Overcoming Circumstances - Belinda Slider-Baker (books on motivation .TXT) 📗

how to trust a boy when I was in 7th grade.  It took you almost a year to make me understand that not every boy would try to touch or hurt me.  You showed me that, you Cooryn.  I thought after that night four months ago.  I thought just maybe, just maybe you had rethought what you wanted out of life.  I thought just maybe you love me.  Not our friendship love, but real honest to god love.  Boy, I was way wrong on that.  I should have known you would never love me.  I was stupid to even think anything beyond you being my best friend.  I know you are a bachelor and will always be that.  You don't want a wife or kids.  I get it.  Okay, I finally f***ing get it."  

Cooryn just stood there.  His mouth was standing wide open and his eyes were darker blue than I had ever seen them.  I did tell myself that our child would have beautiful blue eyes and light colored hair.  I just had to hope and pray the baby looks like me.  

"Bly, I had no idea you felt that way.  I just thought you wanted my body to numb your pain.  I didn't think you loved me beyond friendship.  I never want to lose our friendship.  I care about you way too much to ever let that happen.  I am sorry we were drunk and had sex four months ago.  I am sorry if I hurt you in any way.  I never meant to do that to you.  Please tell me you understand.  I never called or text, because I just knew that deep down inside you needed space.  Hell, maybe I knew how you felt deep down inside and needed to shut you out so you would move on and not dwell on me.  You know I will never change.  No matter how hard I try, I will never marry nor have children.  My dad beat my mom and me. After so long, she left him, but still made me see that madman.  It took you, you Bly to make it all stop.  I slept in your bed more than I ever slept at home Bly.  You were my best friend.  I never had a best friend until you.  You bandaged my broken body.  You kissed away the pain.  You let me know that life was worth living.  You made me whole.  Our friendship is what kept me going.  I would never risk ruining that for sex.  Do you understand?"  

"Yes, Coor, I understand.  I am sorry; I am so hormonal and bitchy anymore.  I just don't want us to leave Greenville, and you decide you are not going to call or text for months again.  I can't handle that either.  You are either in or out of my life." I said in a very low voice.  

"I will never abandon you again, Bly.  I will keep my promise.  I will never take our friendship for granted again.  I love you baby.  Until next time."  

"I love you too, Coor. Until next time."  

We hug each other.  I have had enough of the emotional rollercoaster.  Coor walks me to the elevator.  As the door opens and I step in, Coor puts his foot in the elevator door to keep it from closing and then presses his lips to mine.  I kissed him back and put my head down.  I really wanted to tell him the truth.  I played back our conversation we just had.  He didn't want me.  He doesn't want me or any other woman as a wife or mate.  He sure in the hell doesn't want children.  Thane is my baby's father.  I have to let everyone believe that.  

Thane was waiting for me in the lobby.  He automatically knew something was wrong when I got off the elevator.  I wasn't going to tell him everything that happened though.  He immediately rushed to me.  He said everything was taken care of, and he just wanted to get me back to Lexington.  I totally agreed with him.  I told him we could talk on the plane.  We boarded his private jet.  The first thing that shot out of my mouth was: 

"Thane, please understand that I do not want one penny of your money.  I have my own money.  I don't expect you to pay for anything for me or the baby.  I don't want you to think I am with you because you have money. Please tell me you believe that."  

"Blythe, if I thought for one minute you were with me for my money, I wouldn't be here. I have always had to keep my guard up when it comes to women.  I made the mistake of marrying one gold digger.  The only positive thing with that marriage was I had a prenup with her.  I wasn't supposed to give her a dime of my money.  I am too soft hearted.  I gave her one million dollars to go away and never come back.  I know that sounds horrible, but I didn't want to watch her have a child with another man."  

I froze in my seat.  

"Thane, then what do you truly think of me then?  Here I am having another man's baby, and you want to be a part of his or her life.  What happens if you get sick of the baby and me or decide you don’t want to raise another man's baby? Are you going to pay me off so I will leave?"  

"Hell no, Blythe, I want to be with you, Blythe.  The circumstances in that situation were so different from this one Blythe.  You know that.  I have cared about you for over a year now!  I would never feel I would have to pay you to leave my life.  NEVER!"  

"Thane, I really need to call Marissa.  Do you mind if I call her?"  

"No, I don't mind at all.  Would you like me to leave you alone while you speak with her?"  He said in a very soft and caring voice.  

"I don't care if you stay."  

