sixth grade year, I told a teacher.  I was taken straight to the guidance counselor.  After telling him what happened, he called my parents. Yes, there sat my mom and dad in a room together.  I got to sit in a small room off from the office.  I could hear what was going on.  My mom denies everything, and my dad is so mad.  I was so relieved when I heard my dad yelling.  I knew he would come and take me away from Chuck.  Whenever the counselor was done talking to my parents, he told my parents he wanted to talk to me with each of them individually.  So, my mom stayed in the room while my dad sat in the hallway.  I walked into the room, and my mom was so mad at me.  She just started calling me a liar and said I was jealous of her relationship with him.  I had enough.  Right in front of the counselor, I pulled up my shirt and I had two boot mark bruises on my stomach.  The counselor gasped and my mom got up and walked out.  My dad immediately ran into the room and froze.  He came to hug me, and I froze.  I started to hit him and scream.  I told him not to hurt me to just leave me alone.  The counselor then tried to talk to me.  The counselor knew not to approach me after what just happened.  My dad kept trying to tell me that it was him and not Chuck.  Finally after I calmed down, I let my dad touch the bruise.  He asked where else I have bruises.  I told him on my upper arms and thighs.  I wasn't sure about my crotch area. My dad's face went pale.  By the time this was all said, a woman walked into the room."  

"Blythe, you don't have to continue if you want to just stop."  

"No, I need to tell you everything."  

"Okay, honey, tell me whatever you want, I am here.  I am not going anywhere."  

As soon as I took a deep breath I continued. 

"The lady was Dr. Hampton.  She asked me to come with her.  I told her everything.  She told me she had to photograph my body and take some samples from my body.  I was humiliated, but she was wonderful to me.  I felt so comfortable with her.  After she was done, the counselor and a police woman were waiting for us in Dr. Hampton’s office.  Dr. Hampton's office was only a block from the school.   I heard Dr. Hampton tell the police woman that I had multiple contusions and had been raped.  I had a torn