I got out my cell phone and called Marissa.  I forgot about not telling Thane everything that happened when I went to talk to Cooryn before we left.  I knew he was listening, but he was pretending to be going over some documents in his briefcase.  I knew he was listening because when I told Maris about the blond mimbo, Thane’s eyebrows raised up a little bit.  I don't know how he took what I said to Maris, but I don't want to keep any secrets from him.  I hate secrets.  They tear people apart.  I know, I lived with a horrible secret for years.  I did notice a smile go across Thane's face when I told Maris that I wasn't going to tell Coor he was the father.  I would just let Coor think that Thane was the father.  Maris was actually happy with that answer.  She knows how Coor is.  She knew he would hurt me if I told him.  She knows how complicated it all got.  I talked to her for a few more minutes.  I told her I loved her and would hopefully be able to see her and Emmison in the near future.  Maris and I always tell each other before we hang up 'Until we talk again....I miss...love you.'

When I hung up, a tear fell down my cheek.  Thane was right beside me wiping it away.  He said that was the sweetest thing he has ever heard.  I asked him what the sweetest thing he has ever heard was.  He said the way we hung up with each other.  I told him that Maris really liked him.  He smiled.  He said we would be landing in Lexington in about 5 minutes.  I needed to sit and buckle up.

After we landed, Thane asked me if I would go back to his house with him.  At first I was really reluctant, but his house was very close to the private airport.  I finally told him sure.  We got to Thane's house around 1am.   It was a beautiful three story home.  I couldn't wait until tomorrow to go exploring.  When we got inside, he asked if I was hungry.  I really was hungry.   He carried me up to his master bedroom.  All I can say is "wow".  He told me to get comfortable, and he would be right back.  I stripped down and found one of Thane’s white t-shirts on his dresser.  It smelled like him.  I put it on.  Thane walked in the room and stopped in the doorway.  I asked him if everything was alright.  He said his shirt never looked better!  He had two different kinds of sandwiches, homemade noodles, pickles and juice on a tray.  I had to chuckle about the pickles.  He stripped down to his boxers.  He placed the serving tray on the side table and sat on the bed with me.  He asked if I wanted to eat on the bed or on the couch that was in the corner by the fireplace.  I told him it didn't matter to me.  We opt to stay in bed.  We ate everything.   I remember Thane taking the tray and walking out of the room.  When I woke up sometime early morning, I felt a warm body surrounding me.  At first, I panicked.  I then realized where I was at, and who I was with.  

"Good morning beautiful." he said in a sexy voice.  

"Good morning to you too." I said back in a very tired voice.  

"What are you doing today, Blythe?"  

“I don't have any plans."  

"Great, I have somewhere I would like to take you."  

"Where?" 

"It is a surprise." 

"Are you up to flying in my plane again?"  

"I can fly, but where are we going, Thane.  I am really bad with surprises.  I can't wait until next month so I can find out the sex of the baby.  It is killing me not to know."  

"Patience, honey, patience."  

We got up, showered, and ate breakfast.  I noticed that Thane already had our bags loaded in his car.  We headed straight back to the private airport.  I heard him say something to his pilot, but I didn’t hear every word he said.  The minute we landed, I knew we were in Michigan.  He brought me to Michigan to see Marissa, Emmison and Geoffrey.  I grabbed him and gave him the biggest kiss I could possibly give.  He held me and kissed me back.  

"Thank you Thane, you have no idea how much this means to me.  I haven't seen Marissa since my granny died.  We talk everyday, either by phone, texting, or email, but seeing her and my god-daughter in person, nothing compares to that.  This will be the first time I get to see her new house.  I need to call and tell her I am here.  I hope she isn't busy."  

"Blythe, she isn't busy.  I have already talked to her." Thane said in a very happy voice.  

"You are the best, Thane.  I truly mean that with all of my heart.  You are way too good for me."  

"No, you are too good for me, baby."  

There was a convertible waiting for us in the parking lot.  We got in the car, and the GPS took us straight to Maris's house.  I walked up on the porch and was getting ready to knock when Emmison opened the door, and Maris was right behind her.  I picked up Emmison and gave Maris the best hug.  We both were crying.  Emmison is rolling her eyes and wiping her mom and my tears.  She made everyone laugh when she looked at Thane and said: 

"They are so silly.  I don't know why they cry all the time.  They are so crazy."  

Thane just giggled.  Emmison extended her arms out to Thane.  Thane looked at Marissa, and she nodded her head yes.  Emmison threw herself into his arms.  He swung her around in the air.  Emmison just laughed and laughed.  

Thane was excited when Emmison jumped into his arms.